I don't understand this feeling

Kelly finally look down at herself

she took a deep breath expecting an explanation but no one came and she broke down thinking of the worse think possible and then she realized she had no underwear the embarrassment, the awkward silicient the pain on her head

oh god let the earth just swallow me right now the embarrassment was unbearable

" I ...can explain.." she cut him shot without giving him a chance to speak

" did you undress me?" she ask with rage and tear in her eyes as she found it really hard to say those few words

" and did you rape me? "

" Jesus Christ !" he exclaimed as he took a deep breath

" I can't do such thing too you I undress you and I agree but hear me out first I swore I wore a blind fold I didn't see anything I promise " he said sincerely

" I am really sorry you were so cold your cloth were drained from the rain " he apologized

I finally took a deep breath and then count 1_10 mentally before I opened my eyes.

" you just undress me ?" I asked more too myself

I took a quick glance at him and he look more embarrassed than me.

and then this stupid though came too my head and then my insecurities started laughing at me

he didn't find me attractive yeah am greatful he didn't rape me don't get me wrong but I think I wasn't his type after all, Sonia was right after all, I was still thinking when he said " Kelly I swear nothing happened if that what your thinking" he said and I ignored him while busy checking out myself for any discomfort when suddenly I was pull to him " Kelly ....I can't think of doing that too you trust me " he said with a heavy musclucline tone while breathing on me ears which send a shivering down my spine.

" am sorry" he said looking at me inches away from lips

my heart raced and I could hear the racing beat of my own heart.

looking now at the position we are both in was sexual I was on top of him I have never been this closed too any man or this position I wanted to stand from this horrible position but my heart refused as I found myself locked in his gaze

it was as if he could see through me my soul those nights I had cry those night I wish I was dead.

it just felt natural real dominating and Divine I couldn't place my hand on this feeling I felt butterfly in my stomach I couldn't help but hide my blush and tired looking away from his perscing gaze

but then our eyes met again his face his thin lips that looks tempting and inviting maybe I had a sinful heart .

I suddenly felt this ought to kiss him and I lean in for a kiss but too my disappointment he jump away immediately I lean in and then he sneezed softly and said " I can't afford to get you sick "

I felt heartbroken, maybe I wasn't his types after all he didn't find me beautiful or attractive.

I am black what do I expected from someone handsome and cute even though I had been developing feeling for him but I didn't know if this feeling is love and even if it love the greatest love you can ever loved someone is the ability to let them go .

it hurt I was hurt I know he had a cold but that wasn't why he should have rejected my kiss as if I don't have feeling too.

I lowered my gaze from him feeling rejected and embarrassed when he lift my chin up facing him I tired too avoid his gaze but the next second I was locked in his gaze.

the next second he pull me into a fiery passionate kiss.

he savoured my lips as he slowly let his tongue inside my mouth.

they stop for a while, while breathing heavily,

and then he pull her in to a deep and yet passionate kiss he slowly worked his arm in her body while taking off her shirt he kiss her nape down too her chest

and a moan escaped her lips

he stop for a second the moment she was fully and bare naked he gasped and his mouth hang open for a second her damm long black hair was scattered on her shoulder and her every shape was in full view.

" open your eyes Kelly" he said more like a command but she obeyed as if been controlled.

and then met his gaze gazing down at her body Kelly couldn't help but blush she tired blocking her body from his gaze but he shoved them aside away from her damm round breast .

his arm slowly slipped from her shoulder and stop on her slender curve of her neck.

he kiss her passionately but this time it was a bit rough and dominating he stop for a few seconds as they both caught their breathe.

he watch her bare chest rising and falling he rested his head on the bridge of her chest while listening to her heart beat

he brushed the hair away from her face tugging them behind her ears his touch sent electric running through her spine

" how do you feel?" he ask gazing at her

embarrassed and shy too speak she felt she was in cloud nine looking at her shirt on the floor and bare naked with a man gazing down at her breast making her nipples harden

" I.... don't know how too feel it, you are my first and I don't know how to respond too this feeling" she said sincerely

saying that she felt aware of how vulnerable she was now she moved her arms to cover up her self when he suddenly moved stiffly and covered her with the sheet on the sofa he slept on he covered her properly and jump from the couch and left.

she watch him leave he didn't even look back at her not even once.