8th Chapter

Finnja

Most teenagers my age focus on lessons and prepare for each lesson. I, however, am Jessica's professional spy because of her crush Jannik. Most of the time I try to peer over at him as inconspicuously as possible. So in my observations so far, I already notice how dreamily he looks at her. Their love life is getting more and more complicated and Ariana has a lot of boy problems. She met Eren on Snapchat and talks about him every second. But she still doesn't want to tell us his name. I, on the other hand, am not in such a hurry. I don't need a relationship, nor do I want one right now. However, I could punch Leni in the face every time she talks about Lukas. She makes up stories every day in that he would have apparently looked at her and started smiling at her. I can't even describe this enormous anger I feel for her right now. She should stay away from him and not act like he feels something for her. Only the other day I thought about what would happen if he wasn't interested in me. After all, it probably is. Every time I try to convince myself that I don't like him, that jealousy pops up. But smiling somehow makes me happy. Because every time he starts smiling, I feel so liberated. Oh no idea how to describe this feeling. First I try to think clearly, because we haven't even had really blatant eye contact. Maybe I'm just imagining all of this and wasting my feelings on someone who isn't even worth it.

In any case, there is something else to report, because I did start texting with this Leandro guy. He immediately wanted my Snapchat, which I thought was really weird.... but I guess boys are just like that.

Despite that, I had a good feeling and I started to build more and more contact with him. He is very curious and asks everything without hesitation. I don't know yet if I should like this. He is 19 Italian and Swiss . He also sent me photos, yet topless. Do men in this day and age think that this is attractive? I pretend to be a 17 year old student and have even picked out fake pictures from Pinterest. If anything, it's really professional! But I was honestly a bit shocked when he even wanted something more than normal pictures of me. That's why I plan on telling Jessica the whole thing, so she can stand by me or whatever you can call it. I think that this guy is not so bad for me, because I also just have to distract myself because of Lukas.