Chapter 94 - Lena Tells Alura

It is now the end of the week, and so far, Lena, Alex, Winn, J'onn and the entirety of the DEO have been unable to find Lex Luthor, James Olsen or Kara. This, of course, has just led to Lena feeling worse and worse, but at the same time not being able to outwardly show how bad she is feeling, because her priority has remained on her taking care of Alura. Lena still has not told Alura the truth about Kara's whereabouts, just sticking to the lie that Kara is busy with Supergirl work. Lena just doesn't want to upset her daughter with the truth, and had hoped (even if she thought it was foolishly) that they would find Kara, and bring her back to them, before Alura is any of the wiser. Then that way Alura just wouldn't have to find out about what happened to Kara. Meanwhile, Alex honestly has not been doing much better, on the Wednesday evening Alex spent it crying in Sam's arms. Then things didn't get any better on the Thursday evening as she passed out only due to the drunken oblivion she got herself in.

"Please tell me we have something.... anything...." Alex says, as she walks to the DEO hub along with Lena that Friday afternoon.

Winn turns around in his chair and gives Alex and Lena a concerned and sad look. Meanwhile, J'onn also turns round a gives the two women a sympathetic look.

"I'm afraid we don't." J'onn says.

"Well, we have to have something!" Alex says, angrily, "Supergirl didn't just disappear into thin air, nor did Lex Luthor!"

"I'm sorry Alex." Winn says, regretfully, "We are continuing to try and do scans for any Kryptonite use, while agents are scouring those tunnels underneath the prison, but other than that, we don't have anything."

Alex turns to look at Lena.

"Lena, you must have something right?" Alex says, "You said you know your brother better than anyone!"

Lena looks at Alex, and just freezes. Lena feels her heart rate begin to pick up, and a knot begin to form in her stomach.

"I.... I...." Lena stammers.

"Come on Lena, what good are you if you won't help us!" Alex says, annoyed. "Alex that's enough!" J'onn shouts, scolding Alex.

Lena turns and quickly walks away, heading for the nearest empty room, as she doesn't want to break down in front of anyone.

"Shit." Alex says, as she watches Lena walk away, realising she just snapped at Lena for no reason. "I should go talk to her."

"No." J'onn says, shaking his head, "I don't think you talking to Lena is a good idea right now."

"Okay." Alex nods, "I'll message Sam and ask her to come over."

"That sounds like a better idea." J'onn says, nodding his head.

Lena makes it into a sleeping quarters room, and then sits down on one of the beds and cries. Lena cries because she feels utterly useless, like she hasn't been able to help at all, even though she should, because she is Lex Luthor's sister. Alex just shouting at her, and saying she is useless, just caused all of Lena's own worst feelings and thoughts to bubble up to the surface.

Lena continues to cry for several more minutes, and eventually, once her tears die down, she looks around the room and her stomach does another flip, and then more tears burst forward. Lena just realised that she unconsciously has made her way into the same sleeping quarters that she and Kara shared all those months ago, when Alura was ill. In the very room Lena is now in, is the room where Kara and Lena first slept in the same bed together, even if it was only a mistake at the time. However, the room having a connection to Kara just brings even more emotions forward for Lena, causing her to cry even more.

Eventually, a while later, there is a knock at the door, and then before Lena has a chance to get herself together, the door opens, and Sam walks in.

"Oh Lena." Sam says, noticing her best friend is crying, and then quickly running over to her, and taking her in for a hug.

Lena doesn't move, she just lets Sam hug her, while she just sits there on the edge of the bed she shared with Kara all those months ago.

"It's..... it's all my fault Sam..... I should have..... figured out..... where Lex is.... by now..." Lena sobs.

"No, it's not your fault at all." Sam says, firmly.

"It is..." Lena says, continuing to cry.

"No, and you have got to stop saying that. It is not your responsibility to be able to track your brother down, and know his every move." Sam says. "But I grew up with him! I should be able to figure out where he is!" Lena protests, still crying.

"And from what you have told me, you never believed, growing up, that Lex would become what he has. You never knew him like he is now. So how could you be expected to know him so well now, and therefore be able to track him down?" Sam says.

"But.... Alex...... she needs my help to find Kara.." Lena says.

"Alex has already told me what happened. And she is feeling very guilty for snapping at you like that." Sam says, "You just have to remember, Alex is just so desperate to find her sister. She feels it is her job to protect Kara, and so she feels so guilty that Lex kidnapped her. She is in just as much pain as you, but is bottling it up, trying to stay as focused as possible to find Kara. But believe me, outside of the DEO, when she is alone, or just me and her, she is a mess. Alex is absolutely devastated."

Lena continues to cry, while Sam continues to hug her best friend.

"You can't put the blame on yourself Lena. It isn't anyone's fault that you haven't been able to find Kara, or track down Lex. It's just... a horrible situation.... and it truly and utterly sucks.... It's horrible...." Sam says.

Lena continues to cry for several more minutes, and Sam just stays with Lena, continuing to hug her, and offer all the support she needs. Eventually, after a few minutes, Lena turns towards Sam and hugs her back, needing the comfort for her own heart right now. The two women then continue to hug for a few more minutes, before they eventually part.

"Feel a bit better?" Sam asks, as she looks at Lena with a sad expression on her face.

"A.... bit.." Lena nods, as she wipes the tears from her face.

"It was good to let that out." Sam says.

Lena sighs.

"Yeah... maybe." Lena replies.

Lena then looks at her phone, and sees that it is 2:30 already, meaning she has to go pick Alura up from school. After Lena picked Alura up a few minutes late on Wednesday, on Thursday Lena made sure to get there 10 minutes early. Lena doesn't want Alura to have any worries, and that is another one of the reasons she hasn't told Alura about what really has happened to Kara.

"I need to go pick Alura up from school now..." Lena says, standing up.

"Okay." Sam nods, "But Lena, you NEED to tell Alura the truth."

Lena freezes upon hearing Sam say that.

"The truth will only hurt her." Lena says, not looking at Sam.

"Yes, it will." Sam agrees, "But if you keep the truth from her, sooner or later she will start to have questions, and then realise you are hiding something from her. Then imagine how that will make her feel, when her mommy is missing, and her momma is lying to her. You need to be there to support Alura, Lena."