BETRAYAL

Living A Lie

Thoughts that she cannot unthink;

A life that she cannot unlive

Skipping stones to watch them sink;

She envies how they easily

Sorrow wraps her like a scarf;

Waiting for a small reprieve- falling in and out of love

~Lang leav

Lies small or big, always have same affect on the host. Either they break its heart or its life. But what difference is in these two?? Because both causes pain, both causes tears. And guess what, my life was broken since my mother died, but today, my heart broke. Today i was broken, beaten and defeated. Today i got to know that the person whom i trusted whole my life was nothing but a fraud, a hypocrite, a enemy.

Nothing in my life was going good. Alex had betrayed me, i was bullied in school, my teacher were fed up of me because of my poor academic results, i was not selected for basketball competition, i had no mother to love me, to adore me and neither a father to stand by my side all the way down.

"Its just me, who bears hard,

Its just me, whose tears are apart,

Its just me, who mistakenly has a heart"!!

I don't want to live this life, where all you have are enemies. I am also a human, i also have a heart, i too have tears and i also feel pain. I don't wanna live this life where all you have is a pure heart, where all you do is forgave your enemies so that they couldn't face their karmic lessons which will cause them three times more pain than they cause you.

Sometimes, i wish i could turn my heart in stone, so that i wouldn't feel guilty if God made them face their own actions. But what can i do?? When ever i tries to curse them or to take revenge, my heart aches and kept repeating me, emphasizing me to forgave them. Because my mother once said me," Forgiveness is a great act of kindness"!!

That night after Alex left, Josh dropped me home. He was so worried because he hadn't seen any one near the tree. He said i was chasing the thin air. This confused me a lot because he was clearly in view.

That night Liz came to my house, she gave me encouragement and told me that i was dreaming Alex. Then she talked to my grand ma in private but i had heard her conversation. She was saying my grandma to take an appointment to a psychiatrist.

Now even my best friend thought that i was mad, i was a psycho path. Now my own trusted ones were betraying me. Why weren't they trusting me, why were they thinking that i need a psychiatrist??

Next day, i woke up and with out any breakfast went to school. As i parked my car on the parking lot, i saw a group of student moving near my car. I grabbed my bag and moved out of the car. The group came in front, and by seeing their faces, I guessed something bad was coming.

Rose came out in front, her rossy lip and white face glowing.

She said, "So trissy, I hadn't known that you were a psycho beside a loser"!!

As she said it, the whole group started to chuckle, some giggled while some gave me a look of pity.

My eyes widened because only Josh and Liz had known this. Liz had promised me that she wouldn't tell any one which means....no no no......Josh had told every one. Disappointment and betrayal sank inside me, I tried to move out but rose shoved me back and pinned me on my car door. Two other boys grabbed my arms to control me, while Rose took my bag and unzipped it and shoved all my books out of it, then she threw my bag in the dirt.

Then she looked me straight in the eye and barked,

"Psycho and loser only deserves dirt and defeat, you don't even deserves to live, freak"!!

With this they all moved towards the class as the bell rang. I hurried and packed my bag which was so dirty. I ran towards my locker and saw that some one had painted two words on it.

"Psycho" and "Loser".

Tears threatened to come out but i controlled my emotions. When I came in the Bio class, I saw every one had settled. Mr.Dimitri saw me and waved me inside. As i entered the class, I heard whispers saying psycho, fool, mad!! I hurried towards my seat beside Josh who was looking straight ahead.

After i settled I asked him " Why did you told everyone about it"!!

He looked at me in surprise and said" Why would i tell any one"??

I was surprised after hearing this. I asked, "Then who told this"??

He hesitated a moment and then said,

" Liz"!!

I was astonished by this answer. No no no, Liz could not betray me, this cannot be happening. I hurried and glanced at Liz who was sitting beside Owen. As our eyes met, she glanced away.

My heart gave a loud "Thump". It was Liz who had told Rose, but why??? After the class was over, i moved towards the cafeteria and saw that Liz was sitting at Rose table.

I moved towards Liz but Rose blocked my path and said,

"She don't want to talk to you"!!

Adrenaline rushed through my blood and i said

" Its non of your business, she is my best....."!!

"She was "!! Rose interrupted me.

"Now she is mine, oh i miscalculated a bit, she was mine from the very first day, Tris, I planted her with you and asked her to be your friend, Do you know Liz is my bestie?? When, from the very first day you both joined hands, we were laughing because this all was a prank, today you lost you filthy creature and I am victorious again"!!

I stepped back because this was now my end. Tears came out of my eyes, I glanced at Liz but she didn't meet my eyes. With this i moved out of the school with every thing left behind. I started my car and drove away!!