chapter sixty

RIVER

Asking Lily to accompany me for a royal visit to the islands might just be the most selfish thing I've done yet when it comes to her.

I know she has a client that needs all of her attention at the moment but I can not bring myself to ask her to stay while I visit a place of my past that drains every ounce of strength in me.

I've always known from the moment I stepped on these islands that I wouldn't be the same.

At sixteen holding a gun at a shooting range felt like liquid power, at eighteen holding a gun in a battle field tasted like all shades of death mixed in gore.

Painted images that would never leave my mind etched themselves in the recesses and stuck. Waiting for that moment when I let my guard down to haunt.

I've let my guard down so many times that now the images of war have created their own rendition of what was there and what wasn't but could have been.