The struggle is not only about Angel chasing someone, but her struggle also involves her life not going as normal in the future like other people, the friendships she has to maintain, her mother and the closest people she hopes to always be near. Angel becomes very fragile when she finds out the truth that is hidden by her best friend.

If tears always fall in the hallway of silence, then there is a sentence that she always uses as a companion to cover her disappointment.

"Whatever it is, only I know what I'm doing."

Can we? (New version)

The drops of water that came from the sky touched the earth quite hard. The emptiness that engulfs me in various problems seems to be holding me in front of the cross while staring blankly. Today, I came to church with mixed feelings, not between joy and sadness, but emptiness, confusion and pain. 


Everything feels chaotic, there is no place for me to go but this place. Being here alone staring at the cross in front of me makes me feel free. I can pour out my sadness through my mouth and the tears that spill. Until now I still have not found the answer to all my worries. 


I know, God is good, his child who cries a lot because the world is quite loud doesn't mean he doesn't know anything. I guess, it's not that God doesn't know that I'm holding many problems, it's just that God knows that I'm one of His strong servants. 


Chapter 030