His Care

For the past few weeks I have been fighting with my anxiety and I have not seen Hanzon or hanoka over this week's which made me a bit relieve I have been avoiding the both of them what should I say to hanoka after walking on him naked with my friend what should I say it would be super awkward the embarrassment I don't think I could handle him not just yet I had seen his miss calls but I didn't want too answer them even though I saw him as just a friend he was funny nice haliours and very playful I still felt heartbroken but not So heart broken if he walk up too me now I would run like a lunatic I don't know how to face him were should I start my apologies but too say I wasn't at fault they just tramatized me yes I have heard the word sex countless times and have walk in some students having sex in the school bathroom but him been my friend the embarrassment of walking on someone naked especially my friend that I can't handle

the second person I have been avoiding is Hanzon I was pretty sure he would laugh on me and make fun of me he was a jerk and a pain in the ass his annoying group would surely make a fun of me I could face hanoka because I could keep it cool but not Hanzon with does annoying smirk of his I just don't want to face them both it would be super awkward in my heart I was already crying like a crazy chicken why why why !!!

we had self defense classes today since I couldn't miss class and could only go too class after class I kept my head down spying through my eyes to check if I would see them i was relieved when I didn't see anyone in the hall way I raise my Head up walking while thinking I had escape them today but luck wasn't on my side like it does the previous weeks I was suddenly pull out too a corner I literally wanted to scream but I was met with the furious face of hanoka

okay I should relax he was looking at me dead in the eye why the hell his the mother fucker angry I took in a deep breath and he actually count one too ten with his lips moving but he didn't say anything okay I took his hand off my hands he looks pain and hurt but I shouldn't feel guilty he look exhausted and he had black circles underneath his eyes okay I believe I am not the cause if he isn't getting enough sleep " Kelly it isn't what you think I can explain" he said and look down okay did I ask him for an explanation no what his your deal I am not your wife or girlfriend okay I should be more concrete and select my words " I believe I didn't ask you for an explanation" I said and he snapped at me " then why the hell are you ignoring my text and declining my calls explain yourself" he snapped at me I was a bit shock this isn't the hanoka I know what happened he look furious and angry but I didn't say anything to offend did I ?

I took a deep breath cause I didn't want him too know I was a bit shock through my voice

" well.... sorry if I did that I was busy with school work" I said

" school works " he scoffed " do you think am a fool " he shouted this time and I was so scared he was gonna hurt me but for sure I would defend myself even though he seem stronger

immediately he saw the fear in my eyes he turn away " you can leave now " he said turning away

oh my god this hanoka right now his so rude I was pissed how could he treat me like am a no body " I think you need a therapist Hanzon was right when he said you are a loser and a big loser at that " immediately I said that I wish I could take it back

I was a fool at that how could I say such an horrible thing I was cursing on myself when hanoka pull my neck and my right arm roughly against the hard wall causing me to wince in pain as I felt his long and Sharp finger pear into my skin the hot tears that almost ran through my eyes but I couldn't, I hold his arms against my neck choking me with angry " who were you with last night? Hanzon he told you I was a loser right?" he burn in raged " s.....st...stop I.....I...am..." he was choking me too bad that I had shortage of breathe

maybe this was gonna be my ends, the story of Kelly end here what would happen too my family especially my mom how will they cope I was suddenly released when someone lunch a punch on hanoka I was choking badly my throat hurts and my arms are all sore from his tight grip hanoka tired too defend himself from the other person who had by now beating his right eyes swollen I felt pity for him as I watch him been beaten.

I was the cause if I hadn't say that bad words too him maybe there would be no fight out break the person who had been beating the hell out of him turn too me and I could now see his face it was actually Hanzon I agree his a jerk but I owe my life too him without saying another word he carried me his arms Even though I wanted too protest that I could walk even though I was still hurting but he left no room for that he walk down the hallway pulling his hoodie too cover my buries and face till we got too the basement where no one was. he pull me down looking angry and caring at the same time he sat me down resting my back on his chest as he spoke " you could cry if you want crying help relieve your pain and shock I would wear the headset if you don't wanna me to listen to your tears " he said looking down my heart flutter as I smile even though I hurting but his care made me wonder if he had a thing for me of course not there are more beautiful girls how possibly he had a thing for me I shake my head telling him I was good he brought out the first aid kit and start applying and disinfecting the buries it burns I cired not because I was in enough pain but because he has seen my cry before and I felt comfortable crying in front of me I don't care if he sees me weak after crying but I needed to cry and he was like a comfort he patted my black gently while blewing air into my buries he was gentle and patience I hug him tight even though he didn't hugged me back but I felt we were both comfortable in each other arms my breathe slowly became normal and soft I slept off effortlessly I wake up the next day in my bed how I got too my room was a testimony too god but as soon as I woke up I was sent too the land of questions by Davis all I told them was I got into a fight with a crazy witch and she hurt me so bad clearly they didn't believe me but choose to not push me too far about it she believes I would tell her when am ready but she still care .

" you are such a fool Kelly what if he had rape you I was so worried do you feel any discomfort down there " she ask gesturing too my Virginia

" she would be greatful if he had touch her " Sonia said while on her phone.

" why do I think you are just too bitter Kelly you would have seen how he carried you yesterday he was so caring he was so gentle like he was carrying an immature baby that need the care of the world" Davis said and blush " Davis stop okay, he his a jerk and would always be " I said looking down at my bed when my eyes caught sight of the bandages on my wrist and neck he was really caring and patience with me I don't know if I can ever face him again cause I would be embarrassed to even look at him crying like a 3 years old baby.

as for hanoka I still don't wann too see him nor forgive not just yet at least not yet