Chapter 18

"Stay away from me", I said pushing him away with tears in my eyes, I couldn't believe that I could have fallen for him the second time, No I can't do this, I can't let my heart get broken for the second time again and I could see his eyes widen

"How dare you come here, Who on earth do you think you are, Do you possibly think that you can just barge in here and tell me that you want me back and you think that I would listen to you... I said, I was about to explode, I could see that he was hurt by my word and I didn't care, it high time I said my mind, I was angry with him and also with myself, and he has hurt me so much, I couldn't be able to forgive him for that and just blindly trust him and follow him..., I could see he was slowly tearing up and deep down i was broken completely...

"Am sorry,and I have regretted my mistake, Have suffered a lot, But please don't do this to me, please forgive me, I don't think I can leave without you... he said and I could feel my heart becoming soften , No I can't let this happen, I can't let him make me change my mind, No...

"Alexa...

"Don't you dare call me that, Alexa is dead now, You have lost your Alexa for good, Am no more Alexa but Isabelle and am no more in love with you, I said and I could see him breaking down, I too was heartbroken but I had to say this, I had to do this in order for him to just leave me alone, I had to say this because I was hurt and I wanted him to just go away from me for good, I wanted to protect my child from Stephanie cause if I had agreed on following him , I would be done for by Stephanie, she would kill me and my child, And I can't let that happen, it was time I stop becoming selfish and l start thinking about my child, My child was my whole life and I couldn't possibly allow anything to happen to my child...

I stood there trying hard not to tear up, the prince looking devastated, suddenly I could feel someone presence and I turned around and found out it was the prince, and he looked worried...

"There you are, Have been looking everywhere for you, Are you alright, you ran away from the ball, I wanted to tell you that I am sorry I forced you to dance with me, I should have asked, he said looking at me pleading...

"James, you are here, what going on...he asked confusedly...

"Wait is she your lover? he said and I had to say something before James would tell the truth, So i didn't allow James to speak...

"No he isn't, I said quickly...

"I mean he's looking for his lover called Alexa and am Isabelle so...

"Oh!... he said

"You wanted a dance so let go, I would happily dance with you, I said immediately placing my hand on the prince's and immediately leaving, I had wanted to make James heartbroken and think that I have found someone else and was happy, and maybe he would just finally leave me alone...

I walked with the prince, hand by hand and I could feel tears slowly gathering in my eyes but I was fighting back to hold it ...I was heartbroken...

*JAMES P.O.V*

I could feel tears slowly gathering my eyes, I was heartbroken, completely shattered, I watched as my Alexa left with someone else that was not me, I felt like dying and like my heart was been stabbed by a million dagger, it was torture , She looks like she is happy being with Prince Charles and I was already too late, she had found someone else... I couldn't stand seeing her holding hands with him, l needed her back in my life and I know that she is hurt and heartbroken as I too, But am not going to leave without her forgiving me and agreeing to go with me...

*ALEXA P.O.V*

We finally reached the main entrance and I immediately let go of the prince hand, I just couldn't continue holding hands with someone else..

"Are you alright, he said..

"Wait are you crying" he added...

"Crying, No am not, Am perfectly fine, I...I truly am...

"Okay"He said and I could see him staring at me with a little smile on his face and I felt so uncomfortable...

"I like you" he blurted out and my eyes widen...

"I know I know, I just met you Isabelle but I can't help it and I can't deny the fact that I like you so much... he added and I felt lost, Oh God what was happening...

"Huh, Thanks, I manage to say when I didn't know what else to say, I was so uncomfortable and heartbroken and now the prince added it up by saying he likes me? Why does he, He has just added to my problems...

"I think I have to go, it getting late...I said and I didn't waited for his reply before leaving, I didn't even waited for Hermia cause I was in so much pain, I knew something like this was going to happen,... I meeting James has just open old chapters that I had finally shut after a long period of healing and now the prince?...

I finally arrived at my house with tears in my eyes, I ran up to my room without even meeting the old woman, I completely ran pass her i knew that she was going to be wondering what actually happened but I wasn't ready to tell her about the horror, I had just faced...

I placed my head on my pillow and cried my eyes out, Why did James came, Why did he decided on coming and reminding me of my past and our love when i was just finally forgetting it and moving on...

Suddenly I could hear the door opening and I raised my face up with my already swollen eyes..

"Oh my God Alexa was wrong , why are you crying, What's wrong Alexa, Why did you leave the ball, I searched everywhere for you but I couldn't find you, Hermia said with a worried expression written all over her face...

"What happened child, You know you can tell us" The old woman said...

And I wiped my tears only for fresh ones to start falling...

"H- he was here, I stammered and I could see their faces still confused...

"James came to the ball and I saw him..., He begged me to follow him and leave, I said still crying, he has just brought back all the memories I had with him and it just makes me sick Did he possibly think that I would go with him... I feel helpless... I said

"It okay , the old woman said coming to cheer me up along with Hermia and I finally calmed down and felt a little peace...

"So what are you going to do now.. Hermia asked looking at me...

"I am not going to forgive him and follow him, cause I can't forgive him for everything he has done, I said finally making up my mind...

"Since he is here now, Am going to continue avoiding him and when he sees that I don't need him again and l don't love him, he would finally leave me alone for good, I wasn't going to run away like a coward but he is the one that's going to leave ... I said and I could see Hermia agreeing with me and my decision but the old woman seems worried...

"Can't you just forgive him, he has at least tried and was sorry...She said...

"How could you possibly say that, I can't forgive him after all that he had done to me , No never, I said angrily and I could see that I had hurt the elderly woman feelings...

"Am sorry, I said calmly..

"I didn't mean to hurt...

"It's okay, I would support you no matter what, she said and I felt at ease, I was happy that both supported my decision...

There both left wishing me a good night rest and I laid down on my bed hoping to do what I had said and was not going to be carry away by my emotions...