Chapter 3

Mike has started to open up to me about him. He was not in a good relationship with his mother. He was sent to a home led by a foreigner for orphaned and single parent who struggles at the age of two. He returned to his home at 14 years. So he talks lesser to his mother as there were no proper communication between them while he stayed at home. He also don't have many friends and he actually is not a person who can maintain good relationship with others. He is kinda alone person who don't mingle too much with others. Just hi and bye type. So when he opened up to me, I felt his loneliness and I wanted to be the first person he can think of when he need someone to talk to and someone who can take away his loneliness. I wanted to be part of his life and show him how love is beautiful in life. So, I directly proposed him.

I thought my proposal would be successful but I never expected that he would reject me. I was hurt but still didn't want to let his alone. I decided to stay just as a friend for him and asked him to forget about my proposal.

He told me that if I insisted, he could have said yes. I thought he is just playing hard to get and since I never take love lightly, I started pursuing him. He didn't accept me but didn't rejected me as well. We had a good special bonding. He might be flirting with me or playing with my emotions but I feel deep for him where I couldn't turn myself back.

For four years, we fought several times. He would stop talking with me without any words. He would block me. He would avoid me. But we patched up everytime. And after every patchups, our understanding would always grow and we got more closer after each fight.

I thought, after university he will accept me. But shockingly, he said "let's stop talking with each other. I am going to a bible school where phones are not allowed. So, I won't contact you hereafter. I feel you are not the girl for me. I will pray. If Jesus tells me you are the one for me, I will search for you and come to you. If not, we will go on with our life." I was broken but I had faith on my Jesus. I asked several times to Jesus and everytime I got the answer that he is my one. So, I know Jesus will make him come to me.

However, before he actually go to Bible school, he blocked me from everything and I couldn't help crying, being hurt. I knew that if I don't deviate myself, I would just go mad. My love for him can't be expressed by mere words. I loved him so much and crazily to pursue him for 4 years. I started working immediately in a MNC. Though I successfully managed to deviate myself, every day after my working hours, I still missed him. I felt much pain in my heart. I cried everyday. I couldn't stop loving him. I couldn't move on. The more I wanted to stop thinking about him, the more I kept thinking about him.

After 6 months, I resigned my work due to some health issues. I went back to my home. My hometown is not a city and there were no companies to work. So I stayed at home to recuperate. However, those time at home were heel for me. I didn't have anything to do which reminds me more about him. I literally felt so much pain in my heart that I couldn't bear anymore. I felt like I am dying everyday. I didn't want my parents to know. So, it was too difficult for me to manage my emotions. I realised that my heart is breaking into several pieces each day. The pain I felt was unbearable and I decided to give up.

But our life doesn't always go as we plan. It throws an unexpected twists and turns. My one sided, unrequited love story ended here but my other part of story started with an unexpected twist.