187. Chapter 187

Alex has been learning how to balance her devotion to Maggie with her devotion to her sister; every Thursday night is reserved for Kara (and the next night if aliens or Cadmus interfere), and every Saturday night is game night with the Superfriends (Sunday night if aliens or Cadmus interfere). Tuesday nights (Wednesdays in case of emergency), they all join Alex and Maggie at the bar.

Maggie comes to game nights, of course – at Kara’s insistence – and Winn thinks, at first, that she’s trying to be accommodating to her sister, that she’s trying to be supportive of Alex living life for herself, for a change.

And she is. She is. He’s never seen Alex and Kara closer than they are now, and it makes his entire being happy.

But Winn also notices other things, other reasons, for Kara to invite Maggie to game night, for Kara to practically drag him out of the DEO (seriously, she nearly dislocated his shoulder that one time) to meet Alex and Maggie for their night at the bar.

Because Kara positively lights up when Maggie smiles at her, blushes profusely and adjusts her glasses when Maggie calls her Little Danvers.

Kara insists on snuggling herself between Alex and Maggie on game night (which usually ends in movie night), and she practically preens when Maggie drapes her arms around both of the Danvers girls.

“Hey, Kara, can I talk to you about something?” he finally asks her, because he’s seen her looking similarly at Lena Luthor and Cat Grant used to fluster her in ways that Snapper just doesn’t.

“What’s up, Winn?” she asks, and he’s glad he hasn’t been drinking.

He glances around the bar for privacy, and he takes a deep, soft breath.

“Listen, um… Kara, you… you’ve been spending a lot of time with Alex and Maggie recently, right? I mean, we all have – “

“Winn, Alex and I are fine, Maggie’s been really great about making sure we get our private sister time in, and I like that Maggie’s part of the Superfriends gang now – Rao, I don’t believe I’m calling us that – and she’s really good to Alex, and Alex is happy, so it’s fine, I’m not – “

“No, no, Kara, that’s not… that’s not exactly what I…” He sighs and squints at her as she adjusts her glasses and looks back at him openly, curiously.

“Kara, remember… remember when you came out to me? As Supergirl?”

Kara blanches slightly at the phrasing, but she nods slowly.

“And I thought you were coming out to me as a lesbian, and you said you’re not gay?”

Kara furrows her brow as she nods, and Winn tries not to comment on the plaid she’s currently rocking.

“You um… Kara, it kind of feels to me like… like you might have a little crush. On your sister's girlfriend.”

Kara blinks once. Twice. Three times. She adjusts her glasses and she pffts and she looks around the bar and she pffts again and she shoves him in the shoulder lightly.

“What? No. Winn, I told you, I’m not gay – ”

“No, I know that, Kara, but you… you think you might be… bi?” He doesn’t bring up Lena, or Cat, or hell, Lucy, for that matter, because he doesn’t want to ambush her, he doesn’t want to overwhelm her. He wants her to feel supported, not attacked, not cornered. Because Kara Danvers cornered is dangerous. And anyway, he loves her too much to ever want her to feel that way.

Kara stares at him and his heart constricts, because her face is stone, like it was when she found about him, James, and Guardian, and he wants to take it back, he wants to apologize, but then Kara opens her mouth and she buries her head in his shoulder and she groans.

“Oh my Rao, Winn, I have a crush on my sister’s girlfriend what do I do?”

Winn smiles softly and pats her head and raises a hand to assure the other patrons that no, no, she’s fine, she’s just coming out to herself, she’ll be alright in a minute or two.

She leans back from him and looks at him through the fingers covering her face.

“Winn. I’m bi. I – you’re right, I – how could I have not seen it, I – Winn, it – what – Winn.”

“Hey, hey, it’s okay, it’s okay. Me too, you know? And when I realized, it felt like this, too. But listen, hey, it’s okay. You’re gonna be okay. And I know what you’re thinking, Kara, you’re thinking that if you come out now, you’re going to rip focus away from Alex again, just when she’s learning to focus on herself, but you know what? You know what, Kara, coming out is allowed to be about you, just like Alex’s is allowed to be about her. Okay? Hell, she’ll probably be thrilled, you can talk about girls together, and as for Maggie? She’s not the one you’re really in love with, is she, so that’s not gonna be a problem, okay? Everything’s okay. You’re okay. It’s okay, Kara. I love you. Everyone loves you.”

Kara continues staring at her best friend, unmoving, through the gaps in her fingers. She says nothing for a long, long moment, and then she moves her hands away from her face, and she laughs loud, hard, happy. Relieved.

“You’re bi, too?!” she whisper-shouts, and he grins and downs his beer as she leans in to talk more, to explore more, to learn more, about themselves and about each other, and while they do, he makes a note to one day thank Maggie for loosening up not one, but both, Danvers sisters.