12. The Longing and the Oneness

Each time Ayana woke up from a few hours of dreamy sleep, she felt a bit different, as if she was a new being. She wondered if the complex pieces of her personality and inner being would slowly come together, allowing her to understand who she truly was.

She found a deep inner longing to break free from the restrictions of her former self and to welcome the new one. A yearning for freedom, wholeness, and connection. Was this process of viewing her entire soul mosaic with all its facets and wonders necessary, so she could accept and embrace herself fully, before she was able to become what had been prophesied in her inner soul script? Was her profound longing truly a yearning to be one and whole with herself?

During one of her inner dream journeys, she found herself in a beautiful garden. In the middle was a pond shimmering in the sunlight, reflecting its tranquil surroundings. Petals of flowers danced atop the water's surface, twinkling like stars, creating a mesmerising kaleidoscope of colours. The aroma of flowers filled the air, like a summer garden in full bloom. The gentle bubbling created a calming atmosphere, like a brook trickling through a meadow on its way to the sea. Ayana felt at peace.

In her inner images, Ayana saw a woman approaching her with a warm smile radiating deep and pure love. Drawn and attracted to her, the realisation felt like a healing balm for Ayana's soul. Tears of joy and sadness came out at the same time as she was connected to the love she had been longing for. At this moment, she awoke.

She realised that the pond was a reflection of her own longing for connection, love, and oneness. She felt her desire to be in a loving relationship, to be supported and seen for whom she truly was. No matter if High Priestess or not, she hoped there wasn't any law to keep her away from having this beautiful experience.

There was another message in her dream, she found. The loving woman represented every being that she could love, no matter if man or woman. She felt that her love would always be open and free, even if things worked out with Amun. Or would Kofi be a better fit? She wanted to be with someone who accepted her unique gifts and strengths without judgement; someone who resonated deeply with her soul's mission on Sanuela; someone whose presence filled her heart with warmth and compassion; someone whom she could trust completely with all of herself – body, mind, and spirit. The challenge was that either Amun or Kofi would fit this description.

Before her first meetings with Kofi, she had already realised that Amun was indeed the perfect fit for her in every way. They shared a deep connection from their very first meeting – as if they had known each other for eons – and after spending time together, it became evident that he possessed all the qualities and energies that she wanted to experience in a loving, caring relationship. He was passionate about adventure, his eyes lit up when talking about the world he wanted to experience. He had already been living for a few years in the far away northern realms of Sanuela and intended to continue to explore different parts of their wonderful world. This excited her, as Ayana loved to travel, and she wanted to see the whole world with Amun.

And then, she encountered Kofi. And she began to love him too. Whenever they were together, it was enchanting and extraordinary and the atmosphere was charged with an intensity of love as a hot summer mist, tingling through every sparkling cell of her vibrant body.

They exchanged stories, connecting on many levels – both spiritually and emotionally – and Ayana realised that she could easily envision living a life with Kofi. They were two independent souls sharing a similar vision of how they wanted to live their lives, always embracing whatever surprises lay ahead.

The hours they spent together flew by, brimming with laughter, warmth, and love. Every moment together was cherished, and Ayana felt her life rapidly shift into a higher gear with him. And Kofi found himself ceaselessly drawn to her, feeling deep contentment whenever they were together.

The more time Ayana spent with Kofi, the more her heart opened up to him. She began to feel deeply connected on an energetic level; it almost felt like their souls were reuniting here in Sanuela after another life together. Yet, it was still uncertain how long their journey would continue together. She wondered, how Kofi was doing without her. She missed him. And she missed Amun, too.

At one time, on her long journey through the caves, Ayana felt utterly alone. She was yearning for love – but a love so deep within her that it hurt as much as it thrilled. Overwhelmed with grief and emptiness, she reached out to Ignisia within herself, asking plaintively, "What do I do when my longing for the deepest love within me is unbearable?"

Ignisia answered with a deep vibration from her heart, like the sound of a gong. "Find the centre of your deep divine longing for unconditional love and eternal oneness," the answer came.

Ayana closed her eyes and directed her attention to her breath, allowing every in-breath to draw her into the moment and each out-breath to cast away burdens she was carrying. She explored the inner sensations as she intentionally began to breath faster. All at once, she knew how to use her deepest yearning for unity as an entrance within.

Ayana felt her hands gently caressing her skin, feeling her longing come alive, vibrating with different colours and sensations. With one hand, she started to touch her heart and imagined herself enveloped in a golden hue of love, surrounded by a purple swirling light.

A warmth rose from her heart, and it opened up more and more. As she opened, a flow ran through her body, as if all the parts of her were swimming in an ocean of unconditional love. As she touched herself, she felt intense waves of warmth and joy filling her body from within.

The pleasant energies invited her to go deeper, to explore further. She felt a stirring in her heart as she let the energies flow through her, feeling her divine essence and true self shining brightly.

The energies moved through her body, gradually intensifying. It felt like energetic waves of sparkling, cooling fire, melting away her sense of separation and dissolving all remaining blockages within her. She experienced a new level of consciousness open up within her, as if she was connected to the entire universe and had access to knowledge and understanding that were previously beyond her reach. Colours, shapes, and symbols all manifested around her. She felt as though she was peering into another dimension, a world of energy and light.

The light kept growing, becoming more and more intense until it seemed to fill the entire room. It was as if her whole universe were bathed in this pure light. In the endless time of the eternal now, the waves of light energy flooded her full being, crashing within her like waves in the ocean, making her astral body tingle and shiver.

She felt a deep sense of pure love and connection within her, as if her inner yin and yang had finally come together as one. Warm energies radiated throughout her body, creating a state of bliss. It felt as if she were held in the arms of the divine. She was connected with everything and everyone.

As she was edging closer towards another wave of inner bliss, a profound peace took over her being, while more surges of celestial astral energies rushed through her, filling her every eternally longing cell with light and divine love. Tears of joy and laughter spilled from her eyes, bringing an immense gratitude for these moments of sheer bliss.

The love pouring through her was overwhelming. In those timeless moments, she felt endless freedom and unity with herself.

After what seemed like an eternity, the light and inner tingles began to fade, yet her connection remained. She felt a deep sense of calm, peace, and understanding that she had not known before. It was a feeling of being connected to everything, a bond that didn't need to be uttered or explained, but simply felt.

Later, Ayana realised that she could access this loving state of inner unity anywhere and at any time by connecting to her longing for oneness and allowing it to blossom into a feeling of unity with Sanuela and, in the end, with her whole universe.

She recognised that this newfound feeling of love, freedom, and unity came from within her. She would bring love and connection into her life in a more honest and open way, perceiving the beauty and possibilities in everything and everyone, including herself. The magical energies of the Mystical Caves had slowly woken her up to the depths of her inner unity.