Choi Y/N

{ Y/N POV }

One week later and I'm finally out of my house detention, I was most excited and nervous. Excited because Jin is coming back today after almost a year and nervous because I got to face my family after all that has happened, I have to look my best.

Oh, wait I have to look pitiful at least.

Holding my hair up in a messy bun, I applied a little blush to my face I'm not the makeup kind of girl so I always like to rock an all-natural look. Looking in the mirror I was satisfied with myself and then I made my way downstairs to meet the others for breakfast.

Walking into the dining room all the attention was shifted to me as they suddenly stopped their discussion, I stood still for a moment not knowing how to respond until I heard Jong-Dae's caring voice.

" Y/N you're here, come sit over here" he pointed to the chair next to him.

I'm no longer his princess he now calls me by my name.

I pouted while I walked over to sit by his side, I'm now very nervous as father hasn't said anything since I made my presence known.

" How is your face, does it still hurt?" I got really happy when I heard my father show concern for me even though he was the one that slapped me.

" It still stings and I wasn't able to chew properly for days because my teeth felt sore....Appa it hurts" I exaggerated looking pitiful.

"Really? Did you go through all that? Father why do you have to slap her that hard... See now her teeth hurts" Jun-Seo complained

" Jun-Seo are we supposed to go soft on her?  If she had died on the street wouldn't you blame yourself all your life?... I hit her so she could at least feel what to expect if our enemies had caught her" father retorted looking at everyone at the table.

Nobody said a thing and I know that father is right, maybe I would have been locked up in a dark room, starved, and beaten every day. That was a big risk and I feel goosebumps crawling up my skin thinking about it, standing from my seat I went to sit near father trying to act all cute and pitiful.

" Appa I'm sorry... I didn't know I would cause so much trouble.... I only wanted to go out and have fun like girls my age do, I was bored staying every day here in the mansion.. I-i- I promise I will be a good girl from now on" I looked pitifully at father and seeing the way he was staring at me I feel my heart throbbing in my heart, maybe he was still angry.

" Y/N stop acting cute, I'm still angry and still have not gotten over how I could have lost you.... Why did none of you possess your mother's personality? .... You all took after me, I'm being punished and now having to deal with all of your stubbornness"

I feel warm when I heard my father speak about my mother, he loves her so much and respects her. He even refused to remarry after her demise because he wanted to be fully able to take care of the three of us.

" I'm sorry all of you.... Can you all forgive me?" I pleaded.

"We all have forgiven your action princess but there's still one more punishment" Hansol reminded.

Say what now! Can't they just skip the punishment?

Glancing at Appa I was now pouting fully, I don't want to train my ass out again. I have been training since I was ten, can't I just be like every other girl?

When they saw how sad I now was father cleared his throat and I looked up at him wishing he will just change his mind and let me off my heart sank even more after hearing father.

" let's eat up kids, the food will get cold," he said as he starts putting some food on my plate. " here eat up his, you'll need it on your training with Hansol"

"Appa!!! It's not fair" I whined

" Talk about fairness Y/N, you had our hearts in our mouths for five good days and I think doubling your training it's good revenge from us too to make it equal fairness" Jong-Dae fuels back.

" I hate all of you" I mumbled.

" And we love you Choi Y/N," Jun-Seo said back.

There was laughter at the dining table, the nervousness and cold air were all gone and we ate happily. Although I'm not happy about the training aspect I'm happy Jin is going to be back today.

After breakfast, I sat in the lobby with a book in my hand while sipping a little from the juice served by a maid.

I love to read stories, especially books by my favorite author. During my stay out I secretly went to one of his book signing events he held and I got an autograph.

I have many of his autographs and I've been to many of his book signings but only with my brothers or one of them but it felt different when I went there all by myself without any security at all.

I was happy I finally got to do things myself without any help, I just want to feel that way again but who knows if I'll ever get an opportunity like that again.

Oh and that one time I went to the club even though I couldn't get in because I was scared but at least I was happy I was there and the feeling was so overwhelming.

Seeing people going in and out, couples kissing. Some guys get beat up because they hit on someone's woman.

How the atmosphere smelled like sweat and alcohol and how everyone was lively and free.

It must be a good thing being an adult, after I clocked 18 I wanted to explore most things that my mates do but I couldn't.

Most things weren't just allowed for me, to my family I'm still that little princess.

I have so many things on my first-time list I haven't even crossed them yet. Not even my first kiss.

At some point, I wanted to go on a secret date with a boy that had a crush on me but somehow my brothers found out and that was the end.

I don't know what they did but the boy never looked my way anymore. I was so angry I didn't talk to them for two days.

They are just so overprotective.

Now I'm 20 and I'm still stalked here. I sometimes wonder if I'll ever get to fall in love, get married, and have a family of my own or if I'm going to be married off to some cold man in exchange for power and money like I read in some books.

Stop thinking that way Y/N. Father can never do that.

I have goosebumps thinking about that and I don't ever want that to be my fate.

Thoughts like this are what drove me into running away before and they are coming back again.

I want a man who will have eyes for only me, a man that would love me with everything he has and would not hesitate to flaunt his love for me.

A man who is as handsome as my brothers and has a good heart too.

I wonder if that day will ever come.

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" Jin Oppa!!" I squirmed in joy as I rush to meet Jin, I jumped on him and hold him in a tight embrace while he swing me around like a kid.

" Hey, Oppa I'm getting dizzy! Haha" I laughed happily, he brought me down and then starts ruffling my hair with his other hand.

" Aigoo our little princess has gotten taller, you're almost the same height as me" He teased.

" Did I, I thought I'll never grow again.... Yaah how can I grow as tall as you, look you've gotten taller too did you add an extra 2 inches?" I asked holding his hand, standing still to take in his look.

He has gotten taller and more handsome, not to bluff but Jin is very good-looking.

He has changed his hair color to silver which falls to his face in waves, his perfectly created face with those plump full lips that girls always die for.

He's really tall and for someone of my height he towers over me and I have to stand on my toes whenever I want to reach his face or head.

He is the funniest and he loves to tell daddy's jokes a lot which always leaves us laughing in tears.

I've missed him and now he's back and I can't be happier.

I remember that one time he came to my college and all the girls suddenly started talking to me so they can get his number or maybe I can put in good words for them.

Shameless

I'm blessed with very good-looking men and I just can't complain.

Walking to meet the others Jin bows to my father and his mother, while a maid comes to take his luggage in.

" Hi boss, have you been well?" he asked my father.

" I've been well child, how were your stay and training?" father asked.

" It all went well boss, thank you" walking to his mother Jin hugged her tightly, Nana is so happy to be with her son after almost a year of being apart.

" Oh my dear child, you look thinner is that why you look taller? You told me you were eating well."

" I miss you eomma... I was well taken care of Eomma, I went on a diet because I was gaining more weight and I didn't want to get an earful from Y/N"

" Yaah!! When have I ever given you an earful for gaining extra pounds? Umm just say you got a new Noona who doesn't want you fat" I snapped at him.

Everyone was smiling at my remark but that only got Jin all flustered like a kid, my father stood up and left because he doesn't want to be in the midst of bickering kids.

" Y/N, do you have to say that when father is right here? This is why we don't say anything boy related to you because you don't know when to close up". Jun-Seo said coming to his friend's aid.

" true Y/N, you don't have to put our friend in a tight spot with father here" Hansol added, sitting next to Jong Dae.

I looked at all of them with warmth in my heart and eyes. I miss moments like this and having them all here with me only gave me more insight into how much I love my family. I've heard many stories of families growing apart as they get older and the thirst for power and succession.

But the things I admire in my family are the unity, oneness, and love they share, it's something most families don't possess.

I might not be very proud to come from a mafia home but I'm so happy to always have my family next to me.

Even though my stubbornness kicks in sometimes and I just want to be free.

" Haa, the two of you are unbelievable. When did I put Oppa in a tight spot?" Turning to Jong Dae and Nana. " you see that? This is why I don't want to be surrounded by only men, they are heartless! I wish you were all women and I'm your oldest brother. I would smack your asses every chance I get!" I was now all red.

Hearing muffled giggles from around the room and then there was Jong Dae trying so hard to suppress his giggle after seeing how my little face could burst from feigning anger.

He spread his arms on the couch wider crossing his legs and then with a straight face.

" well too bad for you it's the opposite. The Lord must have known and he decides to bless you instead with older brothers and then you the youngest of all".

He said without even looking me in the eyes because I sure was sending death glares his way.

And that's it I'm that princess who is loved by her brothers and also always ends up getting roasted by them, isn't that ironic?

I'm going to have my revenge on all of you someday, just watch.

Stomping my feet so hard on the vitrified tiles.

" Oppa! I thought you were going to take my side! I hate all of you... And Jin Oppa, you're not even saying anything. I thought you miss me".

I said pouting like a kid who was denied candy.

" Y/N Ah, I just got back and we're fighting already? I didn't do anything you know" Jin tried to bail out himself.

" I can't stand all of you and I'm not going to talk to any of you from now on".

" Oh princess you can't avoid talking to me, how do you intend us to train while playing deaf and dumb?" Hansol fueled the fire.

Say what now

" Ahhh I hate all of you!!!"

I shouted running upstairs to my room.

" And we love you too!!" I heard them shouting back laughing at my behavior.

Getting to my room I threw myself on the soft couch using the throw pillow to muffle my face.

I miss them but they sometimes get on my nerves.

Now I miss school and I would have to ask my father when I can go back to school.

I will create my fun. I just have to stop being rigid with people outside my household.

I know exactly what I'm going to do, get ready Choi Y/N you don't have to run away to have fun. Let's create it!