beautiful but unsure

what scares me?

" my future, I'm scared that what I have planned for the future might not be where I will be when I get there and then I'll have to look at my past with regrets"

"ok" he said as he nodded his head

" so what about you, what scares you?" I asked

"you?" he said as he stared at me

" what do you mean" I asked shocked

"I'm scared that I will wake up one day and you will break things off with me"

"huh?" I said astonished

"you are very smart, I mean really smart and for the small time I have known you and talk to you I realized you are really smart"

"isn't that a good thing?" I asked

"you are smart and very mysterious and those two combined seems dangerous to me. I can't predict what you will say or do. you say what people want to hear but I feel there's always an underlying meaning to what you say to please people, is like a warning at the same time and that scares me. you might break my heart and am scared because I will crash if you do cause I'm falling too deep for those two dangerous thing about you or maybe it's just you, the fact that you are you makes me love you more and I feel you will break me and I'm scared" he said

"then why don't you end it now ?" I asked

" uh! you don't know, you just don't know..... I can't end things with you that's the whole thing about being scared because I can't seem to let you go and I don't think I will be able to, Uh ! Eve... how long have I met you? that I feel this way about you and I'm not even young to say it's my first love or first relationship. i love you and that scares me" he said

"wow! uhm....I uhm don't know what to say but let's hope for the best in future. ok time to Leave"

"after all that I said you still didn't give me an assurance, Eve talk to me"

'"All I can say is let's wait and see what the future has installed for us" and with that I left.

*what's with that*

* even I don't know but it's getting intense and the question is am I ready? that I didn't know*