73. Letting go

Anastasia...

I don't know what had happened, but then I found myself with an urge to just get out of this place and disappear. Them chasing behind me increased that urge to just leave.

They lied to me.

All of them and they made me believe that I was stupid in the end. They filled my heart with so much regret and that pierced through my heart. I felt like I lacked intellectuality in this aspect because I decided to choose people who had taken me from my family over my own family.

I should have listened to Tae and Andrea but then I didn't. I was blinded by love for a man that only brought destruction to the world. A man who always made sure he did what he wanted. I loved a man who hurt me and I still do love him.

That is what hurts the most. I loved someone so blindly that I put my trust in all they did and was willing to always support him in everything he did. Now this is where that trust led me, jumping into an awaiting car and closing the door.