#Chapter80
Chapter song motivation by Kelly Rowland
Everything went silent hearing only the adrenaline in me pumping and his now soft breathing. I hurt myself by hurting him, his words pierced my soul deeper than I imagined. All these times he was alive hating myself over and over again for that grave stupidity. I couldn't even send a search party for his body because I was scared of what I will see, his body looking back at me eating the guilt so I freaked out. I was scared and regret didn't leave my heart rather it lived inside a home. I couldn't bring myself to look at his body, I couldn't bring myself to bury him, I couldn't bring myself to see if he was alive after such a heavy fall; so looking at him now in the eye, his hands holding mine, saying those hurtful words I bawled my eyes.