Not have to pretend anymore

Why is she so stubborn ? Why doesn't she understands, I don't like her getting close to anyone else ? Why isn't she letting Ethan go ? Why does she wants him between us ? Why doesn't she understands my possessiveness towards her ?

I am telling her I wanna take her on a date and she is sad he'll come as well ? Why would he come on a date with me and her ? And more surprising thing is, he isn't denying her !

I mean, yes he is saying he won't come along but he isn't saying it strongly; as if, he too wants to join us !

Is he happy that, she is giving him more importance than me ? She isn't listening to me and I don't want to insult myself anymore ! So, I didn't said anything.

I was so mad, I didn't even wanted to talk to Amber. We went to some restaurant and I ate something, I don't even remember, what ?

I didn't talked to any of them the whole time and they were talking and laughing and it made me furious as hell !

Amber wanted ice-cream so, we stopped and Travis's mother confronted Amber for hurting and killing Travis. I was ok with it. She have every right to know what happened to her son; but she shouldn't have slapped Amber !

And that too, infront of me !

I was already mad and she gave me a reason to take it out on her and then, her husband joined the part too !

Amber was trying to save them but they don't deserve my mercy. And I need to take my rage out somewhere else or I'll end up hurting Amber herself !

So, I ripped both of their throats out !

I am feeling so realx and calm now. But my love is feeling something else ! She is calling me a fucking monster !

I have been called with various names till now and I haven't felt bad or even bothered; but her calling me a monster broke my heart and it hurts so much I can't breathe, like someone is choking me !

She said she doesn't wants to see my face ever again ! She doesn't wants to be with me. She said I broke her trust, her hope, her heart and even her !

She can't imagine how much she have hurted me with her words. I can't live with such words banging in my ears for an eternity !

Such heartbreaking words from the love of my life ! I have never loved anyone the way I loved her. I gave her everything I had, everything I could; and she says, she doesn't wants to be with me anymore ! I can't live like this and the worst thing...

I can't even kill myself !

The only way I can continue surviving with all this is... shutting off my emotions and stop feeling anything at all !

If I won't do it, I will go crazy !

" I can't be with you anymore Kevin ! Earlier when I looked at you, I saw a handsome guy with cute dimples ! And now when I look at you, I see a monster having blood of my beloved ones on his hands ! Just...

I am leaving you and your home... "

Amber said angrily.

" You don't need to do that, Amber ! You can stay there, I will stay here. Take care of her for me brother and take care of yourself ! "

I said gazing at her.

I want to keep her beautiful face in my memory before I shut off my all emotions.

" Kevin, no ! Don't do it brother, please ! "

Ethan said getting what was I gonna do.

" I have no other option left, brother ! I can't live without her and she have asked me not to show her my face. I love her so much, I can't bear it. I can't take her being away from me.

The pain would have killed me; if I was mortal but that's not the case !

So, there's only one option left for me to let my survive make less miserable.

Goodbye. "

I closed my eyes with tears in my eyes and switched it off. And opened my eyes with a smirk on my face !

" Have a happy life, my love. I will be staying here with my wolf clan and be their Alpha ! I do have so many important things to do than, waste my time on convincing someone who doesn't trust me, that I am not who she thinks I am !

But, it's ok. Your loss. Who will fuck you senseless and drain you out of energy now ? "

I said winking at her.

Amber was shocked to listen me talk like that, oh poor thing !

" Just shut up and leave, Kevin ! "

Ethan said.

" Oh, I AM leaving. No need to get all grumpy, BODYGUARD ! "

Amber was still confused what just happened here. She have no idea about what I did but my brother knows better.

She looked at him confused and he hugged her,

" He have shut them off ! "

Ethan said sadly.

I would have killed him for hugging her infront of me; but I don't feel anything like that now. Whatever they do in my absence, I just don't care anymore !

I left and went to the group of the wolves, they want me to be their Alpha !

I know they only want me because, I am the hybrid and most powerful creature and if, they'll have me no one would dare to threaten them !

But it's ok. I don't care why they need me for. I am getting my Alpha place and they will get protection.

I can be a monster without feeling guilty and kill anyone without fear of the hunters !

Oh, how free I am feeling already !

I was almost bound when I was with Amber and in that town. Now this is exactly how I wanted my life to be. Without any restrictions and living on my own conditions !

She have called me a MONSTER when I wasn't ! Now, she shall see how I become a monster. I'll make sure to visit her and show how a monster acts and she will regret thinking of me as a monster.

Ah, here comes my first innocent victim...