Loving me back

I was sleeping when I heard something. Is it Kevin or someone else ? I can't be careless. The sound was coming closer and then, I felt the bed sink as if, someone sat on it.

And then a hand came across my body. I grabbed it and turning fast I grabbed the throat and pinned the person on the bed and hover over with my fangs out ready to tear the throat out and hissed hard,

" Calm down, it's just me. "

I heard Amber wisper.

She ran her palm on my cheek. What the hell ? I was about to rip her throat off !

" Stop sneaking up on me like this. It's dangerous, I could have killed you ! "

I wispered horrified at the thought of killing her by mistake.

" I know you won't ever hurt me or let anyone else hurt me ! "

Amber said softy caressing my face.

I put her loose hair behind her ear and running my palm over her cheek I wispered,

" Forgive me, I couldn't recognize your scent. I thought it was someone else came to hurt me and it was my natural instinct to attack ! "

She didn't took her hand off my face and was still caressing me.

" It's ok. You did what your instincts asked you to. I am sorry, I should have called out your name. I thought you were sleeping sound and I didn't wanted to wake you up by calling you. "

Amber wispered.

" Let it be. Why aren't you asleep yet ? Can't sleep ? "

I asked running my thumb on her cheek.

" No. "

Amber shook her head.

" What's wrong ? "

I asked caressing her head.

She broke the eye contact for the first time while talking to me. She looked away and hesitated to say whatever she wanted to !

I put a finger under her chin and made her look at me.

" What's wrong, darling ? "

I wispered softly.

I did asked her what's wrong but I was wishing she shouldn't tell me the truth that, she is missing Kevin and can't sleep because of his memories.

" I tried. I tried so hard but I failed ! "

Amber said disappointed.

My fear is coming to life. She have definitely failed to forget about Kevin even though, I tried hard to cheer her up.

But had to ask her what's wrong.

" What are you talking about ? "

I said pretending to be oblivious about what was she talking.

" I tried so hard not to fall in love with you Ethan but I couldn't succeed in it ! "

Amber said looking into my eyes.

" What ? "

I gasped in surprise.

This is definitely not what I was expecting her answer to be and so, she caught me off guard.

" Yes ! I love you Ethan. I am so sorry. I was a coward, I couldn't accept it for even myself ! I thought it was me being a hoe for loving two real brothers !

I have admired you for a very long time now, it's just that, I couldn't accept I loved you too ! "

She wispered softly.

She couldn't control her emotions and started crying. I couldn't watch her cry ! I wiped them but she couldn't stop them.

" I wasn't sure of confessing it to you. I thought you won't accept me as, I was with your brother earlier and so I couldn't..."

Amber said crying.

" Remember one thing, I just saved your life. So, from now on your being, your heart, your body belongs to me ! I am already in love with you, darling. "

I confessed my love for her.

She was crying out loud and couldn't stop the tears from flowing. I would also had cried if, I could !

I just held her close and caressed her.

" I will not let you go anywhere, Amber. Now that you have confessed to me, you are MINE ! I will not let anyone else have you. I swear, I will kill each and everyone who will try to take you away from me !

I said possessively.

" What are you talking, have you lost your mind ? "

She wispered to me.

" Yes ! Yes, I have lost my mind. And this is all your fault. So, it is your responsibility. You can not abandon me from on !

You can not take back that feeling of being taken care of and the happiness when we are together. From now on everything you have is mine, do you understand ? "

I said like a possessed monster.

" I don't deserve you ! "

Amber wispered crying.

" Stop talking bullshit. It's me who doesn't deserve you ! You are my life Amber. I can't imagine my life without you anymore !

When you were with Kevin, I was always wishing he should mess something up so bad that, you'd break up with him !

I was feeling stuck between wanting him to be happy for he haven't had any true love and wanting him to mess up so that, I'd have you !

I was going crazy. Only I know how I survived that phase watching him happy with you and wishing it was ME instead of HIM !

Many times I had thought of telling you about my feelings but I couldn't gather the courage to tell you. I was afraid if, I tell you and you started hating me; I'd be dammed forever.

I'd rather see you happy with him than hating me ! "

I told her how I felt.

" You started liking me a long ago ? You were scared that, I won't like you back and so you didn't confessed and let me suffer all alone mmmm... "

I didn't wanted her to say what I had done with her and so, I kissed her.

She kissed me back and the tears which were flowing through our eyes mixed up in our kiss and I crushed her on me.

When we broke the kiss,

" And what if, now I tell you that I don't like you ? What if, I went away from you for you hiding all this from me for so long ? "

Amber said trying to threaten me for letting her suffer all alone because I was a coward.

The thought of her being away from me or being with someone else boiled my blood; like literally !

" I WILL KILL YOU ! If, after going through all of this I can't have you, fucking nobody will ever have you ! "

I said hissing in fury at the thought.

" Ethan ? What are you saying... "

Amber was shocked at my words.

I bit her neck and drank some of her blood.

" Ahhh... "

Amber moaned in pain.

" You are MINE now ! No one else can hurt you or have you. I won't ever let you go or let anyone else have you. "

I said glaring at her, obsessed over her.

I stared in her eyes and waited for her to do something.

I didn't wanted to force myself on her or do anything against her will. She caressed my cheeks and ran her hand on my back from my hips to my shoulders and then, pressed her lips on mine.

I kissed her wildly and rough. She was moaning and pulling me onto her even more.

I ripped her clothes off and moved away from her. I wanted to see her completely. I wanted to drink her beauty with my eyes. I was too stunned to watch her beauty.

I kept on admiring her beauty. She was laying naked infront of me and I couldn't get enough of her mesmerizing beauty.

She squirmed uncomfortably,

" Stop looking at me like that. I...

I am feeling embarrassed. "

Amber wispered.

I was shocked to listen her.

" Embarrassed ? Why for ? You are marvelous darling. You should be proud of your beauty. You should be confident and present your body knowing you are amazingly beautiful and no body is as beautiful as you are, darling ! "

I said looking into her eyes.

She blushed and smiled so beautifully, my heart skipped a beat !

I kissed her lips and went down. I lovingly put her foot on my palm and kissed her toes and traced her entire foot with my tongue.