HATEFUL THOUGHTS

MORGANA'S POV

"Ryder will look after you for as long as I'm gone. You'll be safe with him." He tells me in attempt to console me. His eyes are soft in a way I'm not used to. It almost looks like he doesn't want to leave.

Personally, I don't want him to leave either. Not because I enjoy his company but because I think I can be safe with him. He's been here with me ever since Colton beat me up, making sure I'm safe and comfortable.

I have no idea why he's being so kind though. I know he doesn't care about me and nothing is going to convince me otherwise. He must have an ulterior motive.

But if his presence will keep me safe, then I might be selfish but I want him to stay with me. So, I put away my shame away and ask him an unbelievable request.

"Please don't go." I say looking at him with soft eyes. His eyes soften a bit as he stares at me.

"I don't feel safe around anyone else." I state trying to feed his ego. If I have to sweet talk him to get what I want then so be it.

"Does that mean you feel safe around me?" He asks me expectantly. There's a vulnerable look in his eyes. Is he really going to stay and not go look for his brother just because I asked him to?

I don't answer his question. I simply stare at him and let him come up with an answer himself. He stands and paces the room in contemplation. Another reason I don't want him to go to Colton is because I want the vampires to find him all alone. I want them to capture him. If Ryder and Damon are there to back him up, he might come out alive.

In case the vampires get to Colton and capture him, then the Alpha will know what it feels like to have someone you love taken away from you. The vampires are monsters of the dark and it's late already. They have enough time to capture Colton tonight.

"I suppose Colton can take care of himself for a while longer. Ryder will go to him tomorrow." He comes to a decision finally. I let out a satisfied sigh. Ryder will only leave when the sun is out. If the vampires are as determined to get revenge as I suspect, then Colton will be dead meat before Ryder gets to him tomorrow.

Damon offers me a small smile and walks out of the room. I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding in. My healing has been really slow and it's pissing me off in the worst ways.

I have to stay in bed because I hurt all over. I feel vulnerable. If someone came in here in the Alpha's absence to hurt me, I would not be able to defend myself. It's pathetic. I hope my wounds heal fast so I can find a way to get the hell out of here.

I've had a lot of time to think since the vampires attacked. The werewolves have a secret, that we all know. And I think I finally figured it out.

The werewolves have vampires here as slaves. Tons of them but nobody ever sees even half of the vampires he captured from the war. Maybe people think the alpha is just holding them captive and making their lives miserable.

But if you really hate something, then you get rid of it. The only thing that would make a person stay around something the hate is if they were benefiting from it somehow.

That is exactly how I came to the conclusion that the werewolves, the alpha, beta and gamma used vampires to make themselves stronger. They must have carried out some kind of sick experiment and mutated their genes.

I guess the results weren't constant. Why else keep the vampires here? They need the vampires and vampires need humans to survive, hence they keep us all as slaves.

It all makes sense now that I put it together. That is the alpha's secret. And now, the vampires know it too. This only means there is a terrible war coming and I need to be as far away from this castle as I can when it happens. I hope I will be completely healed when the war finally comes.

I can't get stuck in the middle of a wat between vampires and werewolves. Or maybe I'll use the war as an opportunity to escape. I'll go towards the forbidden forests and seek refuge with the witches.

My head hurts as I think of all the things that could go wrong if a war suddenly breaks out. If I had to pick a side, I would choose the werewolves. I'd rather be a slave to them than have a blood sucker sink it's teeth into my neck.

I hope they all die in their stupid war. I hope they cut each other's heads off and disappear from this world for good. The humans have suffered so much already. I'm so tired and my heart hurts every time I think of it.

I want all of this to come to and end. I want to be free to walk on the earth I was created in without fear. I should be feeling the sun on my skin. I should be running around in a field of grass.

I should be happy. All this thinking makes me think of my parents and a tear breaks free. I start sobbing uncontrollably as I remember how much I've suffered at the hands of the vampires and the werewolves.

From being used as a blood bank to being beaten almost to death. Watching my parents get murdered right in front of me. It's not fair. It all hurts so much and I want justice.

I want all those who have wronged me to pay. The Alpha has been putting up an act, or maybe it isn't an act. Maybe he really has changed and is trying to make amends for his actions. But the wounds and scars he left on me and all the humans he has here is not something that can just go away.

He cut a wound too deep and it doesn't matter whether or not he has changed. I don't care if he wants redemption or not. He did what he did and ruined lives and that will never change.

His entire family and the vampires deserve the same fate. Death.