Unknown truth

Her words ignited the fire within me which I had kept down all this time. Is she trying to say father did a favor to her my accepting us ?

And she was so helpless and couldn't live without his acceptance that, she overlooked what I had went through ?

And it wasn't some other person, it was her husband !

Did she loved her husband so much that, she couldn't take stand for me ? And if, she loved him that much, why did she slept with other man and had me to face all the torcher ?

I literally had experienced hell without being there !

She can't justify that thing by bullshiting about torn between being a mother and a wife !

" And what about him ? Did he missed any single opportunity to insult me ? To call me a bastard; even if, he used it as a curse word ?

He could have called me anything if, he was mad at me for not carrying out the work he asked me to.

But he never called me anything but bastard ! Reminding me who was I, at each step and each day ! "

I said remembering the old times when, each day I had to fight back the urge to kill father for putting me through that fucking every single day !

" I know he was mean to you. And he wasn't mean to only you my child, he had hurt me each single day after accepting me back.

I had sweard him on Ethan that, he won't insult me or hurt me infront you guys so that, you won't hate him !

So, he used to hurt me and curse me for sleeping with another man whenever we were alone ! "

Mother said crying.

" What ? Father hurted you ? Why didn't you ever told me anything about it ? "

Ethan asked getting mad at our dead father.

" He hurted you because of ME ? "

I wispered shocked with shaky voice and feeling guilty for misunderstanding mother for so long.

I was crying and so was Ethan; without tears !

" Why didn't you divorced him if, he hurted you that much ? Why did you had to endure whatever he did ? "

I said with rage.

Firstly he insulted me by calling a bastard every single chance he got and now I discovered that, he not only hurted me but also my mother who loved me !

He was being bad towards her because of me and it wasn't even my fault in the first place !

It's driving me nuts ! He blamed me for everything when, I had nothing to do with it !

I didn't asked my parents to bring me to this world nor had I asked him to do favor to me by letting me live under his roof and give me his name !

" My dear, we are talking about ages ago !

' Wife divorcing her husband '

was not even a conceptat all beck then ! And plus if, there was a divorced woman, she was treated as the common wife of the town !

We are talking about that age ! A woman divorcing her husband because he ill treats her is a very recent concept; considering of what age we belong ! "

Mother said explaining her situation.

" Oh my god ! "

Amber gasped in horror.

" Now tell me how could have I done that to myself ? "

Mother said caressing her arm.

" But you were a WITCH ! You were powerful. You knew magic. You could have done anything you wanted ! "

Ethan said.

" But it still wouldn't have earned me the respect I needed to survive. I didn't rebelled against my husband because whatever he did, he did in a close room and never infront of anyone !

And I accepted it as my punishment for cheating on him ! "

Mother said embarrassed.

" But then if, he had this much of a problem with you cheating on him and having me; why didn't HE divorced you ?

A man leaving his wife was a common practice then as well !

Why did he had to burn his blood by watching us everyday ? Why didn't he cut off his suffering ? Why did he chose to watch us everyday when, only thing he wanted to do was to get rid of us ? "

I asked her with rage.

I was full of anger till date and never got a chance to get it all out neither I had the guts to ask her questions.

And even if, I had, I was mad at her for letting me face all of it without saying anything to father.

And I am glad this all is coming out.

But I am afraid I mustn't scare the tiny little thing in my arms and make my impression on her as a psyco father who have anger issues and can hurt her anytime !

I'll be doomed if, she'll think of me that way !

She is looking at me and I know my eyes change color when, I get mad. And I don't want her to be scared of me even for a bit.

And she is way too young to know all these traumatizing things happened with her father and grandmother.

She shouldn't even know such terrible people once existed !

" Steve come get her and take her far away from home where, she won't be able to listen to us; especially ME ! "

I called him.

I am such a fool ! Why didn't I called him earlier ?

He came and was trying to take her from my arms but she clung onto me. I kissed cheeks and caressed her head.

" Sweetheart, we need to talk about few things. You are too young to know them. And it's not good for you.

Go with your uncle Steve, he will take you to some park or anywhere you'd like. Be a good girl and listen to dad. "

I said and she let her grip loose on me but didn't let go.

She was looking at my tears; concerned. I wiped them off.

" See, Dad isn't crying anymore and I promise I won't cry ever again. I am alright baby. "

She kissed my cheek and went with Steve.

" Should have done that earlier ! See, that's why I am asking you to help me raise her. "

Amber said to mother as, nobody was saying anything.

But I needed my answers !

That's the only reason I sent her with Steve and not because she was heavy and my arms were aching !

" So, why didn't HE gave you the divorce ? "

I said coming back to point.

Mother scoffed.

" He was a MAN, you know !

If, he had divorced me for I had an extramarital affair even when, I was married to him; his social status would have stained that, he couldn't satisfy me and that's why, I felt the need to sleep in another man's bed !

People would have laughed at him and teased him for not being a man and being unable to satisfy his wife so that, she would have stayed loyal to him ! "

She said shaking her head at the stupid thought.

" How the hell is the sexual satisfaction only reason to seek attention from someone else ? There are many other reasons to cheat on your partner !

For example an abusive partner, not interested partner, the one who doesn't understand the other and many more !

What is this way of presuming things ? "

I said with disbelief.

That was just some stupid ass thing !

" Again I will say, we are talking about a completely different age, my dear.

That age was completely male dominant and there was no such thing as women having any opinions ! "

Mother said sadly.