Kay.
It's been 6 hours and no sign of Carlos.
I'm in my bed trying to sleep but It's evident I have become too much dependent on him.
Lately, I often look forward to bedtime. Am not being naughty but sleeping in his arms, damn.
They are so big and whenever they hold me, I don't have to think or worry about anything whatsoever.
The warmth of his body lulls me to sleep and boy, does he smell so fine.
I miss him. I think at this moment am way far gone.
That is really a bad thing though, but then again, it's a relief having a shoulder to lean on because am human after all.
Admittedly, I have started feeling something for Carl and it frightens me.
I don't know if he's changed but I fear he will break my heart.
I never had a boyfriend or felt an attraction towards a man prior. I can't believe the first person to make me feel that way is a complete sin.
To make it worse, I don't know if I affect him in the same manner or even the tiniest.