chapter sixty three

"do you want to be her boyfriend"

Nick didn't answer

"if you don't want to be her boyfriend then what do you want to do with her, do you want friends with benefits affair with her"

"no, I love her!!! are you happy now"

"me happy?"

"I love her, I love her so much, yes I want to be her boyfriend and even more, I want her in my future cos I can't love anyone the same way as I love Joan. I am not even sure I can love again, it's like Joan is the love itself for me"

"then why don't you tell her".

"you think it's easy, I don't even know how to tell her and even our parents"

"what do your parents have to do with this"

"they have always wanted me to be her brother and I envision the shock in my parents eyes when I tell them I love her but not as a sister but a lover, I fear their reaction"

"they are your parents, they would understand, besides Joan is not your biological sister, you're not even related, so what's stopping you"

"you think it's easy, to look especially my mom in the eyes and tell her, I love that girl she considers her little princess, I am afraid she will look at me with disappointment.

what if it confirms what my grandpa said about me exhibiting traits different from her, I don't want to be different from my mom I want her to be proud of me always I can't lose this family too even if it kills me to see Joan leave at least my parents will have me"

"what do you mean different from your mother"

"because she's not my biological mother, they're not my biological parents and I wish I never found out, i wish they never told me and hunt me with it"

"Nick what are you saying? what they have said does not define you, have they ever made you feel like you are not their child?"

before Nick could answer, someone was at the door, and he looked up and it was his mother, he shook his head

"mom! mom! please listen, please" he ran after his mom but she drove off, he fell to his knees and cried

"no....not again please"

"go home and talk to her, she will understand" Fred said and he rose up and wiped his tears,

he gathered himself and left, when he got home...