#Chapter53 I Just Need You
it has been another week and I haven’t seen my father since forever .
I was wondering where he is and what he was doing now . his words ringing in my head .
you're not my son
I lost him and my mum I lost both of them but in a different way ..
I know my mum loves me and she loved me until her death but my dad doesn’t love me anymore .
he's ashamed of me now.
he hates me ..
I opened my eyes to the sunlight from the window. waking up was a beautiful thing somtimes . because I would almost always wake up to Kyungsoos beautiful sleeping face besides me.
I liked laying my arm around him and kissing him so softly on his forehead or cheek to not wake him up .
but then on other days he wouldn’t get propper sleep at all because nightmares haunt him and he wakes up screaming and struggling around even when I hold him still ..