Chapter 251 - New beginning

In the vast ocean of nothingness akin to a black canvas of the starless sky there was small light flickering as it hovered in the boundless empty void. Upon closer inspection the light appeared to be a silhouette of a person that appeared average built. This was the soul of person who is currently experiencing countless emotion from sorrow, anger, grief, regret and many more as it seem to bleed and think.

'....Why!? Why does it end like this!? I've failed…I've failed as brother and son…I've failed them.' His memories were refurces as images of life flash in kaleidoscope manner where the time he was nothing but child, free and happy with seeing the smile for his mother and the laughter of his father was the most blissful thing in his life. They weren't the richest and were in the poverty line but those setbacks did not make them sad or depressed yet as time went on it took a toll on his family and because of his life for them decided to walk a path in which there is no return.

He understood if he chose to walk the path would lead to a life of pain and suffering yet seeing the pain and sadness of them was more painful and willing to take the step to hell itself. At that moment, he decided to sell drugs and do other illegal work to gain enough income for his family to feel at ease. His shame was immeasurable, not because he chose to walk the path that no one should venture rather hiding it from his family in order for them to not worry. 

The person remembered his little brother who he always enjoyed to be around and loved unconditionally spoiling him nonstop. He wanted for him to finish his school and never see the side of him as a criminal. After many years he managed to rise to the top and eventually gain the support of the crime boss giving more access and authority over it. 

However, this results in him gaining more enemies than he should resulting in the time where one of his underlings betrayed him and forced him to die the most gruesome death of overdosing on drugs. He didn't mind their betrayal as it was eventually going to happen knowing karma would soon follow him after ruining so many lives for the sake of his family. 

He wondered how the tails of his life continued. Did his parents retire and live a good life? Were they ashamed of his action? Was he a disappointment to them? He doesn't know but knew they won't be like that yet didn't care how they felt as he still felt immense guilt of not living to see the day where he can have a woman and be married and thank them for everything. 

'I…I want to live and give you plenty grandchildren with the woman I loved.' He wondered if God would punish him for the sin he had caused. It was justifiable if they did since this is how life is. Every action there's an opposite and equal reaction. 

'Perhaps if I didn't let fear and doubt consume me." He thought with immense pain in his heart where emotion was flooding into him and continued.

'Perhaps if I was a little selfish and didn't give up my pursuit in technology and machinery then maybe, just maybe I could have lived and given you a better life.' The person gave his dream for the sake of his family even though he had so much passion and talent that he could have changed his life if he had chosen a different path and became more selfish.

It is true a contradiction and hypocrisy when one chooses selflessness can be seen as selfishness while acting selfish can be selfless. He then thought about the one he gave his hope and dream into and wondered.

'Brother….I hope you find the path for yourself. I hope you become more selfish than I did and continue what you truly desire. I hope you….. forget about me.' Even though deep within his heart knew that he cannot change anything yet cling to hope for his family's betterment. It was then he felt a presence and witnessed what could only be described as a goddess descending from the sky and witnessed two women with similar appearance with one being more child-like while the other an seductive air around her. Both had long white hair and golden orange eyes looking at him rather aloff yet held intrigued with the older one first to speak.

[ Imagine Herrscher of the end(younger) and Herrscher of the void(older) ]

"How interesting, I've seen many people surviving in the void and met their 'Reward' yet none reach this far and still remain intact." Her tone alluring yet something dangerous coming off from her soul while the younger one took the person like a water in the palm of her hand and said.

"Wait…he has the piece of our Darling!" The younger one remarked, making the older to glance closer and seem to be taken aback by something making the person confused and thought.

'Who are they? Are they goddesses?' She heard someone giggled and saw the older one seem to change her tone and said.

"In a way, we are. I would rather use Herrscher. Perhaps, that is the reason why you haven't met any 'Rewarder' here." He was taken aback; they heard his thought but were calm knowing that there's no point fighting a goddess, especially that they could easily kill him but were surprised when the younger one said.

"We won't harm you silly. You're our Darling or at least the key for the cage." The person was perplexed at being called darling as he did have some intimate relationship but most were one night stands as he was too devoted with his family and couldn't help but asked. 

"Darling? What? I don't know what you two are talking about. Can you tell me where I am and what's going on?" The older one nodded and began to explain.

"I am Selina, Herrscher of Expanse, the second of the divine space." The younger one introduced herself and said.

"I'm Kiana, Herrscher of Collapse, the youngest of the divine space." He doesn't know what it meant but decided to remain quiet and the older one, Selina continued her words and said.

"You are currently in a space in which people who do not believe in any god and prayed to have adventure to fictional worlds like movies, anime, comic books, etc. An entity would present itself as 'God' or what we call as 'Rewarder' or 'Random Omnipotent being' even though they are nothing more than humanities desires and often give those who land here a wish and those wishes vary in their karma. Though, I don't think those mortal souls deserve to be here as they often cause trouble even if it doesn't tip the scale of natural order." He still doesn't know what it meant but decided to put it aside and said.

"Then are you one of those Rewards?" They both giggled and Selina said.

"Of course not, we are the embodiment of the constant end and creation of the vast universe, multiverse and megaverse. I create the space and my younger sister destroys it." He recalled the theory of how the universe constantly expands and collapses that made him understand that they are conceptual entities but he was still overwhelmed by everything and needed a moment to process while Kianna the one who continued. 

"Don't worry darling, we are willing to give 3 wishes of your choosing!" He doesn't know them yet they are willing to give him a wish and though he tried to use logic but seeing his dead and talking to two goddesses result in throwing away any logic and accepting their words.

"I don't know you and frankly my sin is immeasurable that I don't think I deserved a wish." He felt guilty but not regret as it was the only thing he could have done in those bleak moments and his word only made Selina get closer and seemingly touch his cheek and said.

"Good and evil is nothing but a concept and not a law. It only matters from perspective that it can change. For us, we are alof from the billions upon billions of life that died from the collapse of the universe and multiverses. Does that mean we are evil? Perhaps in the eyes of the mortal mind but it is just how things are. Though, I am saying to forget those human emotions for that what makes human special but to not be burdened by it. In other words, you are not evil and your sin had the intent for others therefore it is understandable."

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Author notes:

I might use this chapter to make a spin off where it's Ryuu's brother instead of him being the main character where it separates from this fanfic like an alternate world. 

But it's up to you guys if you like the idea and yes his brother has his own harem but not comparable to him.