Chapter 54 - A Step Forward

“Why does it feel different?” I ask, sitting on the couch. The psychiatrist sits across from me as the rains outside. “When I imagined a proposal from Drayce, I am always certain that my feelings were joy and elation but it’s different with Jeremy.”

“You have mentioned before that you are actively trying to move on from your ex-lover right?”

“Yes, I am. My feelings for Jeremy have increased as well.”

“I think this is a process of grief.”

“Grief? It didn’t feel like it.”

“As I mentioned previously, you have been accustomed to distracting yourself to avoid confronting your true feelings. It can also show in terms of other aspects of your life. Right now, you’re still grieving the loss of Drayce. You never managed to do so before.”

“But…” I trailed, hugging a pillow from my lap. “Shouldn’t I be grieving over him?”