UNSAID WORDS

DAMON'S POV

The trackers left early this morning to find the hideout of the vampires. I only sent out the best of the best of our men so with their werewolf speed, they should be back with news by nightfall.

I hit Morgana yesterday, and I couldn't get any rest last night because I kept getting attacked by this thing we call a conscience. Every time I look at her, I'm consumed and overwhelmed with guilt.

I didn't even realize how hard I hit her out of anger. Her right cheek is swollen and she has an awful bruise on her lip. Due to her pale skin, the spot where I hit her has turned purple.

I can't even bring myself to look at her. Once upon a time, I wouldn't have given a shit about this. The care I feel towards her is presently the most annoying thing about my life. Not even the vampires are annoying me this much.

I guess it's because I know I can destroy them in the blink of an eye with my serum. But it's different with Morgana. I don't want to destroy her. If anything, I want to keep her around me. I've grown fond of her.

I hate to admit it but I'm going to be honest with myself and accept that she's changing me. When she reminded me about the war and how the werewolves and humans could have lived together peacefully, I got annoyed. Because she was right and like it or not, the truth hurts.

When I cut off vampire Lord's head that day, the other vampires became hopeless. I had the opportunity to end them all then and there but I chose not to. I wanted them to live in fear of me, I wanted them to remember that they had lost.

And I took the humans and vampires as slaves to make more serum, to continue being the most powerful.

Part of me wants to apologize to her but we all know my ego will never let me do that. Besides, my apology will not make her hate me any less.

There's no way to bring back the past. I can't change what I did so I'll just have to live with it. I'll have to live with the fact that I'm the most hated man in the world right now. I'll have to live with Morgana's hate.

She woke up this morning and greeted me as usual, carrying out her normal morning duties. After she was done, she hid herself away in her cage. She didn't make eye contact with me once today and that kind of hurt my feelings.

It's ironic because I'm the one who told her to never look me in the eyes but now, I miss the blue of her eyes. I miss the ambitious and dangerous look she offers me.

I sit at my desk, watching her in her cage. She's laying in her bed on her side, her face out of view. She suddenly gets up and out of her cage. She walks slowly towards the window. Her body probably still hurts from the impact of my slap yesterday.

I can't look at her without feeling guilty, so I look away, focusing on the papers on my desk instead.

After a few minutes I slightly lift my head to steal one more glance. She loves looking at my garden from the window. She isn't allowed to leave my room today which is why she isn't out there right now. My garden has become her favorite place to hang out.

I want to make her feel better in some way. I stand up from my desk and walk slowly and cautiously towards her. I'm probably the last person she wants to be around right now but I have to make it up to her.

"Do you want to go outside?" I ask, startling her. She turns around quickly and bows her head. Her gestures are annoying. I don't want her to bow. I want her to look at me.

"No master." She simply answers.

"Look at me." I order and she hesitates for a few seconds before meeting my eyes. Her eyes are usually filled with some kind of emotion. Hatred, frustration, sadness but right now there's nothing. I can't see any emotion in her eyes.

The bruise on her face looks even worse now that I'm this close to her. I exhale, mentally scolding myself for slapping her.

"We're going outside." I state and grab her hand leading her towards the door. She doesn't retaliate, she follows me without resisting.

When we get to the garden, her shoulders become more relaxed. She said she didn't want to go outside but I know she needs this. She always seems more relaxed whenever she visits the garden.

We both sit in silence together. She would be more relaxed if I left, but I don't want to. As I'm about to say something to her one of my personal guards runs in.

"They're back Master." He says quickly with a bow.

"I'll be there shortly." I state, dismissing him. Finally, my trackers are back with good news I hope.

I want to apologize to her, for hitting her. I just don't know how to. I don't even think it's appropriate for a master to apologize to their pet. But I can't handle this guilt. It's eating me up and it's not fun.

"You can stay here for a while longer but make sure you're back in my room by nightfall." I declare as I rise and walk away, leaving her alone with her thoughts. Maybe her eyes won't be so empty after she spends time alone in the garden.

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"So? What did you find out?" I ask the trackers in front of me. they all came back alive. I wasn't expecting that but it's good news anyways.

I thought the vampires would have hidden close by, to kill anyone who came looking for them, but I guess the immediately fled to their hideout. Meaning they were sure we wouldn't be able to find them.

One of the trackers holds out a ring that I recognize all too well. It's the ring I gave Reece. "We found this in an abandoned cave Master. It's all we could find. We suspect they were staying there but left immediately after the invasion."

"Doesn't that belong to Reece?" Colton asks from beside me.

"It does." I answer simply. I grab the ring from the man's hand and shove it aggressively into my coat trying to stay calm. I really hope he isn't dead.

"The vampires wouldn't be careless enough to leave behind evidence. Maybe Reece dropped his ring on purpose because he knew you would come for him. Maybe he's still alive." Ryder says trying to reassure me.

He's right. If the vampires are trying to hide from us, they wouldn't leave a trail behind. Reece might still be alive and he might have left his ring behind as a clue. I really hope that's the case.

"Leave us." I command the trackers and they leave my brothers and I alone.

"This is bad. If they changed hideouts, it will be even more difficult to find them." Colton says.

"Maybe we should just wait it out, See if they attack first." Ryder suggests.

"And have them grow stronger. Don't forget they still have our humans brothers. They have blood now. And they have Reece, they might make him talk and reveal our secret about the serum. We have to find them as soon as possible." Colton declares.

"Colton's right. The longer we don't know where they are, the stronger they become. We can't stop looking. We'll send out the trackers again tomorrow and this time, I'm going with them." I state.

"I'm going with you." Colton announces eagerly.

"Me too." Ryder says.

"You can't. In my absence, I would need the two of you to take care of things here. We can't leave the castle unprotected. My decision is final." I declare.

"You need backup. What if you encounter the vampire lord?" Colton questions.

"I won't." I declare confidently.

"How do you know that?" Ryder asks.

"I have a feeling he's still weak since he might still be healing. That's why they had to run, to change hideouts. He's not ready to show himself yet." I state.

"I'll be fine brothers. I trust you two will take care of the castle in my absence. That'll be all." I say leaving the room.

When I get to my chambers, I notice Morgana is already asleep. I wanted to inform her I will be leaving tomorrow. I guess I'll just have to leave without saying goodbye.