No courage

I sighed and made my jumping heart calm down before entering Travis's home. I can't let his mom find something is wrong before I could say anything. I drank the water in my bottle quickly and brought a fake smile on ghost seen pale face !

Knock knock.

" Hey, darling. What a surprise ! Welcome. Come inside "

Isabella, Travis's mother welcomed me with a bright smile and open heart. She adores me as her own daughter. And ever since I lost my parents, Travis's parents are loving me even more.

" Hi, Isabella. "

I said hugging her gently.

" Honey, look who's here. "

Isabella said turning around and taking me inside with her.

" Hey, Amber ! "

Charlie greeted me with a warm smile.

" Hello, Charlie. "

I waved at him.

" What brings you here ? "

Charlie asked.

" Honey ! "

Isabella scolded him.

" I am just asking her ! I didn't said she shouldn't come here. It's her home as well. It's just that, she haven't visited us in a long time. So, I am concerned... "

Charlie explained himself.

" I get it, Isabella. You are right Charlie. It's something... "

I backed him up and tried to get to the point as he himself brought it up but Isabella being herself,

" Now that you are here, come let's have dinner together and we can discuss the planning about the wedding. "

Isabella said bringing up un unexpected topic. There was nothing planned about the wedding being anytime soon then, why suddenly she brought it up ? Her bringing up the same topic which I came here to talk and cancel, discouraged me even more !

" Honey, it's like next year ! You want to plan it... "

Charlie said trying to calm her down.

" Time flies ! Come, Amber. "

Isabella cut him off and dragged me with her to kitchen.

Oh god ! Time flies ? Have she already planned anything ?

We reached in the kitchen and she prepared the dishes. I put them on the dining table and Charlie joined us. We started eating and Isabella started talking about the wedding once again.

" Sweety, I was thinking we should do destination wedding with few close relatives only and not much crowd. What do you think about it ? Or do you want a grand wedding ? "

Isabella asked excited.

Oh god ! What should I say ? What did I wanted to talk and what is she talking ?

When I didn't said anything, she pressed.

" What ? Why are you looking like I am talking aline language ? "

Isabella asked confused.

" Honey, she must be thinking her mother-in-law is super excited about a thing which is going to take place next year. Relax a bit. Am I right, Amber ? "

Charlie said trying to make the situation light and started laughing and I had to laugh so that, he shouldn't feel lonely. He stopped when Isabella gave him death glare.

" Whatever... Where is Travis ? "

I asked as I didn't found him.

" What ? You don't know where is he ? How is that possible ? "

Isabella asked surprised.

Uh-oh !

" Um... "

I couldn't find the correct words to answer her.

" He might have forgotten... "

Charlie said trying to cover up for him.

" Yeah, ofcourse ! He is just like you. Never tells the important person what needs to be told ! He is just as careless as you are ! "

Isabella said irritated with him and Charlie.

" What did I do now ? "

Charlie said irritated as well.

" Shut up... "

Isabella yelled.

Oh God, don't fight. I am already so nervous about how should I tell them that, I want to call off the wedding which she is more than excited and now they are almost fighting over Travis !

" Hey, hey ! Guys, we are eating. Stop fighting. "

I said interrupting them.

" But he should have told you that ! It's not right to do this. "

Isabella said irritated at him.

" Um... Actually I wanted to talk about something... "

Just I thought I got the chance, but would they be tye most chaotic couple if, they'd let anyone else talk while somethings on their mind ?

" He is with his friends, planning something for his birthday. "

Charlie said taking his side. I get it, he is your son, but dude he is wrong. I don't mind him going anywhere; as if he'd listen to me and consider my feelings if I minded ! But at least I should know where is he ?

" I am not happy with it. He should be celebrating his birthday with her and not with his stupid friends ! "

Isabella said getting mad.

" Actually, I want to... "

I tried to take advantage of the situation which is in my favor, but...

" You don't worry darling. He'll be good after the wedding. He'll change, don't worry about it, ok ? "

Isabella said putting her hand on mine warmly.

And it went like this ! She didn't let me talk what I wanted to and I had to leave without saying what I have been preparing myself the whole day !

Fucking why don't have the courage to tell them the truth and save my life ? They are superb and they love me so much no doubt. But just as Suzy said, I was gonna get married to their son and not them !

I got out of the house and I felt like someone is looking at me. And I have been feeling like this for a while now ! Like, someone follows me every single day from work to my home. Like someone is continuously watching me and following me ! But when, I scan the surrounding, no is to be found !