CHAPTER 06 DEAR LITTLE SISTER, REVOLT AND DELIGHT, MY NAME IS ALICE

ALICE

I drop my cell phone as soon as I see the last message sent by Isabele, I don't know how things will be tomorrow, this year started in such a crazy way that I don't even know how to rebel about everything. I'm getting deeper into my own confusion, I even miss when I felt lighter.

And it's all because of her, even if it's hard to assume.

I stop started, I saw her coming today thinking about the classroom, the vision that can make inside her look and look inside her face.

I don't know what it was that happened, if it was because of the fact that when she stood in front of the room, it resulted in a certain explosion inside me that was, but a mix of sensations was present Never felt before, as if that cake of Eternity Eternally, just waiting for something to happen.

Or someone shows up.

I always liked to have control, of emotions, actions, behavior etc, but now it's different, I'm lost in all points, maybe that's why I cried a barrier between me and her, maybe, my subconscious made an anger grow inside me, to block everything I feel when I see.

I decide to talk to the person who understands me the most, and who always helps me when I am lost.

I reach for my cell phone again and call my sister, I think she must be awake. I wait about two minutes and then she answers:

- Look who showed up, did you remember you have a sister? - provokes Carol as soon as she answers.

- I'm sorry if now I'm a busy girl because of my studies," I say with a mocking smile.

- Save it Alice, it seems that I do not know you, come on, start what and can confirm . - says. As I said, no one knows me better than Carol, not even our parents know that much about me.

- Tomorrow I have an assignment at Isabele's house, it wasn't a choice, it was the history teacher who chose us as doubles, and I don't know sister, this year I am so lost, and more stressed and impatient, I don't know what to do or what to think about these things - all at once.

I guess I just needed to get it off my chest.

Well, you must be yourselves about things, but why don't you tell your friends about these things?

Actually, I don't know the answer, I trust them, and I am very grateful to have such amazing friends, but I don't know if they would understand me, so I try to overcome my dilemmas by myself, or I try to talk to my sister when I have no way out, which I am doing now.

- Wow, I didn't think you would talk like that on that level," she reveals, going blank for a while, but soon comes back;

- Don't be like that Alice, you think too much, you worry too much, I have already argued with you about this, especially when it comes to your relationship with her, it does a lot of harm, you don't have to think about the consequences of everything, just live and wait for it to bring, relax and don't charge yourself with anything, I that Isabele brings you a lot of feelings, you know it's that, you just don't want to admit it, and I will only respect that and you too when you are ready to admit everything, but first you have to give this situation a chance, fighting with her or storing your feelings will only make you more lost, trust me, I know how it is, but you are too young to be going crazy for something so simple - he finishes his speech.

I remain silent for a while thinking and processing about everything she said and what I should do, but I end up choosing silence as an answer. She realizes this and quickly changes the subject trying to make me forget all this for a while.

13:30 and here I am, all dressed up and smelling nice, ready to go to Isabele's house, am I a little nervous? Yes, but I have to face it. I think about sending a message telling me when I am leaving the house, but I end up changing my mind because I think this is an action.

I keep messing with my cell phone all the way to the door to tell my mother that she is waiting in the car to drop me off;

- Why do you look so nervous? - she asks, but without taking her eyes off the road.

- EU? I'm not nervous, just apprehensive about doing an assignment with the person I fight the most at school - I speak quickly.

- Okay then, if you say so, just know that I'm here to talk, all right? I know that your father and I are still working a lot, but we're still pitching in here for you-she speaks and looks at me quickly with a smile.

I just nod my head and go downstairs to stare at the view while some great music plays in the background.

I come back to reality when my mother parks the car in front of the house that probably belongs to Isabele.

- Bye Mom, when I see that it's almost over, I'll call you," I say goodbye after giving her a short hug.

- Goodbye my daughter, and judgment seen - he lowers the car window and sends a kiss, leaving then.

I take a deep breath and walk towards the door of the house, which is quite nice, by the way. I ring the doorbell and quickly hear a voice saying that I'll be right there.

As soon as I hear the door open, I raise my head and find Isabele, in her most casual way possible, this is the first time I see her without her sweatshirts and school uniform. A blouse twice the size of her has a Star Wars print, black shorts, SA Monsters slippers, and tied up hair, but always with her glasses.

Simply cute.

She seems to me a little more shy, pink that tells little of what makes her opinion at its most beautiful;

- Ah hi Alice, sorry for the delay, I was just finishing entering my room, come in - she speaks a bit awkwardly and moving away a little so I can enter inside her residence.

- All right, can we get down to work soon? - Yeah, maybe I'm being a little agonistic, but it's the best I can do in this situation.

She silently agrees and heads for the stairs, and I follow her up the stairs to what is probably her bedroom.

There it is literally the best place to define Isabele, it carries the neutral cores in transmitting a calmer atmosphere in the room, a lighted space from wall to wall, a television attached to the wall that underneath is her writing with her computer and some drawing materials, in the doorway is her wardrobe, and in the corner on the other side of the room, is her double bed, with posters of those nerdy things she likes. But what I liked the most, no doubt, was this rug that covers almost the entire room, I could sleep on it so cute.

- Nice room," I say as soon as she closes the door, trying somehow to lessen this awkward atmosphere that is paired together.

She ends up looking at me surprised by the comment;

- Thanks, my mom ended up helping me to design it," Isabele says, eventually changing the subject:

- As you say, separate some observations on the work theme, as you probably don't know our subject well, this can deliver to help you make your review - she says and soon remarks then mendo her own.

- Are you choosing me as an ass? - questioning wanted.

- What? No, Alice, stop being paranoid, I just wanted to help you, not everything I say to you is some kind of offense," she says a little upset. I decide to keep quiet and go towards the desk chair to try to read what she has done.

After that the mood remained, which it already was, but a little worse than doing the work for it. We didn't talk much, talked the basics for each done and got along the right way.

About 2 hours later, we finished everything.

- There, we finished everything, I think - says Isabele checking the work for the last time to see if everything was right.

- That's fine - I speak, but soon remember what happened before, I decide to follow the advice given here by my sister yesterday.

- requests for the refusal made by me earlier, I did not want to provoke you - I speak in a neutral tone.

She is suspicious, but then speaks up:

- All right Alice, I'm already used to all this, for today in situation and yours, I just don't understand why, I never hurt you, I never offended you, just tell me the real reason for such anger for me arms and looks at me in search of an answer.

I end up getting nervous for everything, I couldn't imagine that this would happen, but she was all these words to me, but since we are here, solving everything.

- I don't even know, maybe I am an idiot, even today I try to find a real reason for all of this, but I really don't know, it's just that things aren't snowballing until we get to the situation we're in now," I blurt out.

- I understand, Alice, but I don't think I can go through this anymore, if you don't like me, fine, but at least let's stop all this fighting," he asks in a calmer tone.

- It's not that I don't like you, I don't know, I'm just very confused in the head. Let's do this, let's start from scratch, we haven't had a chance to get to know each other, let's do what we should have done on the first day of school last year," I propose to her.

Isabele looks at me a little suspicious, but soon I see a smile rise on her face. Then I continue:

- Pleasure, my name is Alice - I speak extending my hand and casting a smile. She lets out a giggle, but then takes my hand and says:

- Pleasure Alice, my name is Isabele - she speaks destroying the smile.

Yeah, I think this job was better than I imagined, and maybe now how it can start to work out.