Chapter Ninety six

I walked into my daughter's room, it was something I have never expected. Now I understand why Sam told me that Sunny doesn't need the Bunny I bought for her, her room was full of toys. Different types of Bunny that make me look like I haven't been taking care of my daughter, I bent over my daughter and kissed my daughter with a forced smile  "Your room look is nice" Just saying this broke my heart, I didn't want my daughter here I wanted to take my daughter with me.

"I have a lot of toys" Sunny sad face now lit up in a smile. "Father and second mum bought all this for me". "Father? Why are you calling him father Sunny, didn't I tell you to hate him that anyone who hated your mum Is not a good person and no one else is your mum except me" I became angry, angry that she considers them heartless freak a father and also Tara as her second mum.

I looked down to see Sunny watching me in surprise, I have shouted at her that wasn't what I wanted. I bent toward her now teary eyes. "I'm so sorry baby I shouldn't have done that" I brought her close and wrapped my arms around her. "Did you still need that? I asked pulling her away gently to stare at her cute face. Sunny nodded hugging the Bunny tightly to her bosom. " I love him" I smiled at that before straightening up and allowing Sunny to fill me in on what she has been doing this last week.

Second...Umm I mean Aunt, she took me to Disneyland theirs a lot of toys and also to my new friend birthday her name is cherry, did you know Cherry mum and Aunt took me with them on a flight to go watch a big show" I watched my daughter blab and blab about the new place she has been and how happy she has been to see all of that". I felt my heart sinking on every detail she gave out, they were trying to make her forget me, they wanted to make my daughter think they were her best parent. I have spent days snd weeks at the hospital worrying over my daughter, but it seems here she had never missed me. It looks as if I have lost access to my daughter's happiness, I can't provide any of what Sam has already provided for her this past month.

He wanted to tell me that I have not been a good mother and now I don't even know what would make my daughters, it never going to be the little things I've provided for her before now... I don't even know my stand, it was all too much for me too much that my daughters seem very happy in this house in a place I never wanted her to be, it hurts. "Mummy are you okay" I turned to see my daughter's worried face staring up at me. I nodded and pat her back. "Did you want to go back with me". " mummy I love here" she smiled holding onto my hands. "No you can't" My heart screamed in anger and heartbreak. I couldn't provide any of these things for my daughter and I don't know if I can. 

But she shouldn't like this place, this house "no, I shook my head and sniffed back my tears. "why mum? She pouts. " It... It's because your mum wouldn't be staying here with you". "Why is that, I...I thought you're now going to stay with me here". "No... But I want to stay with you". " Then stay with me... Don't leave me again". She has already started to sob. "Please mum don't leave me again. 

I hugged her tight. "I'm not leaving you, I would never leave you... It's just that..." I wanted to tell her what that man she called a dad has done to our perfect relationship but she was too young to understand any of that.  "Because... Mummy has a lot of things to do that's why I'm leaving here and I promise you I would be visiting you anytime you need me..." I open my bag to give her my number. "Anytime you miss me, Just pick up the phone and call me". She nodded but continue crying.

" Sunny, you know mummy loves you so much" she nodded. "I'll be visiting you okay" I kissed her cheeks. "How about we play a little, how is that" now her face lit up in a smile. "Let's play with my castle, about king and queen in their castle" 

I left my daughter's room when I have put her to bed because I know if she sees me leaving she'll start crying again. "How was your stay" I stopped to look up the stairs where I heard Tara's voice. "Did you see how my daughter loves here? I clenched my bag tightly and fight my temper to keep calm. " She isn't your daughter". "Of course, she is, or didn't you hear what she has been calling me? Second mum" she laughed coming down the stairs. "She loves me like her mum"

"She loves you like a stupid step mum, you said she called second mum right? And that is what you'll remain as for the rest of your life, a second and you'll never be the first so stop smiling because it's a shame to be barren.

I watched the painful expression on her face. " if you think that you have won this" I shook my head. "Just know you can bever win you're a failure and that's what you'll always be...a failure and no matter how hard you try my daughter would never be yours". " I'll win, just know your nothing because your poor". I shrugged "poor but still, you want my child" I laugh. "Just take note... If anything happens to my daughter, I'm going to kill you with my bare hands.