HE'S NO LONGER THE GUY THAT I FALL IN LOVE WITH.

Levinia parents relationship are getting worst day by day. There is a time her father throw the clothes of her mom outside the house. Her dad punch the window his dad are bleeding and levinia was watching them while crying she can't hold it anymore so she decides to slap the window her hand got swollen but thankfully there is no wounds. Her parents didn't notice so she decided again to throw the glass and told them to stop her parents didn't listen.

Her mother can't take it anymore she was having a lot of thoughts going around her head. Levinia thinks her parents will be decided to broke up but her parents didn't talk about separating that time but her mother's patience are going to explode she can't no longer take her father personality.

At the middle of the night her parents are fight again and her mother tried to wake her up and told her to stop her father to committing suicide. Her father toke a extention wire and tie it to the balcony to made it like a rope. Levinia tried to stop her father and her father notice that levinia is awake so he said go back to your room levinia was curious what was that it's like an extension wire her father said it was nothing.

She did go back to her room while her parents are downstairs talking she heard her father said if your going to leave me I'll kill myself it was like a threatening words her mother got worried and said okay I won't so stop please think about our children especially levinia her father come to his sense and decide to stop and he goes back to their room to go back to sleep and it's like nothing happened.

Levinia mother followed as well and decide to go to sleep before she close her eyes she was been thinking that she doesn't her husband anymore he's no longer the guy that i married, should i give him another chance? She noticed it almost 2:00 in the morning so she decided to close her eyes and go to sleep.

Tomorrow morning his husband came to her begging to forgive him and give him another chance. Levinia mother (has been thinking a lot after the worst fight she decided to give her husband a chance for their children) so she said okay I'll give you another chance but if you made a mistake again I would never forgive you mark my word.

Levinia father was happy that his wife giving him another chance while her mother was worried if his husband would brake the thing she said.

After two weeks have passed it's levinia mothers birthday. They celebrated at home buying cakes her father brought a flower for her mom levinia was smirk she thinks that flowers is not just a gift but also an apology to what happened that day.

They looked happy levinia has been scared of being a happy after all that happened to her life because she thinks that everytime she's happy there is something expected will happened that the smile will faded away and turn to a sad, worry, confusion, angry and resentment that's what she scared of so everytime there is a happy moment she limited her smile and her emotion.

Levinia notice that her mother smile is not the same anymore. It is a smile that her affection to her dad is faded away little by little. Levinia was scared and her thoughts are making her more worried all she think is that what if her parents broke up, what if they decided to separate ways on their own, what if they wants us to choose between one of them, i don't wanted to choose either one of them ohhh god help me please don't let my thoughts be true, I don't know what will I do.

Levinia prayed every night even she not a type of a person who prayed every single night but this time she's desperate she called the god, her grandmother, her great grandmother who ever listened she hope and prayed that his dad will change, she hope that her parents relationship will not get worst, she hope that all the things she scared will not come true she ask her grandma for help that what if the things that she's scared of will be come true someday that choosing between the two of her parents.

Levinia thinking a way to resolve her parents not to fight each other will her thoughts make are crazy because she thinks that what if she die maybe they will be no fight, should i cut myself, no should I drink something that make me die slowly...ahhhh what else should I do to stop them fighting over and over. I'm tired of every, I'm tired of listening to their fight, I'm really tired grandma should I follow you up there.. She laughed and cried that her thoughts are crazy that she's thinking stupid things that make it worst.

"Don't let your negative thoughts win always remember letting your negative thoughts wins wil never put you in a good spot."