Time like this

Life is not as simple as butterflies and flowers

sometimes it torn and shear you

until you shred water and feel hopeless

hide inside an abandoned well

to not feel world's cruelty

but hiding, makes your mind heavy

now everything is not it used to be

I learned to be lonely and addicted to sadness

now pain in my medication

feelin that it is what it is

I maybe deserve this sense of lost

sense of damage

I even miss the feeling of being cared

being loved

My smiles are burned deep inside

its hard to get them back

now even smile have sentiments

part of growing up?

Is feeling this... It really suck

I wanna be free

runaway

somewhere

I wanna find me

love me

accept me

live

choose me

and protect me