Chapter Twenty-Seven: Too Many Apologies!

Alice:

Sitting up in bed, Sy slumbered next to me. The week had passed too peacefully, my lips pressing into a line. His beard made my thighs rub together, my fingers playing with the stiff hair. Rolling on top of him, my hair hung like a curtain. His eyes opened groggily, my lips kissing his feverishly. Pulling me in for a loving embrace, he rolled me underneath him. Pressing his lips against mine sensually, my body arched towards him. Playing with the lace of my silky emerald slip, his other fingers traced my cheek. My breath hitched at his handsome face, the reality of me being home hitting me. Smiling warmly in my direction, he tucked a piece of hair behind my ear. My heart fluttered at the sight of his pale skin, the shock of seeing him in person breaking me. A rush of emotions flashed in my eyes, goosebumps popping up on my skin. Choking back his own emotions, he chose to be strong for me.

"Good morning, Pumpkin." He sighed jovially, kissing my forehead. "I still can't believe we are parents. I love you with all of my heart. Are you ready to begin your day?" Chuckling softly to myself, my real smile never left my face. Running my hands along his larger muscles, my fingers traced his new scars. Shivering with pleasure, his skin pressed against mine. His lips brushed the nape of my neck, shrill wails stole our attention. Gwny and Luthy reached for me, a knock adding to the chaos. Renkin opened the door as an eager Ivory pushed Sy off the bed. Pinning me down, her curls tickled my face. What the hell did she need?

"Am I your Lady-In-Waiting if he's your second in command?" She sang adorably, excitement glimmering in her eyes. "We love our room. I can't believe we get to live with you! We are going to have so much fun!" That's what I was afraid of, her childish grin guiding my decision in the direction she wanted. Sighing in defeat, a nervous grin twitched on my lips. How the fuck could I say no?

"Fine, you can be my Lady-In -Waiting." I exhaled with an eye roll, her squeal piercing my eardrum. "I am happy you like it here. I can't do this without my sister, right?" Hugging me with another squeal, tears stained my cheeks. Why was I crying? Concern dimmed everyone's eyes, a wave of my hands stopping them in their tracks. Was this friendship, true friendship? Wait, was this what it was like to have a sister? Her hands cupped my face, the warmth of her touch snatched me back to reality.

"Where did you go?" She chirped cheerfully, grinning ear to ear. "We have a busy day, so let's get the four of you ready." Confusion dawned on my face, her fingers tracing the rows of dresses. Tears welled up in her eyes, her arms dropping to her side. Flashing me a sad smile, her facade faltered. Sniffling a bit, her trembling fingers rested on a peridot satin dress. A rock formed in my gut, my hands crossing.

"I thought I lost you." She wept softly, wiping her own tears away. "We all thought we lost you. I don't know how to explain it but you brought light into our lives. When you were gone, it was like darkness took over. Every night I had nightmares about what he was doing to my sister. I would wake up to Renkin calling for you to come back home. Please don't do that again. It was incredibly selfish of you." Her words struck like an arrow to the heart, my hand clutching my chest. Smoothing out her pale pink Lolita dress, her flower covered heels sparkled in the light. Leaping out of bed, surprise enlarged her eyes at my desperate hug. Holding her tighter and tighter, everything came out while Sy scooped up the twins. My teardrops soaked the top of her head, the guilt devouring every inch of my soul. I hadn't intended to hurt anyone, my main goal was to save them. They all would have died if I chose the other option, the image of their dead bodies scattered across the rock creating another reason to cry.

"If it means anything, I missed you with everything." I blubbered uncontrollably, my hands grabbing her shoulders. "I promise to never leave like that again. You have my word." Flashing her a bright smile, my tears contrasted the joy I was attempting to convey. Shoving the dress into my chest, her slender hands shifted through the accessory walls. My jaw dropped to the ground at the sheer amount of items, my mind wondering where it all came from. Sy stepped up behind me, his chin resting on my head.

"The people in the capital made all of that for you as a sincere gesture of gratitude." He explained serenely, simply happy that I was home once more. "Now let's get this day started." Ivory hummed behind me, picking out the matching accessories. Bowing on her way out, my arms scooped up my twins. Dropping the dress onto a nearby chair, the twins suckled on my aching breasts. Relishing the moment, today was my beginning. Sy pulled on a matching peridot suit with a golden tie. The twins finished up, Sy plopping down next to me. Taking the twins from me, so many thoughts coursed through his head.

"I missed you." Sy admitted with a long sigh, dressing the twins in peridot outfits. "Please don't do that again. I am not okay with how you handled that. It was made even worse by how pregnant you were. I went through every emotion possible. Rage came first, of course. I broke everything and felt guilty immediately. When I couldn't find you I had to occupy myself with building all of this. Fuck you for that." Understanding his reaction, his words still stung. Peeling off my silk nightgown, one finger snap had my clothes on me. Feeling the soft material, my fingers traced the golden inlay. Dainty ruffles lined the deep neckline, the hem of the skirt floating around my knees. Tugging on my boots, a few of my old weapons clanged in their pockets.

"How many times do I have to apologize?" I growled through gritted teeth, my shaking fingers clipping on the Peridot encrusted choker. "I did it to save you all. Whatever." Sy set the twins down in the playpen, their skirts spread out around their feet. Pinning me to the wall, tension brewed between us. A snarl twitched his lips, tears welling up in his eyes. Saying nothing, he clutched me close to his chest. Curling my arms around his waist, his tears soaked the top of my head.

"Do you realize how hard it is to be mad at you?" He teased lightly through a wall of tears. "Just don't do it again. You tend to act impulsive at the worst times." He wasn't wrong, his hands sliding down to my hips. Kissing my nape of my neck, a small gasp escaped my lips at his fangs sinking into my tender flesh. Gulping down my blood, this was his way of claiming me as his. Letting him drink his fill, his fangs brushed against my exposed skin. Love bites sent tingles throughout my body, my legs wrapping around his waist. A knock interrupted us, my boots crashing to the floor. Spinning to the door, I poked my head out. Ivory grabbed my hand. Yanking me into the hall, her dainty hands twisted my hair into a simple side braid. Renkin cleared his throat, his simple black suit contrasting the ornate dress I was wearing. Ivory hooked her elbow around mine, a new scar on my arm capturing my attention. Focusing on the long cut, a feeling of dread built up in my heart. Brushing it off, Renkin guided me to the day full of meetings. Boredom overtook me, my smile growing brighter as the day ticked by painfully slow. Drumming on the worn wooden dining table, all of his family's eyes gazed upon me. Expectation rested in their eyes, my chest tightening. Hiding my panic attack with a bright smile, Sy's hand curled around mine. My twins cooed in their slings, Sy's words settling my fraying nerves.

"You need to stop having a panic attack." He whispered sweetly in my ear, kissing me passionately on my lips. "We are all here to help you." Time stopped, my heart fluttered. Rising to my feet, my food was untouched. Concern mixed with confusion, my palms pressing together. Escape, I needed to escape.

"I am exhausted." I blurted out oddly, bowing in their direction. "Thank you for a lovely day. I am very sorry for disappearing on you. I realize that I hurt you greatly but I would appreciate it if we stopped talking about it. It only makes me feel worse about myself. The guilt is eating me alive. So, can we just drop it?" Walking up the stairs, I paused at the knob of our bedroom door. Dropping my arms to my side, my eyes fell on the open window. Wandering over to it, a deep depression came over me. Jumping out, I wanted to visit my cousin Felix. Checking on my twins, they seemed happy as clams. Scanning the sea of huts, an overwhelming sensation threatened to drown me. The town seemed sleepy tonight, the disorienting effect of not knowing where I was crippled me. Sitting on the new fountain, my fingers traced the onyx marble. Water rushed trickled behind me, my reflection sickening me. Black bags hollowed out my eyes, the new scars confused me. Fearing falling asleep, I just knew that those horrid memories would come back the moment I fell asleep. They would come in short fuzzy bursts, everyone sending me into a dark space.

"Are you okay?" Felix asked, sitting down next to me. "You look like hell. I haven't seen this look in a long time." Chucking darkly to myself, he peeked at my twins. Leaning my head on his shoulder, the soft cotton of his t-shirt reminded me of simpler times. The tears flowed freely, my wall always falling around him. His arms yanked me in for a gentle hug, his steady hand moved the stray hairs out of my face.

"I feel like I let everyone down. I am sick of making mistakes. What makes it worse is everyone reminding me over and over again." I cried out brokenly, wiping away my own tears. "I am just not ready to take charge but I brought it upon myself. I know I can handle it but I feel like I did it all wrong. Looking around, you would think this is what success is. Why couldn't I just hide in the shadows like a good person?" A fit of laughter burst from his lips, the twinkle in his eyes brightening his features.

"You couldn't do that even if you wanted to." He joked with a crooked grin, his head shaking. "You did the same shit when I was visiting by stepping in and taking the blame like the hero you always will be to me. You have the ability to see the light in the darkest situation, no matter how small it is. It is okay to be depressed and sad. People like us go through hell and it doesn't disappear. The trauma waits in the shadows for a moment of weakness. I do have to point out one thing, you are your biggest weakness. You fail to see the hope for yourself. Who did all of this? That was you. Sure, you had help but who the fuck came up with this idea. Who freed these people living in these huts? Open your eyes. They are happier here and you only make it brighter every second you are here. Take in some of your own light, and feel your own warmth. You are a hero." Shaking my head, my fist punching the water. Rings spread across the surface, the inky fish swimming away.

"I am not a hero!" I screamed into the sky, his embrace getting tighter. "I hurt somebody or something with everything I do. Don't you get it. Every action bears a consequence. What about the people who supported him? What about the people who liked the status quo? I fucked up their lives for what! It started as a plan to put Sy on the throne but why did I do that? He seemed fine with his life. I came along and destroyed his peace. I am a monster. I am a monster." A splash caused me to stiffen, Sy wrapping his arms around my shoulders. Resting his chin on my head, the warmth of his touch helped ease my stress a bit. Felix hummed next to us, sprinting back home.

"You didn't drag me into anything that I didn't want to be dragged into. I was doing it to help you fix Hell. That is all. I have heard good things recently." He assured me lovingly, his hand patting the top of the twins' heads. "Let's get you to bed." My thighs rubbed together, every cell in me wanting to take him. Tilting my head up at him, my fangs punctured my lip before I realized I was chewing on them.

"Can we have sex yet?" I queried bluntly, his eyes widening with bewilderment. "I need to feel you in me. I promise to go to bed after. I will be your good girl." Scarlet colored his cheeks, the tiny snores of our kids emphasizing the silence between us. Tossing me onto his back, no words left his lips the whole way back to our room. Putting the girls to bed, he sat me down on the edge of the bed. Pulling my dress over my head, his trembling fingers struggled with the corset. Tears welled up in his eyes, his palms rubbing my hot skin. Getting on his knees, he peeled off my boots sensually, kissing my legs. Small gasps burst from my lips, his suit dropping to the ground. Had he become more muscular, he pinned me to the bed. Squeezing my breasts roughly, a sly grin danced across his lips. The week had been tough, my thighs rubbing together. Flipping him underneath me, my lips took his thick girth in. Sucking in a random rhythm, his hand grabbed the top of my head. Moving my head up and down, my name burst from his lips. Flashing a wicked grin in his direction, tears welled up in his eyes. Focusing on the tip, his body twitched with ecstasy. Flicking my tongue underneath his head, gruff groans bounced off the walls. Pulling me on top of him, tears flooded from his eyes. Mixed emotions flashed in his eyes, his arms refusing to let me go. The secondhand trauma I gave him birthed more guilt within my heart. Flipping me underneath him, his tears plopped onto my face. Playing with his beard, my finger wiped his tears away.

"I won't leave again." I promised lovingly, flipping him underneath me. "Let me prove my love to you." Sinking onto him, my dripping turned into a flood. Bouncing up and down, my hips danced to their own rhythm. Guiding his hands to my sore breasts, every squeeze sent my nerves into a frenzy. Spinning my hips faster, this was one of the many things I had missed. Hunger burned in Sy's eyes, his strong arms shoving me into the doggy position. Lining himself up, his name burst from my lips the moment he jammed himself in. Bucking wildly, his hands shoved a brand new leather bar into my mouth.

"We can't have you waking our children, naughty girl." He growled gruffly in my ear, tying the ribbon into a neat bow. "Enjoy your punishment." Muffled moans poured over the bar, my teeth sinking into the bar. Claws extended from my fingernails, the mattress groaning with protest as they dug in. Massaging my perfectly round ass, a couple of bold slaps sent chills up my spine. Grinding my hips with his, he struggled to keep quiet himself. Resting on his haunches, his hands rested on my hips. Lifting me up and down, the feeling of him controlling me turned me on more. Feeling his hard cock enter me repeatedly sent a wave of euphoria crashing through me. Grazing his fangs along my neck, a short gasp escaped my lips the moment his fangs sank into my tender flesh.

"More." I moaned through the bar, his wicked grin growing wider. Rising to his feet, he tossed me over his shoulders. Grinning with sinister intentions, this was going to be fun. Laughing softly to myself, his tail was wagging a mile a minute. Pinning me to the wall, his fingers slid into me. Writhing against the wall, his fingers danced against my g-spot. Licking the tips of his fingers, his brow cocked at me wrapping my legs around his waist. Sliding his other hand to the small of my back, a playful glint shined in his eyes. Flashing him my real smile, the pure joy illuminating my face must have been painfully obvious.

"Line me up, you bad girl." He growled huskily, moving my hand to his stiff cock. "Seeing you thrive under my control pleases the demon inside of me. Although this hardly counts as torture you are enjoying." Shrugging my shoulders, his hips danced to the same rhythm. Getting closer to my climax, he wasn't far off. Snapping the leather bar in half, it clattered to the floor. Biting his neck aggressively, our hips rocked faster. The paintings rattled on the wall, his blood coating my throat. Gruff groans echoed in my ear, his hot seed filling me up. My body slackened, the door creaked open. A nervous grin twitched on his lips, a maroon haired petite woman spun in. Rushing over to the nearest robe, a bewildered Sy tugged on the nearest pair of pants. Marching up to him, her maroon eyes twinkled with malice. Sauntering up to him, her black lips kissed him hungrily. Pushing her off of him, the history between them was clear. Holding her off, a steady stream of curse words flooded from her lips.

"Marviana, I broke up with you. I am the king of Hell after all." He warned icily, my hands crossed. "We didn't work o-" He began, her smooth voice shattering my heart. Who the hell was this bitch! How dare she kiss my man!

"You broke up with me to watch her like a fucking creep." She snapped venomously, pulling a blade from the belt of her corset dress. Raising it in the air, my body smashed into hers. Choking on blood, the sticky black stuff dripped from the corner of my mouth. A sleek blade quivered in my stomach, her spike covered heel heading for my face. Ripping the blade from my stomach, it spun with ease in my palm. The wound sealed shut, another sleek blade spun in her palm. Blocking her attack, sparks drifted aimlessly.

"No one kisses my man but me!" I roared thunderously, kicking her into the wall. "Furthermore, you can't become his stalker out of the blue. Also you can't have done this on your own." Flicking the blade behind Sy, it quivered in the tall slender masked demon's heart hidden behind the curtain. Dropping to his knees, his skin decayed to a shimmering ash. A wail burst from her lips, my bare feet sauntered to her trembling form.

"Drop the act." I taunted cruelly, the crazy woman popped to her feet. "Come and get me." Hundreds of blades hovered behind her, Sy crying out the moment I leapt out the window. The holy rain of blades heading my way beginning to slam into my body, my blade sliding into my eager palms. Blood soaked my back, Marviana marching towards me. Horror rounded my eyes, her hand raised into the air. Sy attempted to get to me, a wall of energy trapped him in the castle. Another round of her blades struck me in every empty space, my body collapsing forward. Unable to move, her heels soon stood in front of me. Stomping on my head, the cracking of my skull shattered the peaceful evening air. Crouching down to my level, her trembling hand snatched my hair. Ripping a blade from my back, the sharp edge pressed against my neck like a sharp warning. Slamming my elbow into her face, she had no right being here. Sy was mine and only mine. A gruff groan exploded from her mouth, her body smashing into a nearby tree. The shadow children ran up to me, their tiny hands removing every single one. Helping me up, black energy gathered at the tip of my blade. Marviana charged at me, my vision blurring. Drops of my blood splattered across the ground, one swift swing sending her back. Another tree smashed against the ground, a cloud of dirt obscuring my vision.

"Peek-a-boo." She giggled childishly, another barrage of blades tearing me apart. "You look like Swiss cheese." Her arrogance was going to be her downfall, black energy snaked its way up my arm. Choking on my blood, these wounds were starting to take their toll. Snapping my head in the direction of the shadow children, one signal told them to go get some healing herbs for Sy. My hair floated up, a quiet rage burned in my eyes. Spinning on my heels, my punch landed in her palms. An evil grin spread cheek to cheek, wicked laughter rumbling in my throat.

"I wouldn't count me out just yet." I wheezed, coughing up an unnatural amount of blood. "I didn't come back from a kidnapping just to die by some crazy stalker's hands. Black energy of Hell. Consume her." A blast of energy blew my hair back, her shrill shrieks becoming nothing but distant cries in seconds. The adrenaline wore off, the raw pain hitting me like a freight train. Sinking to my knees, silent tears streamed down my face. Collapsing on my face, everyone's voices fading in and out. Breathing grew harder, the stress of my wounds knocking me out.