ROSE

"Falling in love is like holding a candle. Initially it lightens up the world around you. Then it starts melting and hurts you. Finally it goes off and everything is darker than ever and all you are left with is the.....BURN"!!!

~ Syed Arshad

7 YEARS AGO

I Looked up at the glittering stars. The shiny stars stared back at me. How can they be so shiny and beautiful all the time"!! I imagined.

I glanced at the most shiniest star at the sky.

" Its her isn't it, she's now among them, isn't she"?? I wondered.

A fat tear rolled down my eye as a memory of my mother hit my mind. Her smiling face while chasing me as i ran through the house. I glanced up again. The black fabric had covered all the sky and tiny white dots were glittering. Slowly a small weak smile pulled up at the corners of my mouth.

"At least, She is still here"!!

I told my self and the corners of my mouth curved a little more. I let out a huge breath and then lay down on the damp grass. My eyes got lost in the depths and heights of the black sky, lingering on every star, imagining all dead people are smiling!!

NOW

I looked at him, his blue eyes stared back at me. How foolish was I?? Whole year I moaned over the death of that person, who was never even dead. Rage and fury boiled inside me. Alex!!

He betrayed me, played with me. All year he had known that I was moaning, crying over his death. He had known I was broken but still he never cared.

He never feel me, he had known that the fault of his death was put on me. I was bullied due to this, was degraded not only by my classmates, but also by my seniors. People stopped being around me, stopped sitting with me.

I was alive but was dead for them.

Tears threatened to come out, but there was more anger. Does these fucking people ever care about me??.

About how I feel, about how I take things in. FOR GOD SAKE, don't they realize how hard is it for me to live without the love of my mother, with out the support of a father, with out any friend, and to be accused of one thing that you haven't even done.

They cried over Alex's fake death as if he was their son, or a best friend, not even realizing that I was the one who was suffering more than any one.

Suddenly realization hit me,

THEY DESERVES TO BE DEAD, NOT ME!!.

I looked at Alex, his muscled body was a little more wider and stronger, his eyes held a deep shade of guiltiness and regret.

" OH!! so now you remembered that I also even existed"!! I asked him, my voice sarcastic.

He exhaled loudly. " Look, Tris it's not what...you ar....."!!

"I honestly know what is truth. You leave me alone at the hands of these toxic people. Do you even know what happened after your fake death. You were everything to me, you were my life, my happiness after my mother death, and what you did, do you see. Everyone accused me that i indirectly murdered you. That i was the cause of your death. They didn't realized that how hard was it for me to bare these all accusations. After this, i was being called UNTOUCHABLE, people were afraid of me, At school i was being bullied and this sped up so much that now i realized my best friend was my worst enemy"!!

Tears streamed down my eyes as all those memories of me and Liz going for shopping, movie nights, pajama parties, flashed through my mind. I sobbed hard, really hard, there was so much burden on my chest, i couldn't bare it, i really couldn't.

"SOME ONE HELP ME"!! I cried out

And my face became wet with tears. Alex, seeing me took a step towards me but i held a hand.

" Don't dare to come near me, never ever"!!

"It doesn't matter for any one that i die or live. NO one cares about me, I tried to help every one but look what you guys did. And when i will be gone, you guys would just pretend that you are sad, but in reality it doesn't matter for you"!!

The breeze blew harshly, smashing my entire body, my hairs in the air. Tears streaming down my cheeks and nausea flowing out. Alex looked at me, his eyes dull, his hands in his hood pocket.

He looked tired and sad. "Tris, Please I am so sorr...."!!

"Alex, Aren't you done"!!

My eyes become wide as i heard a familiar voice calling Alex name. I glanced at Alex, my eyes wide open, disappointment sank inside me, He gave me a look of guilty.

A tall blond girl came at the side of my vision. Her skin glowed in the moon light. I had already known who she was, her voice was so familiar, and a little too familiar for me as it always hunt me in my nightmares.

At the side of the tree shadows, She stood, her eyes challenging, daring me as she looked at me. I took a step back as She looked at me.

This can't be , it's not possible.

But yet it was, because Rose was standing there, looking straight at me.