Chapter 44

                ~  Author's POV~

They walked into Damon's house in silence. Lan stood behind Damon, since it seemed like he could walk on his own. He pulled the switch lightening the whole house.

Lan took his time admiring the house. It was plain. From the looks of it, you could tell that he just moved in. Their was no photos, just a black couch in the living room and a table.

"Would you like anything?"

Damon's voiced standing closely behind him.

Lan was startled when he heard his voice so close.

"Just water" He replied meekly.

Damon hummed and walked towards the kitchen.

"Does he live here alone?" Lan asked himself as he observed the house.

It was quiet and didn't feel like a home to him.

"Here" Damon returned handing the glass of water to him.

Lan took the water. He felt nervous in his presence as he stood awkwardly with the water in his hand.

"You can just leave if I make you that uncomfortable" Damon snapped. He sat down on the couch.

Lan's eyes connected to him in surprise at his rude tone.

"I-I never said that!" He rebuked.

Damon chuckled "You don't need to. You body language says it all" he replied.

Lan couldn't argue with that. He knew he was nervous their was no hidding that fact. It's just that being in a closed space with him does more to him than he could understand. The air would always feel so little.

He drank the water and dropped the glass down on the table and sat beside him.

"So why did you call me? What's wrong?" He asked.

Damon chuckled and faced him "Why did you come? I wasn't expecting you to come" He said.

"Why are you being so rude! You called me and here I am and this is how you treat me!!" Lan glared at him offended.

"And how am I treating you?" Damon asked watching his expression.

"Bad. Like I'm in desperate need for your attention when I am not!" He explained.

Damon scoffed running his fingers through his hair. His eyes shut for a while as he tried to contain his anger.

He wasn't angry at Lan but at himself. He felt frustrated and pissed off. He is supposed to calm down but he just can't. The fire in him was raging.

Killing that imbecile is supposed to make him feel happy but no he is still mad. And now his mom is living on borrowed air with a deadline.

"Are you okay?" Lan asked softly as he saw how frustrated he looked.

Damon didn't answer but ignored him. He doesn't want to be a douchebag but he fears that's all he can be at this point if he opens his mouth.

He still doesn't know why he called him in the first place.

"Damon? Did someone hurt you perhaps?" Lan asked threading carefully. He touched his hand moving closer.

Damon's laughter boomed in the house as he opened his eyes.

He stared at him, a dark look in his eyes.

"I hurt people Lan, not the other way around" He said sounding serious.

Lan didn't put much meaning into his words.

"Then what's wrong, Is it a family problem?" Lan asked cluelessly. He wants to help. Seeing him like this didn't make him feel good at all.

Damon stilled at that question. He leaned towards him and held his chin tilting his head backwards.

"And what would you do if it was?" His voice had gone an octave low as he glared at him.

Lan felt like something was stuck in his throat.

"I-if I can I'd like to help" he replied softly.

Damon's gripped his chin harder staring into his eyes.

The genuinuity he saw in his eyes angered him.

He hates it when people say they'd help him. They know nothing! Absolutely nothing! No one can help him, no one!

He leaned in watching him more carefully.

"You should be scared of me" He said.

"Why?" Lan asked.

"Because I'm dangerous" he replied trying to send fear down lan's spine.

"I'm more scared of failing my AP chemistry" Lan chuckled despite being scared deep within him.

Damon stared at him weirdly. He sighed and pulled away.

"I'm sorry I called you. You can leave"

Lan was confused by his constant change in behaviour.

"I won't" he whispered looking down at his hands on his lap.

"What did you say?" Damon asked a threat in his voice.

"Where---where do you expect me to go this late? " He mumbled.

Damon sighed.

"Lan you shouldn't be near me at this point. I don't even know why I called you" Damon sighed in frustration.

"You called me because you needed me...." Lan replied with thinking.

Damon stared at him in shock before Lan realized what he had said.

"I-I mean because you needed a friend to talk to. You'd feel better I--"

"I don't need anyone to talk to what I need is something to channel this fire and anger brewing inside me!" Damon snapped cutting him off.

"What? What do you need?" Lan inquired.

' If it's something I can get or make even though I'm terrible at cooking I'd try. He creeps me out at this point ' he thought.

"Sex" Damon whispered out.

His lips pulled up when he saw the look on Lan's face.

Lan shuddered. His ears felt like it just sinned just by hearing that. His face was so hot like it'd fall off out of embarrassment.

"W-what are.....Are you saying that sex will solve your problem?" He stuttered clearing his throat.

Damon sighed at another failed attempt to get him to leave.

'Is this boy normal? If it was some other person they'd get scared and leave! But he just doesn't get the point!' he thought.

"I'm not saying sex will solve any of my problem but it sure would calm me the hell down!"

"O-oh..." Lan said pulling his nails nervously. He was speechless and uncomfortable with how vulgar Damon was.

' It's definitely the alcohol' he mused in his head.

A thought came to Damon's mind. His lips stretched into a smile.

"In fact, you said you want to help me right?" He asked staring at him.

Lan looked into his eyes and bubbed his head innocently.

' Maybe this is what I need. Something to help me channel this anger and fire in me ' Damon thought.

He held his chin again more lightly this time and watched his face.

His face came closer. Lan held his breathe his heart beating fast in his chest.

"What I need is something to make me forget it all. Something different. Something you can give me...." He said, leaving his words hanging.

He wasn't sure whether it's the alcohol making him say all this but whatever it was, he is not going back. If he can't drink to forget then he will forget someother way. He thought to himself.

"...Will you sleep with me?"

Lan sighed in relief when he heard that.

'For a second I thought--'

"On your bed?" He asked trying to make sure he wanted him to sleep beside him. Maybe he just needed company. He thought.

Damon grinned"Would you like to do it on the counter then? I can make it happen if that's what you want" He mused.

Lan's ears reddened. He looked like an over riped fruit.

"W-what are you saying? I thought---"

"Maybe I didn't say it well then cause you seem to misunderstand me. Lan I asked you let me fuck you"  Damon explained a teasing smile on his lips

It felt like the ground should open up and swallow him. Lan's eyes widened in shock and embarrassment. His cheeks tinted red with his ears.

He pushed Damon away standing up in surprise.

"W-what a-are you saying? I-I thought you weren't into boys, then w-wh--"

"Oh I'm not but you see it's just for a night, and I need it right now. So it won't matter who I do it with" Damon shrugged crossing his leg.

"I-I don't want to do anything with you" Lan replied crossing his arm.

"Exactly! So don't say you can help me. Because that's the only thing that can calm me down right now."

Lan gulped at the weight of his words.

He should be leaving after he heard such vile words from his mouth but his feet felt rooted to the floor.

His mind was already creating scenerios .

If it was someone else he was sure he'd be running away by now. Maybe--that's it. It's because it was Damon... because deep down he wants---Damon??

His eyes widened at the realization that he desires Damon. His eyes snapped to Damon who was observing him.

Fright danced in lan's eyes. This can't be the case, he doesn't desire Damon! He thought.

"So....Will you please me Lan and 'help' me?" Damon teased. His dark eyes roaming over his figure.

Lan's eyes watered as his heart beat escalated.

I don't desire Damon! He rebuked.

'Then why aren't you leaving?'His mind questioned him.

A tear dropped from his eyes startling Damon.

'I don't desire him and I will prove it! If sleeping with him will calm him down then I will do it but then it'd just be causal sex no feelings attached. I won't feel anything!!' he thought to himself.

"Are you okay?" Damon asked concerned.

"I'll do it" Lan replied.

Damon raised a confused brow.

"Do what?"

"I will sleep with you." Lan said a firm resolve on his face.

He will prove it, maybe not to anyone but to himself that he doesn't desire Damon!

"Y-you...." Damon stared at him lose for words.

He wasn't expecting him to agree just like that. He doesn't even know why he said that to him in the first place. At first it was to tease him but now that he agreed, his pulse quickened.

"Do you want this or not?" Lan asked.

Damon sighed. He is presenting himself to him like a lamb. Why should he refuse? This is his only chance to calm the fire raging in him.

His face changed as his eyes darkened. It felt like a dark shadow loomed over him. His lips tugged up.

"You should have told me how much you wanted me earlier. I would been between your legs long ago" He said smirking.

Lan's eyes widened  He forced his eyes else where trying to hide his embarrassment.

"Come here...."