Osamu 6

"Shhh... I'm here."

I whispered gently to Akaashi when he woke up to his nightmares again. His soft cry resounded the room he's staying while clutching his chest as if he's in too much pain and his body is trembling in my arms for some reasons. It's been three months since I brought him with me here in Hyogo and let him stay in Kita-san's house just in case Tsumu go home without notice.

Time flies so fast but not for Akaashi. Although we managed to make him eat without throwing up and make him go out of his room, his nightmares won't disappear that I end up sleeping over to his room from time to time.

And tonight, is one of those nights.

"It's... Painful. Every night it's the same. I can't stop... Chasing him." He said in between sobs and raised his head to look at me with tears visible on his pretty face.

My heart aches but there's nothing I could do to take the pain he's feeling in an instant.

If only I met him first...

If only I am the person, he fell in love with...

I won't let him cry because of sadness.

I gently wipe the tears on his pretty face and kissed his forehead. He seemed not affected by it when I looked at him so I just pull him for an embrace as he keeps on sobbing.

"Akaashi don't run after him in your sleep just for once. I'm with you. I'm here Akaashi. You can stop running after him and just hold on to me." I whispered softly that made him calm down a little, making him stop trembling a little.

We stayed like that until he fell asleep again so I lay him on his futon properly. And when I'm about to sleep on mine, he holds my hand in his sleep that stopped me from leaving his side. I sighed and lay down on the tatami floor facing Akaashi with our hands clasp.

I don't know if I'm doing a great job on making him happy. I don't know if I am doing a great job on easing his pain. And I don't know if there's a way that I can keep him after all this. Because for Akaashi, I'm just a friend. Someone who he can rely on. He's not even aware of my feelings because he's too drowned on his loneliness.

I gently brush the tears that fell on his eyes while sleeping and heaved a deep sigh to stop myself from kissing those pale lips of his that curved a little smile after I wiped his tears. Kita-san asked me before, why I'm still not confessing to him while he's vulnerable?

As much as I want to confess, I'm still waiting for him to move on even just a little bit more. I want to make him mine when I saw his smile again that made me fall in love with him. For now, I just want to be his support when he's this vulnerable. I'm not like Tsumu who always go for it. I'm reckless but I always go for a point one at a time. Just like in volleyball, as long as the ball hasn't drop yet, the rally will keep going and for sure, I'll get the chance to score making my opponent surprised by it.

As long as I won't give up this love for him, I'll keep being just a friend and when he finally moved on from that owl even just a little, then that's the time for me to make a proper move to make him mine.

My thoughts got cut off when Akaashi let go of my hand, moved a little bit closer to mine, and hugged me on his sleep, burying his face to my chest making it hard for me to breathe properly.

Good luck on that. Seeing how attached he is to you without any malice, I don't know when you will end up jumping him because you can't keep it to yourself anymore.

Kita-san's words echoed in my head. I cover my eyes with my hands, biting my lips to suppress myself from groaning.

"Akaashi..." I mumbled his name softly and looked at him in pain because of this sudden closeness of our bodies.

"Damn it. You're making it hard for me to hold back." I whispered before planting a soft kiss on his forehead.

"Samu..."

I froze when he called my name but I feel relieved when I saw him still sleeping in my arms.

"Samu...help...me." He mumbled on his sleep in between sobs that made me hugged him tighter with a smile on my lips.

Finally, you let him go in your sleep.

Finally, it's my name you're calling now.

"I'm here Akaashi... I love you." I whispered gently while hugging him tight until I fell asleep with him in my arms.