Osamu 2

"I heard you finally opened your store? Where is it? I'll visit you some other time."

I tried not to smile like a lunatic when Akaashi asked me that with a sweet smile plastered on his thin and pale lips. He looked so pretty when he smiles and just like the first time, my heart still goes gwaah gwaah even after all these years.

The only thing that changed is that we became acquainted with each other because of my onigiri. He became a regular customer of mine since his beloved owl is my twin's team mate now. I still feel hurt whenever I see them together. They've been together for so long and base on what I heard from Tsumu, they're also living together that made me realized that Tsumu is luckier than me coz he got to date the person he loves.

Unlike me who is still suffering from this unrequited love with someone hard to reach.

Someone who is somebody else's lover.

"I'll text you the address later. I'll make you something special if you come." I managed to say without looking weird because of how close we are together now.

We're currently watching the volleyball match of Japan versus Argentina together with some of our acquaintances in high school to support our country. We talked a bit more about my onigiri and random things while the emcee is introducing the players. But when the game starts, he kept on talking to Tsukishima who's sitting on his other side.

I try to stop myself from grinning whenever he teases Tsukishima about his love life but for some reason, whenever he looked at that owl, there's a hint of sadness written on his eyes.

As if his happiness is just a facade.

"Myaa-Sam are you coming with us later to the get together party or you're going home right after?" Akaashi asked that made my heart goes gwaah gwaah and whoosh whoosh to what he called me.

"Myaa-Sam? Is that a nickname for me?" I teased that made him blushed as if he said something I shouldn't have heard.

"Sorry-"

"It's fine. I like it." I teased that made his face redder and may God forgive me but I've been having this urge to kiss those lips of his that he kept on biting out of embarrassment.

Samu... You can't... He's taken. My mind reminded that made me comeback to my senses.

I excused myself to them since the match is about to end and hurried to the nearest comfort room to calm myself. I didn't know that it'll be hard to suppress this overflowing emotion I have that I've been containing for the past years since I first saw him.

If there's one of the things that Tsumu and I had in common, I think it's loving like we're imprinting.

And if there's one thing that we are different, it's that he has more guts than me.

That's why he finally had his happiness, the love of his life, his own wing spiker.

And I'm envious of that, I admit. Because Unlike him, I won't get that one in a lifetime chance to cherish the person I love. I won't stand a chance to Bokuto.

The way Akaashi looked at him, his eyes tell everything.

Bokuto is Akaashi's world.

My wandering mind came back from the vomiting sound to the stall next to mine and a soft sob after that. I was about to go out to check on whoever it is when someone called a familiar name outside the cubicle next to mine.

"I already warned you before Akaashi that you will only suffer if you do that thing, but you didn't listen."

My brows knotted when I heard an unfamiliar voice saying Akaashi's name. I know it's bad to eavesdrop but it's about Akaashi.

"Shut up!" I heard Akaashi's angry voice and his footsteps when he went out of the cubicle.

"I don't regret anything I did. Besides I know that somewhere in his heart, I have a place." He said that made my brows creased.

What are they talking about?

The guy who's with him laughed annoyingly. I don't know why but I have a bad feeling about this guy.

"Do you think he will love the person who lied to him and ruined his relationship? Wake up Akaashi! Did you see how happy he is when he saw Yukie? That's the first time I saw him smile like that after all these years. I bet he never told you even just once that he loves you."

The words of the guy he's with stopped me from going out. For some reason I don't want Akaashi to know that I'm here listening to their conversation. And I'm afraid I'll end up murdering the guy who's deliberately hurting Akaashi with his foul words. But what caught my attention is that I am right that he's not happy in his relationship.

That he's just wearing a mask to hide the real score between him and that owl.

That like me, he's suffering from melanphoria.

A disease brought by love.

A feeling of melancholy and euphoria towards the person you love wholeheartedly.

"Shut the hell up!" Akaashi's angry voice snapped me back to reality and probably startled the people who just entered the comfort room.

I heard Hinata's voice so I'm a bit relieved but I still couldn't get out of the cubicle I'm in. Akaashi acts like there's nothing going on when he greeted Hinata. I went out of the cubicle when I heard him say that he'll go back to Tsukishima. Tsumu and the guy who I finally recognized looked surprised when I went out of the cubicle. He was on the same team with Akaashi and Bokuto back in high school.

"What are ya doing there? Taking a dump?" Tsumu asked but I just smack his head before running out of the comfort room.

I planned to go back to where my acquaintances are, not until I heard a sob from the corridor next to the comfort room so I checked it. And my heart was smashed into pieces when I saw Akaashi kneeling in front of Bokuto while holding his hands.

I thought it's the most painful thing that could hurt me but I was wrong. Not until I heard him plead to the man who's just staring at him with a blank expression on his face.

"I'm sorry. Don't worry I won't do anything. Just please Bokuto-san. Don't leave me." He begged with tears falling on his eyes.

Their former team mate saw them too so he rushed to where they are and pull Akaashi up before I could. So, I turn around and left to stop myself from doing something stupid. I can't hurt that owl that he loves so much. I don't want him to h ate me because of that. So, I retreat.

But in my head, I vowed.

I will make sure that I will pull you out of the vortex of melanphoria you're in, Keiji.