Sonata Notes

My Heart Beats For You is a dedication to many unsaid love stories which didn't get the power to voice their wish, which were forced to follow the default function, the culture!

The reason for the title is that Heart beating doesn't follow a gender. Does it beat differently for heterogeneous and unrhythmic for the same gender love?

Dean's character is kind of inspired from different antagonist books. A man who trusted and belived wrong person and later became a calm soul after a lot of self reflection. His vision about life changes over time.

Ayan is inspired by Shin Chan(Japanese cartoon character). A boy who knows what to be said at what moment and to whom, isn't it something our parents often tell us?

Roman, he's like an ideal father, husband and son. He didn't get an opportunity to understand and love himself. You won't understand yourself until you face something different than what's served, right?

Also, Roman: the name is chosen because during Roman and Greek era, it's said that there were many men having relationship with each other.

Most difficult task has been writing diverse point of views. Because, I wanted each of my readers to resonate with any of the characters.

I don't know what's your age, how you grew up. Because, everyone has their own way of seeing life as whole thing. You can be a parent, or student, or youthful person or working professionals or just reading for time pass or just skimming through my book.

I wanted it to be worth your time. If my writing could open a new perspective within you, then, I have done a great job. It would make me happy that you can see the world differently and have empathy while understanding others.

Trust me, each one of us wishes to be understood.

Honestly, i still can't believe that My heart beats for you has so many readers. I started it with two of my close watty friends reading it and supporting me.

It's overwhelming.

I started this journey after quitting Fanfiction. I used to write it with so much love. I just wanted an appreciation, which I got after saying many things to them. However, it felt as though I forced them to write down something.

At some point, I started to get insecure seeing other FF authors getting so much love. I used to see their message board filled with love and appreciation, affection for the author and compare my empty one.

I realised that I'm not getting any happiness while writing which was my primary reason to write here. That's why, i bid my bye in rather harsh way and stopped writing for a year or something.

Originally, MHBFY was supposed to be a fanfiction. I returned and turned it to orginal standalone.

I thought, if it's just one person. At least they're reading because they love my writing not because it's about their favourite celebrity.

Slowly and steadily with lots of thoughts this book has finally come to an end.

Walking through this has been a big turn over for me. I started writing it when I was with nothing. I was alone mentally and emotionally, physically somehow keeping my smile for others.

It's my pillow, who knows what I was going through. At some point, I lost hope in myself. I thought, I can't make any difference my life let alone others.

But, somewhere within me, I have/had thought that the graph of my life have plummeted to the lowest. But, in upcoming years I'll soar high with pride.

The world owes you nothing

I have learnt this in hard way. Anyhow, I pushed myself out of the loop hole and became better. Now, I write rather to keep myself happy than expecting praise from readers. I have come a long way and hope, my younger self is proud of me.

I have been hurt so many times that hurt doesn't hurt me anymore. I stopped feeling pain within me. Probably gotten numb from those things. Sometimes, its good to get hurt, it teaches you lesson to never believe in someone.

Those actors are way worse than the haters. At least haters don't put knife on your back. Cause, they point it at your throat.

People aren't born with kindness or evilness. They are the same as the other one. When people/ life hurts them. They turn either kind or bad. They turned kind cause they knew when they needed kindness nobody gave them, they didn't receive any empathy when they stood alone to fight.

That's why the kindest someone is to you or to anyone out there. Know this, they are hurt the most. Vise-versa, with evilness because they believe nobody deserve their kindness.

I don't know if i will ever see my books being in library or bookstore. I don't know whether if that ever happens how will I react. Probably, I will cry hugging it tight.

Whatever the future holds,

I'll say bring it on!

Signing off

— A K Sonata