What the heart feels

Standing in front of the school's tall gate, Suzy breathes out nervously. It was going to be her first day in this school, she was transferred to this school by her adoptive parents, they only care about her school but cared less about every other thing that concerns her well-being.

She survived by using herself to make money, her parents do not care if she starve or wear rags. The only thing they do is send her to high-end schools to savor their reputation in society.

She was sent out of the house into the cold world to survive alone when she was barely eighteen.

Growing up she had thought they were her biological parents who just don't have the time for her because of their work. She was a subject of bullying by other kids, she never received any love even when she has a lot of love in her heart to give.

Her parents would always scold her to stop complaining whenever she told them how badly she was being treated, instead, they would transfer her to another school. They don't even ask or care how she survives right now, to them she should be grateful they took her in when she was dying in the streets.

They always remind her of the past and how indebted she should be to them. The trauma of how they broke the news of her being adopted, still lives in her.

How could she forget how she was thrown out into the streets after they blatantly told her she was adopted, she was so heartbroken she thought she was going to die.

The saddest part is she couldn't even remember her life before the adoption, no matter how hard she tried to. It just seems like it was permanently deleted from her memory. Aside from only hearing how she was picked up from dying on the streets, her adoptive parents never said anything else. Maybe because they don't know.

Her nervousness increased when she saw how other students are majorly being dropped off by their drivers or parents, some of them driving in by themselves. It was obvious she was the only person that got there by using the bus. She could not even afford a taxi.

Suzy watched as students keep trooping in without throwing her a single glance, she felt so small and invisible at that moment.

She grasped her backpack tightly and made her way into the school premises, she was surprised at how beautiful and organized everything was. No wonder her parents have sent her here so they can brag about it to their friends. She doubts if the so-called friends knew she was out in the streets suffering.

Maybe not

The school was so big she didn't know how to locate her faculty, and she was afraid of asking any of the students passing by because they might act rudely toward her. So she decided to check it out building by building even if it tires her out.

After roaming about for thirty minutes she found the building with her faculty's name on the signpost, by now she was all sweaty and tired from the walk.

Now in the corridor with students she was starting to get attention as most of the students started looking at her weirdly, while some were whispering to each other. This is one of many reasons she hates transferring schools, but she was left with no choice because it's either she goes or doesn't.

"ooh looks like we have a newbie join us today" Suzy looked to her side to see two girls coming towards her.

By the way, they were dressed extravagantly, she could tell the girls were rich kids. Well, she too could pass for a rich kid with the kind of wealth her parents have, but it won't be convincing enough with how she was dressed.

" Hi, I'm Lisa and this is my friend Hyori." the first girl who identified herself as Lisa introduced.

Suzy knows girls like them very well, they are the most popular and rude kids in the school. Their main targets are weaker students who they can feed on their integrity and self-esteem.

" Well sorry girls, it was nice introducing yourselves but I'm not interested in getting to know you" She cut off their wings before they could perch on her.

The two girls were shocked and embarrassed as what Suzy said earned murmurs from all the students around, they couldn't believe what just happened.

Hyori was most ashamed and angry when all eyes in the hall were mocking her, she was considered the Queen of the school.

She climbed her way up by bullying and shattering much self-esteem, she is the only daughter of a respected Assemblyman in the country.

She dragged Suzy back from walking away wanting to save her bruised ego, there was no way she was letting the loser win.

" hey, loser! Ain't you happy we spoke to you? Do you know who we are? I could make your life in this school a living hell" she breathed out through gritted teeth.

Suzy scoffed mockingly at her, how much shame does she have left? Unbelievable.

" Is that how you rule here? By making their lives a living hell?" Suzy said looking at the amazed students. " That simply means you're so old fashioned and looking at how you dressed, it does not fit in because we are in the modern age, 21st century for fuck's sake. You wanna make my life here a living hell? Then come on bitch bring it on!" she told her bluntly making sure to finish the last drop of their dignity in front of all the students.

She hates bullies and she hated it more to know that someone in college would even try to bully others, how uncivilized.

Hyori after hearing those venous words from Suzy was so dumbfounded her face was covered in shame, she looked at her beautiful and branded clothes and wondered what was wrong with them.

How could someone as weak looking as she is be so sharp-mouthed and confident?

Lisa looked away in shame, she couldn't bear all the gazes on them.

For the first time in history, someone stood up to them. Everyone in school fears them except for one person, but they don't worry about the other person much because she made herself invisible and she doesn't come in their way of ruling the school.

This newbie has just disgraced them in front of the whole faculty, she wished the ground would open up at that moment and swallowed them up.

She saw how Hyori was fuming in anger, they were both so lost for words. Wanting to save her face too she spoke up.

" You will pay for this loser!!!" she shouted stomping her feet on the floor.

Suzy did not want to waste her precious time with them any longer, so she showed them her middle finger and walked away, leaving them shouting shamelessly in frustration.

Serves them right

During the lunch break, the whole lunch room started bustling in whispers and gossip as Suzy walked in with her tray of food.

She made her way to an empty table and sat down, she could feel students pointing at her here and there while murmuring.

She carefully observed her surrounding before digging into her food, she just have to eat this and fill up her belly because her refrigerator at home was almost empty.

If that jerk Jae-Bong hadn't fucked her up, she would have had some money left.

The lunch room suddenly grew silent as she heard some footsteps enter. She glanced up to see it was Hyori and her crew but she didn't just have their time, she was enjoying her lunch.

They walked up to the table she was at and one of the girls rudely slams her hand on the table, with the way she behaved she was not at the hall earlier or knew what the situation was.

" How dare you sit where our Hyori eats her lunch? She said widening her round ugly eyes at Suzy.

Suzy looked around at the empty tables at the other corners then she slowly drank from her water bottle.

" There are about six empty tables over there, why not you and your Hyori go sit your asses over there?" she told her using her eyes to point at the tables.

Lisa stepped forward obviously angry but powerless, this newbie is constantly getting on their nerves and if time is not taken she will ruin their reputation in the school.

" Yah bitch, can't you see that this is a VIP table? Go sit where people of your status sit!" she rolled her eyes angrily.

" Sorry, you're going to make me lose appetite on my food and yours might get cold before you eat. So can you all step aside and let me enjoy this in peace?"

This was not how she envisioned her first day here, thanks to these bitches she was going to be labeled the new rebel of the college.

Ever since the incident of facing a death scare from a bully, she swore never to become the weaker one again. She was going to put every bully in their place.

Suzy ignored them while she continued eating, the ugly bitch that slammed her hand on the table earlier wanted to jack her by her hair but she was stopped by Hyori before she could lay hands on her hair.

Suzy was surprised Hyori did that but her attention was drawn when she saw the girl that entered. Everywhere became quiet, and Hyori and crew suddenly behaved.

The girl ignored everyone in the room and walked over to the table where Suzy was seated placing her tray of food on the table, she looked up at Hyori who couldn't meet her gaze. She tucked her hair behind her ear, showing off her breathtaking features.

" Is there a problem why you're standing here Hyori? Your food is going to get cold" Suzy heard her say to Hyori, which was surprising.

But she became more surprised after Hyori abruptly apologized and backed out without even throwing a fit as Suzy thought she would.

Suzy figured that if Hyori was the queen of this campus then whoever this girl was must be the Empress.

She closely looked at the girl who was now eating calmly, Suzy did not feel intimidated whatsoever towards her, she felt kind of warm being near her. She knew the girl wasn't anything like Hyori, if not Hyori would not be scared of her.

Something was off because the girl looked very familiar, she was thinking so hard to remember where they had met.

She was brought out of her trance when the girl cleared her throat.

" Are you crushing on me already? Sorry, I'm straight." Y/N said to her after seeing how she was staring at her.

It's funny how she was acting like a tiger before but now she was like a puppy.

Y/N secretly witnessed everything that was happening, she was glad that after years of tyranny, there was someone to finally put Hyori in her place, except herself of course.

She was happy her father approved of her going back to school after she asked, nobody even noticed she resumed until now because this newbie sitting near her had challenged the Queen of the campus.

Not like she used to get much attention before, she made herself almost invisible minding her own business. She does not even care what Hyori does in school as long as she doesn't cross her lane.

She had put Hyori in her place during the first semester of their first year, she was regarded as the Queen then but she warned them to stop seeing her that way.

Hyori seeing she was not interested in contending with her had used the opportunity to continue in her tyrant ways.

"Eehh? Ahh sorry I was staring too much, won't deny it but you're beautiful but you seemed familiar to me, have we met before?" Suzy asked still trying to remember her.

" No I don't think so, we are meeting for the first time. By the way, I'm Y/N, I should commend you for being so cool earlier" Y/N acknowledged her, putting some rice in her mouth.

" Okay if you say so. It's nothing, girls like them should be put in their right place which is the trash can. It's nice to meet you Y/N, I'm Suzy."

" Nice to meet you too Suzy, can we be friends so we can put more people like them in the trash cans?"

That made Suzy laugh and Y/N also laughed, everyone, looked in their direction shocked that Y/N just laughed with the newbie.

Y/N grinned silently, this was the beginning of her creating her fun and Suzy seemed like a good buddy to do that with. She was never interested in any friendship with anyone but after seeing Suzy, the girl exceeded her expectations and she intrigued her.

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"Can I ask you something Oppa?"

Y/N asked Jin as he pushed her slowly on the swing.

" mmmm"

" Have you ever been in love?"

The question took Jin by surprise, he didn't think she could ask something like that. She was now an adult and is likely to be curious about some things.

Jin somehow felt sorry for her, he know if they had given her more exposure to the outside world then she might have been dating someone by now.

She was not even allowed to date yet, the last boy that had a crush on her was almost killed by Junseo when they found out he had a crush on her.

Y/N might be innocent but Jin understands that she's not oblivious to many things.

" Well yes I have and I still am," Seokjin answered, steadying the swing from going higher.

" Really? Who is she? Why are you just telling me? I thought I was your best friend?!"

For some moment Y/N was excited to know and maybe Jin might just give her some clue on how to channel her feelings about  Kookie.

" Sorry I thought you knew" Jin teased, keeping a straight face.

" Oh my God Jin, how on earth would I know when you never once mentioned it," she asked tsking her tongue at him.

" Really I never mentioned her? Oh my bad. Well, she is the most beautiful and charismatic person I have ever known. She has beautiful half-moon eyes and sweet dimples on both her cheeks that should almost be illegal because she looks like an angel with them. Her lips look so perfect taking the shape of a heart, with long wavy dark hair. I'm sure you would love her when you see her." Jin described patting her hair gently.

That someone is you Y/N.

Y/N smiled happily when she heard Jin's potential love have almost similar features to hers, smiling to the fullest showing her dimples, she asked Jin if he has the girl's picture and he nodded.

" Why not? It would be an unforgivable crime if I don't." He said as he brought out his phone and opened up a picture then showed it to her.

Y/N was stunned for a bit and wondered why he was showing her own picture to her. She thought it was a mistake.

" This is me Oppa, come on show her already"

" That is her, the only girl I've ever loved as a little sister I never had"

" Ahhh Oppa!! I asked about your love and not me" she glared at him.

" Okay okay, if you mean that kind of love then I have never. Happy now?" Jin confessed to her.

It's not a big deal, he has never been in love. He doesn't have the time to fall in love, he only lusts after women he found appealing and nothing more.

" You've never? Not even once?"

" Yes, not ever"

" Mmmm"

Y/N nodded her head and she suddenly thought if her brothers have too.

" Do you think the other boys have?"

" No"

" Why"

" Because I would have known" Jin replied to her as he started to swing her again.

" Why don't you guys want to fall in love?" she asked again, getting more curious.

" It's not just worth it to us but that doesn't mean you should feel the same way, in the future we all want you to fall in love with a man who truly deserves you and then you would give us little chaps like you"

Y/N understood exactly what he meant and she immediately turned red, she shyly looked away and covered her face in her palms.

I just wish that comes true, would it be kookie? Ahh, what am I thinking?

She shut off the weird thought coming into her mind. She barely even know Kookie and she was having Unholy thoughts already.

" Oppa!! Why are you talking about kids out of nowhere? You are all older than me, why not do that first? I would love to have kids calling me aunts!" she quipped.

" Because we want to see our princess produce another princess? And don't even dream of becoming an aunt any time soon" Jin was enjoying the who conversation.

To him, he doesn't ever think there would be a man that can be perfect enough for Y/N in their eyes. No man can ever truly deserve her. Ever.

Y/N was feeling all giddy and sweet inside after hearing those things from Jin, but she knows it was not enough to open up her secret to him yet.

She just wants to continue asking and knowing what the men in her life think about the ideal man for her.

" What kind of man do you think would deserve me?"

" Maybe after having half of the 206 bones in his body broken and reset then we could consider him," Jin told her trying to be serious. He loves how he was teasing her.

" Ahhhh that's so mean, that means I'm going to die a single old woman!!" Y/N couldn't believe what he just said, she jumped down from the swing and playfully started to hit his arms.

For a moment she believed they could do that to the poor man that would fall in love with her someday.

Her mind drifted to Kookie, she don't want any harm done to him. He seemed so innocent and a gentleman too. If the two of them ever end up together then she will protect him from her mean brothers.