She just wanted her love…

She woke up crying and immediately sat up. After calming herself down she stared at the wall in deep thought. 'It isn't my fault… I just wanted sister to love me the way I love her… I guess I was the only one who thought that way…' she got up out of bed because she had to get ready. She had her therapy appointment that day. She got dressed and went to the living room and saw her mom. They conversed and then her mom left to run some errands. Then she was alone… with her thoughts. What was she doing here? She should be dead. Not here on earth but in hell. All these thoughts running through her head were making her overwhelmed. She sat on a chair and went to read. By the time her mom came back she had gotten herself together and smiled like there was nothing wrong.

Even though there was nothing going well at the moment, she couldn't let it show. When she went to her therapy office she acted normally and playful. That's how she was around people to protect herself. Today especially, she needed strong protection. So she acted as best she could. It worked, she fooled everyone… but this wasn't what she wanted. She wanted someone to notice and softly comfort her about it. That wasn't going to happen though. After the therapy appointment she had another meeting. It went well and her mood kind of came up. Then she went home, when she was finally alone she started crying. 'This isn't how it's supposed to go… it's Christmas time. It's supposed to be a happy time… so why, am I so sad?'

Later on in the day she got a call from that person investigating her sister. She answered and they conversed. She stuck to her story and gave the person the information they needed. Once that was done the person said that they had gotten all the information they needed from her and they would update her if anything happens. She said okay and the call ended. After that it was time to go to bed but she couldn't sleep. So she decided to talk with her cat. Now this may be a little weird but it works for her so don't judge. When she finally fell asleep she didn't have a nightmare nether a dream. She was glad, she needed a break. She woke up in the middle of the night and couldn't fall back asleep so she decided to draw something. (Did I mention she draws?) she drew a person and might I say it looked awesome!

She was getting sleepy and went to her bed and fell asleep. This time she had a dream but a very peaceful one. There were flowers and cats all over the place. They were so cute and there she was cuddling with every cat she could. This dream made her feel really at peace and she finally woke up and it was morning.