Chapter 8

*FEW DAYS LATER*

After the incidence that happened that night, I have been completely avoiding the prince cause I haven't gotten the courage and didn't know how to tell him And I think that he was feeling guilty because he must have maybe thought that it was because of what we did on that on that night and Everytime he asked me what was wrong, I would say that I was fine and alright and I think that he noticed that the words were fake and I could see that it was troubling him greatly....

I needed to tell him the truth because I was running out of time, Our wedding was much more drawing closer and closer and when I eventually had the courage to tell him, it was as if the universe didn't wanted me to, He would either be so busy, away or I would have many visitors from his kingdom coming to see the "Future queen" and that caused my head to spin and it kept happening for days until it was too late...

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I laid flat on my bed, I was completely troubled , Our wedding was a day after tomorrow and I still haven't gotten the opportunity to tell him, I needed to tell him , i just can't form a marriage out of deceit... I knew he would be completely shattered , I would too cause I had fallen in love with him I guess my life wasn't meant to be a happy ever after and I wasn't meant to find true happiness....

I woke up the next day with the aim of telling him the truth, the entire bloody truth... I was ready to say the truth and I wasn't afraid anymore cause if I didn't say it now, Sooner or later he would find out, But the saddest part was that I never did got the chance, He was occupied with so many things doing and I, I didn't even get the chance to see him face to face....I too wasn't free at all, Our marriage was tomorrow so I was busy trying so many wedding dresses, having it fitted, Making my hair, Having many and so many guests from far away...Oh my, Being a princess wasn't easy at all, I never got the chance to tell him and that made my heart ached , I felt like dying, it was torture I guess that most be the reason why there is a saying that goes... "Living in worry invites death in hurry , I was indeed living in hurry, indeed worries hurt more than sickness does, What was I going to do now,.I didn't know nor did I had a clue

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It was the D-Day,It was finally the day "Our wedding" and I feared what was going to happen, I really don't want to deceitfully marry him, I have got to tell him but how was I, it was already too late now, it kept on bothering me and it caused me pain... I walked down the stairs nervously in a simple pink dress because we weren't getting married now but we were actually going to get married later today at the evening, it was going to be a wonderful event but I wasn't happy at all but was greatly troubled, I nervously came down the stairs and stood nervously fiddling with my fingers when I spotted James, He waved at me and approached me where I nervously stood , He grinned and I gave a small smile because I wasn't happy...I could see his expression changing into a worried look and he looked at me...

"Stephanie was wrong, he said still fixing his gaze on me and I knew this could only be the opportunity I had left to finally tell him...

"I have to tell you something and it really important... I ...

"There you both are, What in the world are you busy doing here, We don't have all day, The guests are going nut and are asking of you both , They would like to see you both, Enough chit chat, You will have all the time in this world to talk when you both get married...She said, it was James blabbermouth aunt and she has just ruin the only opportunity I had to tell James the truth...

"Oh no aunt, Just please give us two minutes,.Stephanie actually want to say something" he said looking at me..

"Then say it already Now! , In front of me....Is not like it is something personal like saying that you love him...She said and I could see James smiling sheeply, I could feel my blood raising up to my cheeks making it all red , she had just embarrassed me and she took it as nothing... I didn't understand why my life was a mess , How was I going to tell James in the presence of his aunt that I was not who he thinks I am but someone else, no I couldn't possibly do it...

"You don't have a problem saying it in front of my aunt, Do you? James asked..

"No-no, I don't, I ...I just wanted to say that I waaaaaaas um just excited about the wedding that's all I wanted to say.. I said lying and immediately regretting it, Oh I wish his aunt never showed up, Then I would have been able to tell james and faced the consequences, But no his aunt just had to show up and I ended up lying, How great...

"See that what she wanted to say,So there was no need to get all worked up, She said looking at him...

"Now but of you follow me , She said with James leading the way and I , walking right at his back...

Suddenly I was pulled back by a firm grip, It was his aunt and I wondered why she pulled me back...

"I just want to say that I can see that my cousin really loves you and I know you can see it too , Please don't ever betray him, He has been through a lot She said worriedly staring straight in my eyes and I felt weak, How could I tell her that that's was what I doing, I was betraying him and that shatters me completely cause I didn't wanted to but what could I have done about everything, I was helpless and broken...

"Are you guys coming" James said turning back after he realized that no one was walking with him , "And aunt, You were the one who that just said no chit chat, He said smiling mocking his aunt....

"We are coming"She said giving me a pleading look "Please remember what I have told you" She said with a worried expression on her face and then she took us to see the guests...

You could have imagined what had happened next, Every possible chance I got to tell himwe would either be interrupted by guests or very busy and that just makes me sick and hopelessand that was how it was happening, To the time that we were suppose to actually get married, That's at the evening and my heart failed, I wondered about what was going to happen, Was I going to marry him out of deceit? I asked myself this question multiple times and I never the got my answer...

It was finally the time should I say the prospective time for the marriage and I could feel my heartbeat increasing, I felt like just fainting and waking up again realizing that it was all a dream, But that was never going to happen, It wasn't a dream and I was done for...

Slowly I matched to the altar with my legs shaking and fear play with my emotions , I felt like suffocating... My "Dad", the king held on my hands while I was holding a bouquet of flowers with the other, We slowly marched to the altar and I could see the prince smiling like literally was about to explode, Oh God, I really can't afford to do this , I just can't let I, Alexa to marry him when he was actually on love with "Princess Stephanie" not Alexa , I wasn't afraid again of telling because I just didn't want to close my mouth and watch his life getting ruined like that , But how would I?....The priest begun the marriage procedure, You know all those blah blah not like I actually even paid any forcus or anything like that and as you have it, It eventually got to the time when he was going to ask if we took each other as our lawfully wedded partners and I knew that if I ever wanted to save the prince life from marrying me, I would have to say something fast...

"Crown Prince, James Antonio Alfreda the second, Do you take Princess Hippolyta Stephanie Elizabeth D' Dubae of Peace blossom Kingdom as your lawfully wedded partner for life" The priest said and the prince responded...

"I do, I really do" He responded like a flash, looking at me smiling, So quickly he did responded that I didn't know that it was already my turn to be ask the same life threatening question, I could feel my hands shaking, I was so scared that I knew that if I didn't calm down in the next few minutes, I was going to literally collapse...

"Very well, he said removing his attention from the prince, now looking at me...

"And do you, Princess Hippolyta Stephanie Elizabeth D' Dubae of Peace blossom Kingdom take crown prince James Antonio Alfreda of Malfor Kingdom has your wedded partner for life? He asked and I could see the crowd getting all silent, Waiting to hear my reply, I felt like I was going to die , My heart was beating and I was literally suffocating, The flowers I was holding was literally shaking out of my shaking hands and I knew someone who have wondered what was going on , But the thing was that I couldn't help it, I was so scared, What if I tell everybody the truth and the king end up killing me just like how he killed my mother, No I have to say the truth no matter what and he does agree on killing me, I would agree with that as my fate...

"I....I...um I...

"Stephanie, You alright? Prince James asked looking all worried, it was like I was standing on a big stage and everybody was staring at me , It was torture..

"Do you, I repeat take Prince James as your partner for life?" The priest repeated the question still fixing his gaze on me

I wouldn't possibly marry James even if I wanted to and even if I said "Yes" to the marriage, A marriage based on lies and deceit was never ever going to last long...

"I ... I don't I said and his eyes widenand the congregation gasped....