Davis too late too apologize

just as everything changed so quickly that how we loose people so quickly.

who can even imagine I would some day come too the cemetery for Davis burial.

why Davis why did you do this too me ?

I couldn't help my tears as I remember that awful day

I had a very bad cramps but I still had too clean up the school garden I went back too my hostle tired I freshen up as soon as I came out my phone range I pick it up and too my surprised Davis brother was on the line.

" hello kiddo ... hello" but I heard a soft sob my heart beat faster as I taught something bad happened too him

" hey your girlfriend broke up with you ?" I ask thinking of what might cause him to cry this much

" no ..... I wanted too tell you that Davis is dead"

and then my whole world came rushing down at me

" what ....? " I collapse on the floor as I cired

" she committed suicide yesterday we found out this morning am so sorry"

" I ... don't be "

" am hanging up now "

" yeah take care okay"

he disconnected the call as I sat at the same position.

I can't still believe it Davis Dead

why did she committed suicide she had alot of therapy and medical doctor but that wasn't the case

I neglected her feeling I didn't know she was a sucidal I think am a bad friend.

here I am wearing all black as the priest say the prayers before they lay her too rest

" o God by whose mercy the faithful departed find rest, bless this grave, and send your holy angel to watch over it. As we bury here the body of our sister and daughter, deliver her soul from every bond of sin, that she may rejoice in you with your saints for ever. We ask this through Christ our Lord. R⁄ Amen."

after the prayer she was finally laid too rest I couldn't bear the sight but I put on a brave face after that one by one everyone drop flowers on her grave I had with me a yellow carnation which means friendship and gratitude and a pink rose which is a symbol of our friendship it was hard saying goodbye but I guess such is life.

just as I look at the grave just gazing at nothing else just gazing the rain began too fall I had too leave the cemetery as I walk too nowhere I was confused, sad I never thought I would witnessed this day never!!

if anyone told me I would ever lose Davis that sweet friend and a pure soul I won't believe

believe me or not the military has an hand in Davis death why aren't they justifying the case why are there no justice!!

I cried even harder as the rain pour heavily on me my black pant and shirt were drained with water I didn't care if I was gonna caught a cold I just don't care

it painful so painful and I can't take this any longer the military is no safe place.

I walk effortlessly along the road having no ideas where I was going to but I knew I was no where closed too the cemetery my leg hurts but I didn't care about my legs.

just as I walk more and more like a lost gost a flash car came behind me he seem the driver was calling out too me but I didn't pay attention just walking when Hanzon suddenly came out standing in my front I look at him straight in the eyes but there was nothing just an empty soul

he suddenly pull me into his warm embrace this what I needed at this moment but my emptyness is more than my needs.

" let ...l...me ...go " I said in between my sob but he involuntary carried me

" stop drop me this instant am not a baby that need your help?" I yelled at him

I was going crazy my mind my anger issues I hit him hard on his shoulder but he didn't even spoke anything I bite him hard on his shoulder too but he didn't flinch once and soon I realized I had bite him damm hard because I could now taste his blood I look at his face to check if his angry but no damm thing change from his usual cold expression.

we got to the car and he drew me on the car damm it my butt hurt I guess that was the rewards of biting him.

he soon started the car and he was heading to an unknown place too me cause I haven't been here my heart pounded thinking he was kidnapping me.

" stop the car stop me take me back too school please stop " I yelled and yelled until I lost my voice I hit the car widow angry hoping to break the glass but I couldn't and soon I realized I was helpless

this was the second time I felt this helpless I could only cry since I couldn't do nothing.

when suddenly the car stop and he glance at me I took that opportunity too open the door as I ran out it was still raining but I didn't care after all I was all wet before I began too run ontill I fell straight too the ground exhausted guess my damn legs betrayed me of course and everything blurred.

Hanzon came straight too me worried as he carried me I tired telling him too put me down but I had already lost my voice he wrapped my drain body with his coat and pull me in his warm embrace as I sneezed continuously

I had caught a cold he carried me regardless of my struggles.

and then just like a movie I lost my conciousness even though I still wanted to keep my eyes open and watch his every move but my body was too heavy for that I guess I could only pray my silence prayer for my safety as I could only wish fate won't be cruel things time.

one thing on mind was too apologize too Davis one last time but maybe it was too late now.