chapter sixty six

RIVER

I never thought that a look from someone could make me want to run.

But the broken spirited look in Lily's eyes makes me privy to such urges.

Run,

Hide...

Anything to just be away from that look.

The ringing of my phone cuts off a moment later and I try to shrink myself away from her in an act of self preservation.

I hate that the first thing I want to say is an apology.

I know well enough that the look in her eyes is not judgemental. Or that the constant frown is not aimed towards me but part of me feels like it is.

She would never judge me for something like this.

Is what I tell myself every time I look at her.

"You were here when I left for college?"

Although it comes out as a question, it sounds more like an assessment and I wish she hadn't asked.

My fingers ball into fists at the reminder as I clear my throat and step back a little to prepare myself for what's to come next.