Redemption of the monster

Ethan agreed to my conditions and went to get him back. I couldn't believe they RAN back instead of taking a flight ! And reached before the fight would have reached here.

When I told Kevin that, I am pregnant and it's his baby, he was shocked and crying and so happy to hear that. I was happy to see him happy; but it was a LIE we told him !

" Are you alright, love ? Are you happy about having a baby ? Having MY baby ? "

Kevin asked cupping my face.

" Yes I am. I DID wanted a baby ! But I had lost all the hopes of having a baby ever. But nature have gifted me with a sweet little angel. And...

Are you happy ? "

I asked him.

" Ofcourse I am ! I am on cloud nine ! My biggest regret of this life is fading away, what else do I need from my life ? Thank-you so much, love ! You have given me the biggest gift of my life. "

Kevin said crying overjoyed.

He closed his eyes and opened them with the same cute dimpled smile which I fell for ! Have he turned his emotions on ?

He was kneeling before me and had cupped my face, he leaned closer to kiss me. But I couldn't accept it and turned my face away from him.

" What's wrong love ? "

Kevin asked confused.

" I can't do this Kevin ! "

I said.

" But why ? A few weeks ago we... "

Kevin said reminding me of our steamy encounter.

" I know what we did; the result is infront of you ! But I can't do it again. I can't leave Ethan; I love him ! "

I told him.

" What ? "

Kevin said surprised.

" Oh, don't act surprised now. You knew it when, you came here for your pendant !

HE was the one who took care of me and took me out of my depression when, YOU turned your back at me and left me ! "

I said reminding him what he did to me.

" You left me with no other option, love ! You told me that, you hate me and I should never show my face to you ever again and then... "

Kevin said trying to justify his behavior.

" You could have waited ! You had known me only that much ? How could you have thought that, I would be happy without you ?

I loved you more than my life Kevin ! And you thought I'd leave you forever and could be happy in my life ?

Instead of trying to earn my forgiveness or apologizing me, what did you do ? You turned your emotions off and left !

And you not only left me but when, I came back to find you; you were shoving your tongue in some girl's throat !

Still I tried to convince you to return home with us but what did you do ? You insulted me ! You said I should stay with you instead and you'll use my body whenever you... "

I said reminding him of his cheap words he used for me.

He reached out his hand on my mouth to stop me talking further. He was crying and ashamed of his actions.

" Stop it ! For god's sake, stop it, love ! "

Kevin said helplessly.

" Why is it hard for you to listen to it now ? I am just repeating it in a private palce what you said to me in public and all your pack laughed at me ! "

I said remembering the horrible incident.

" I was not me, love. I am sorry for what I said and did there then... "

Kevin said trying to make me stop saying anything anymore.

" You let your wolf bite Ethan ! You knew it would kill him and still you didn't stopped him form doing it ! "

I said accusing him.

" I said, I am sorry. I was not the same, I had no humanity left in me ! "

Kevin said justifying his behaviour according to the time.

" That's the exact reason you have to accept few conditions if, you want be called the baby's father ! "

I said seriously.

" What the hell ? And why is that ? "

Kevin said sounding offended.

" Do you want to be the baby's father or not ? "

I asked threatening him.

" This is unfair, Amber ! You are doing business with a father and his unborn child ! "

Kevin said.

" Think whatever you want to but I am the mother and I have each and every right to secure my child's future ! "

I said firmly.

" Ok, fine ! What conditions ? "

Kevin asked irritated.

" I will not marry you and if, you... "

" Why not ? "

Kevin asked interrupting me.

" Let me finish first ! I will not marry you and if, you want to get married; I will also get married to Ethan ! "

I said.

" What the hell ? Why would you do that ? "

Kevin asked in disbelief.

" Not only that, the child will call Ethan too it's father and... "

Kevin interrupted me again.

" Oh, he'll no ! Why would he be called his father when it's MINE ? He'll be it's uncle ! "

Kevin said raising his voice.

" I already told you Kevin, you'll have to agree some conditions ! "

I reminded him.

" But these are bizarre ! "

Kevin yelled frustrated.

" No, they are not ! If, it wasn't for Ethan, I'd be dead today ! He saved my life, he took care of me. He did everything needed and possible for him to take me out of the depression YOU gave me and most importantly, he love me more than his life !

And just like you, he could also never become a father. As he loves me and I love him back the same and can't leave him; he is as good as the father of my child !

If, you agree to this then, I'll let my child call you father; otherwise Ethan too is it's father, so it'll never lack of a father ! Now, the ball is in your court ! "

I said shrugging.

" You've already made all the decisions and making it look like I have a choice ? It's not fair, Amber ! "

Kevin said accusing me.

" You wanna know what's not fair ? Killing the people I loved, infront of my eyes was not fair. Instead of accepting your mistake, telling me you did it for MY love was not fair.

And instead of making amendments for your mistake, turning your emotions off along with your back on me, WAS NOT FAIR ! "

I screamed my lungs out.

" I...

I am sorry for what I have done in the past love but stop repeating it and make me feel a pathetic looser; I beg of you ! "

Kevin said placing his hands on his ears.

" Shouldn't you have done this before ? "

I said.

" I was...

I was so hurt to hear your words and I...

I felt you weren't going to forgive me for what I have done and so... "

" You ran away ? "

I said.

" I WAS mad at you for what you had done ! How could you expect me to forgive you just then and there ?

You should have stayed and try to apologize to me for what have you done; didn't this thought crossed your mind for once before you decided to push me away for what have YOU done ? "

I said accusing him.

" Punish me however you want to but please stop repeating it and make me die of guilt ! Please... forgive me, love. Forgive me ! "

Kevin said crying.

His words reminded me of mine when, Ethan was confronting me and was making me confess my sins to him and I wanted to die instead of confessing. So, I stopped accusing him.

" Consider my conditions as your punishment then ! But still, not choosing to accept my conditions is also open for you, remember that.

I won't force you to accept it for me to forgive you ! And anyways, it's been months now I have already forgave you ! "

I said pretending not to give a fuck about his condition.

He was crying so much. Whatever he had done, I've loved him more than anything once, I can't see him cry like a little baby whoes toy somebody stole !

I slowly reached my hand and cupped his face and kissed his forehead. He put his hands on mine and pulled them to his lips to kiss them.

" I'll take whatever punishment you'll give me, love; just don't take my baby away from me ! You very well know, I could give up anything to become a father.

And now that the impossible is happening, don't take it away from me, love. I...

I beg you... "

He joined his hands for begging me.

I couldn't see him this helpless. I grabbed his hands and pulled him into a passionate kiss. He wrapped his hands around me and crushed me hard onto him.

He was still crying while kissing me.

He was kneeling between my legs and when, we broke the kiss, I didn't let him go. I wrapped my arms around him and pulled him on my chest and caressed his back.

He was still crying and sniffing.

" Stop crying baby, I said I forgave you ! I am not mad at you anymore. "

I wispered softly.

" I know. But...

I am feeling everything now what I had felt when, I turned them off !

I stopped it from feeling then, so I am feeling all of it now, more intense !

I am so embarrassed for what I have done, love. I am extremely sorry. "

Kevin said crying.

" Shhh. Stop crying. It's ok. What's done is done we can't change it now. I forgave you and I still love you; to be honest, I have never stopped loving you !

But this doesn't mean my love for Ethan have faded or I'll leave him or I have let my conditions go ! All that still stands !

I can't betray Ethan; the person I love and because of whom I am alive ! "

I said making it clear to him.

" I understand, love. I won't ask you to stop loving him. He too deserves happiness. I accept all your conditions !

I got to love you and live with you and now have my baby and live with it, that's more than enough for me ! "

He said.

He let his arms go around me and kissed me in the same passionate way, which made my knees go lump.

I couldn't help it and went with the flow and he made love to me, just the way I love ! Slowly, passionately, nibbling me and with eye contact.

I started crying and he let me. I remembered all the good time we spent together and all the funny moments and sweet moments we shared in the past.

I couldn't control my tears. He kissed me and I was still crying and sniffing. He caressed my head while slowly making love to me.