My mouth is full of snow, as if salt had been forced into my mouth. I am no longer an enemy of the years I spent sad without you. I could not cry when I learned that Nazik had broken into someone's house and stolen from a lady a camera to film her confessions and kill herself. Until now, I forced a 59-year-old woman to hate her life and die that's what they say. I jail her in a room and a tall mansion and forced her to become out of mind. Of course, all of that was false. I knew that she was the mother of my friend L..and I do not hate in my life the word between us. Childhood readings. Unless the lies are dressed to an animal beast, it is not what gives life, but a fierce war against her. She writes this down about my teaching her to read and write and her impressive ideas on children are forgotten because of me. i come back at night from the bars she say and do write bad articles while i'm drunk. I sat in my prison under arrest, waiting to get away, only where are you when i get used to your upsent i get my head back when you near..more than death where im in this?.