Illusion

I returned home after hunting, just to listen Amber moaning delightfully ! So, they are making love ! What a bad time to return home !

I was leaving again when Daniel stopped me,

" Ethan ! Where are you going ? "

Daniel asked.

" None of your business ! "

I said seriously without looking at him.

" Ouch ! No need to be rude, I just asked out of concern. Nothing else. "

Daniel said shrugging.

As if, I don't know him for forever now and can't predict why is he behaving the way he is behaving.

" Why are you so concerned for me today ? I leave the place everyday ! And as far as I remember, you've never bothered to ask me till now. Then suddenly what makes you concerned about me now ? Do you want something... "

I said coming straight to the point.

" No appreciation for being good ? I am genuinely asking you and you think I want something from you and... "

Daniel said trying to act innocent.

" When you've never gave a damn about anyone, sudden concern about them raises suspicion ! "

I said crossing my arms.

" Ouch again ! That's mean. "

Daniel said dramatically.

" YOU are mean. And now if, your drama have come to an end, shall I go do my work ? "

I said rolling my eyes.

" By all means ! But seriously I was just... "

Daniel said raising his hands infront in defeat.

" What do you want from me ? "

I said annoyed with him stopping me from leaving when it's the thing I desperately need like right now !

" Are you jealous that, Amber is sleeping with Kevin and not with...

Ugh... "

Daniel said crossing his limits.

I grabbed his throat and pushed him on the wall.

" Don't you dare use such filthy words about Amber ever, understand ? "

I said coldly to him.

" Ethan let him go... "

Steve tried to get me away from his brother.

Little does he knows, his strength is nothing infront of mine ! I hissed at him with my bare fangs.

" Please, Ethan. Let him go. You'll kill him like this. Please. "

Steve said pleading and softening his voice.

I looked at struggling Daniel under my strong grip to breath, I let go of him.

" A single filthy word against Amber and next time his head would be off his body ! Tell this to your brother, Steve. "

I growled clenching my teeth.

I didn't waited for their response and stormed out of the house.

I don't know where to go. I've hunted and had my dinner. I don't want to hurt anyone else and attract the hunters here.

I went to the pink lake and sat on the edge of the wooden bridge over it. I removed my shoes and sank my feet in the cold and calm water.

The fishes gathered to remove dead skin from them; only they found nothing to scrap from them !

But the feeling is so good, like a million minute kisses at a time !

" What's wrong ? Why are you here today ? "

The soft and sweet voice broke my trance of watching the fishes.

I know the owner of this voice.

" Why ? Can't I be here if, I just want to ? "

I asked.

" You never come here unless you are sad or miserable or helpless or hopeless. Tell me what's it now ? "

The voice asked.

She came and sat beside me and put her arm around my shoulder. I put my head on her shoulder.

She gives me calmness. She is right, I never come here unless I feel bad. But right now, even I don't know what exactly I am feeling ?

" What's wrong, baby ? Won't you even tell your mother ? "

Mother asked softly caressing my head.

" I don't know mother. I don't know what am I feeling. "

I admitted.

" It's ok, baby. Close your eyes and think what's troubling you. "

Mother said softly.

I did what she said. I closed my eyes and think about what is it troubling me.

The memory when, I saved Amber in Paris came rushing to me.

She was so beautiful and had my heart in the moment. I checked for injuries but couldn't see one except small scratches.

I fed her my blood; but it didn't worked ! How was that possible ? I've never experienced it before. Every time I fed my blood to anyone, they healed but she didn't !

I was rushing her to the hospital but saw Kevin on the way, he was feeding on her parents ! He only stopped when, they stopped breathing completely.

I tried to stop him but he didn't !

When we reached hospital and the doctors started treating Amber, Kevin came. He fed on them till they died !

We could have saved them but he didn't left any chance to do that.

And now, after five years Kevin met her, fell in love with her, she too fell for him !

But he still haven't told her that he was the one who killed her parents !

I saved her life. I wanted to save her parents as well ! Kevin didn't saved her, killed her parents and haven't told her the truth; yet he got to love her and she loves him back !

What wrong I did to deserve this ? Why can't 'I' have her ?

" Why can't I have her ? Why isn't she mine ? "

I asked sighing.

" There you go, that's what's troubling you, baby. That's your answer ! "

Mother said caressing me lovingly, comforting me.

" It's no answer, mother ! It's the main question ! Just why ? "

I asked frustrated.

" You need to find the answer yourself, baby. I can't help you with that, I am so sorry. "

Mother said feeling bad.

" But you can at least tell me, what wrong I did not to have her ? Whose fault is it ? "

I asked turning to her.

" It's definitely not her's ! She doesn't even know that you love her. She doesn't know what Kevin did ! "

Mother said looking into my eyes.

" So is it my fault that, I didn't confessed her in Paris when, she was injured ? Her parents were dead ? What was I supposed to do ? "

I asked frustrated.

" You know baby, I can't answer anything YOU don't know ! You have to find the answers yourself. I can only soothe you and nothing else ! "

Mother said sadly.

She is right. She can't answer my unknown questions !

She is just an illusion I've created in my mind from whatever memories I have of her; to find peace, whenever I am disturbed ! I always run here to seek soothing from her illusion and she does give me that !

I come here only to feel her presence. It's the last place I've met her before she was buried by her own coven !

Whenever I feel low I always come to her just like I used to run to her whenever there was a problem and just like when, I was a child she soothes me and helps me find answers to my questions !

But today she couldn't help me finding answer to my question. But she gave me the peace I was seeking.

" I love you, Mother. "

I wispered closing my eyes and locking her beautiful face in my memory.

" I love you too, baby. "

Mother wispered back.

She kissed my forehead and vanished in the thin air.

The fishes were still trying to get the dead skin off my legs and still couldn't find anything for them to feed on !

I took out the fish food I brought from my pocket and fed them.

Nobody comes here. It's a restricted area for humans; as some unnatural activities are found here...

The screams of my Mother when, she was being buried, are still heard here !

So, only I visit here. Seeking her presence and calmness.

I've felt her presence here often but I just couldn't find where exactly is she buried ? I know she is definitely here somewhere, cause I've heard her screams myself !

But the witches would have hidden the place she is buried !

Maybe she is right here besides me or maybe I am even standing on her coffin; yet I can't see her !

Vampires can't break the witch's magic, only a witch can ! I'd give anything to get my mother back with me !

Kevin hates her for two reasons. One, he wasn't my father's son and for that, father have cursed and treated him real bad.

And second, he thought Mother loved me more than she loved him; which is actually true ! She really loved me more than him. And that's the reason I want her back and he doesn't give a damn about it !

The sun is about to rise, I should leave now. The more time I spend here the more I seek to see her and to be with her.

" I will come to visit you soon again, Mother. I love you and...

I miss you ! "

I wispered.

I badly want to cry.

Saddest part ?

I can't cry even if, I want to !

She used to feel sad when, I felt bad. So, I quickly gave up the sad face and left the place with a smile on my face.