Qin Feng Talked

Su Li

"Sorry, I shouldn't have said that." I apologize.

I don't know why I am being so rude in the first place. I am not like this.

Still, everytime I am with him I say something unlike me.

Maybe I am still not over the fact that he rejected my porridge. I was very angry at him for that.

I did not know about him before. I know now.

Is he like this, or has he made himself like this. As if he doesn't care.

"You didn't say anything wrong anyway." He replied.

Okay. You just want to make me feel more bad . Go ahead. You will act all high and mighty everytime, and when you should act like that you say something that would make you feel more guilty.

I want to ask where he got this talent from?

"I still have no right to tell you that. I won't like it if someone said something about me."

I would take my sorry back if he said something again. Instead he just nodded slightly, and did he just smiled a little?

I think I saw it.

Did I just happen to witness a miracle?

God, why made him handsome? He would have survived as a normal being too you know? It is hard to survive for people like us.

Thankfully, the atmosphere is not awkward anymore. I don't even know what it is.

"So do you like him?" I want to know what he thinks about the person his sister will marry. He rarely says anything, and he hasn't shared his opinion at all.

"Who?" He asks back.

"Lin ran." I clarified.

Even though they say they love each other, I feel the engagement is a little rushed. I haven't met this guy, so I don't know what he is like.

Even though I think that , who am I to butt my nose in someone else's business.

Still I want to know his opinion.

"I Don't think we are that close for me to tell you that ."

I secretly roll my eyes. Is he trying to pretend he is cold or something? I might not know him that much, but I know that if he wanted to end this topic he would have ignored my question.

He won't waste his precious words on me.

And he has spoken a full sentence in front of me.

Hmph. Still pretending that he is unaffected.

"We don't need to be close for that."

"So you don't like him that much." I say.

"I don't know." He says through gritted teeth like he doesn't want to answer me but he still does.

How cute. I am sure if someone heard me right now they would send me to get a check up for finding it cute.

I can understand. He is unsure of what to feel.

I thought the topic ended and he won't say anything now, but he surprised me by saying

"I don't think he is the right guy for her, but if he keeps her happy I don't have any problem with that." He said and I saw the anger in his eyes. He is helpless about the situation, he is angry at himself. He doesn't have to, and he would never tell me his feelings so I can't help much.

I want to tell him that he can talk to his sister regarding that , but that won't do any better.

It's already a big thing that he confessed it to me.

I don't know what to say at this moment so I say " You know you are a good brother. In fact you are great."

I know he is pleased with the compliment, but it will hurt his ego if he admitted that.

What a hypocrite.

"It won't cost you if you'll start acting like a normal human by talking more." I say.

I know I should not push my limits, but who am I kidding? I will always end up doing things I should not.

"Aren't you testing my patience now."

I am. Guess you noticed only now.

This time I rolled my eyes at him.

"I am not afraid of you." I state.

Few days ago I was indeed a little scared of myself, but now I am not.

I think even if he did something outrageous now, I won't be afraid of him. I don't know what happened or why I am thinking like this, but it's true.

"You should be though. " Even though he said that, I can feel that he did not mean it.

In Fact he is secretly happy about it.

I don't know why, but somehow I can always tell if the person really means it or not.

"Why do you do that?" He surprises me by asking a question, and my brain stops functioning, again.

I think at this rate I should just forget that I even have a brain which is supposed to function and tell me what's happening.

"Do what?" I ask back. It would have been fine if it was someone else but the person in front of me might take back his question if I didn't get it the first time.

"Event planning." He clarifies.

Woah. No one asked me that question, so I never prepared an answer. Guess I don't have any other option than to tell him the truth then.

"Maybe because the pay isn't bad. Initially I loved planning events like this because you are making someone's once in a lifetime moment memorable. Now most of the people do everything just for the sake of it."

I won't say that I am unsatisfied with my job, because I am not. I am living my life, even though sometimes it gets hard to handle some clients. The pay is still good.

And I would hate it to admit that but I am very comfortable in this lifestyle right now.

I don't have to care about anyone, and I don't have time to think about anything else.

Qin Feng has a confused expression on his face, and I can't help but laugh at that.

Even without him telling me , I know that he did not understand why something would be memorable.

So, I explained. "It's not about how beautiful the decorations are or how beautifully you are dressed but how much that occasion means to you. We just decorate with pretty things but with the meaning behind it it's like the cherry on the top."

I don't know what words came out of my mouth or what I explained but his expression became more confused like that could never happen.

I don't think my explanation was that bad, so I say, "Maybe one day you will understand it when you will experience it yourself."

"Maybe." He replied.

None of us said anything anymore, but the silence wasn't stifling.

He stopped in front of my home.

"You are not like what I thought." I said before getting out of the car. I thought his hard was cold too, maybe it is for everyone. But it isn't for his loved ones.

"You are also not like what I thought."

He whispered thinking that I didn't hear him. But my stupid brain worked perfectly in that moment and processed what he said within seconds.

I actually have an urge to know what he thought of me before, and what he thinks now.

I shook my head to throw this thought out of my mind and walked into the home.

He didn't start his car until I closed the door.

That was sweet of him.

Today has been the most unpredictable day of my life.

I understand Qin Bai's motive completely but I don't do relationships. I don't even remember the last time I dated a guy, maybe when I was in university? And Qin Feng would be the type of guy I avoid at all costs.

He is dangerous and I love my peaceful life very much.

He might be an innocent boy when he was young, but if he standing at this height and still shining. He must have paid a huge price to be there. Nothing is free in this world. I would not have been happy with my confined job otherwise.

It might just look like there are just some competitors and risks in business to common people, but it is more than that.

There is bloodshed, dirty schemes, and people can do anything to keep that little amount of money. They don't care about relationships or love, it's like they are blinded by money and power.

I would do my best to become his friend if he needed me one day, because I know what he has been through.

I can't do more than that.

It's to keep myself safe. I can't jump in a pit and hope that I will be fine.

I confirm the arrangements are done and the hall doesn't have any problem before washing up.

I was surprised when BaiBai said that she would want her engagement to happen somewhere else.

When I asked her she said it would be fine as long as it's not the Qin mansion.