Hesitation

"That is probably because you can't control them. No normal person has had a life where they only had suffering or only happiness," Emily said.

"It seems that we are heading to a cringe topic," Ethan shrugged.

"I guess boys at your age tend to avoid this kind of talk," Emily shrugged. "Anyway, back to what I said. If you focus, you can probably recall the good parts of the memories that you obtained as well. Although it is clear that the bad ones tend to last for longer."

"I am sure that will make me a happy-go-lucky person," Ethan said.

"I guess this conversation won't go anywhere until you see some results," Emily said and then sighed. "Get a random weapon and infuse it with your mana."

Ethan decided to give it a try. He reached for a small knife that was nearby and held it in his hand. Concentrating his mana, he infused it into the blade, visualizing the energy intertwining with the metal.