Chapter Hundred and Sixty one

"And what made you think I'm interested? Tara asked raising her eyebroQw at her "Why would you think I would even allow you here after you walked out of here all determine.

"I ....I really want to do this now, I'm determined to do this now" "And Why now, what made you change your mind? Gina swallowed and twisted her finger tryings not to sound angry or mad.

"I'm..I really hate my family condition_ "And what does that have to do with me??? I'm not a member of your family"

Gina stared madly at her, this woman was driving her crazy. Everything about her was driving her crazy, she was through pretentious and cunning.

"I know you're not a member of my family but I can't keep seeing them suffer why I do nothing". "And how's that my business Gina?

"You know what I'm talking about? You made them throw us out of our home, you worsen our condition because I refuse to keep doing what you ask!

Now tears was streaming down in her eyes but Tara stared at her emotionlessly "I still don't know what you're talking about, I didn't do anything" Gina shook her head, she had enough of this. 

"And now I'm going to ask you to leave my office". "You can't do this, Please you can't! "I can do anything I want to do, now leave" she didn't want to, she can't just leave like that, she can't keep seeing her family suffer this way.

"Please......". But the hard glared from Tara made her to stand with tears in her eyes and anger in her heart. She didn't want to leave because that would make her out of options. 

This was a woman who has drove her family in severe hardship in just a week, She took a deep breath and finally turned to the door, she had such a high hope that Tara would take her back and her family would start living well again like.

But all her hopes has been shattered like a broken glass. "Stop" she didn't expect to hear her voice but she did as she was ordered before turning slowly to her. 

"Make sure you keep an eye on my daughter and report back to me" Gina wasn't expecting those words but she finally agrees after making her feel unimportant "And what about my family....

She expected her to say something, to assure her that she would sort that out but she just waved her away as if she was just an insect that's causing nusiance.

Without a word Gina turn and Left the office, she was going to do what she this time, she wouldn't say she was happy doing it but at least she was relief, they wouldn't have to look for somewhere to sleep at night.

"Where were you? Jade glared at her angrily, of course she had planned on what to say, she hate being thus person she was now but that's the only solution to help her parents.

"I....I'm so sorry that I didn't show up yesterday evening". "Of course you should be and I Just feel like breaking.your head into two". Sunny groaned as she made her way toward them.

"I told you Jade you shouldn't be this way, she had her reason" "And whatever that reason might be don't you think it necessary to tell you friends and not to leave them hanging"

"I'm sorry, something came up and I had to be within my mum, she needed me so I have to cancel". "And how are s your parent? Sunny asked concern. "Oh, she's fine". 

"I'm glad to know and by the way I spoke to my mum and she have decided to help" Gina swallowed hard, wanting so much to curse that woman out loud to tell Sunny that Tara wasn't the perfect woman she acted to be in front of her instead she was a monster.

A woman with a beautiful face but the heart of a monster, just because she wanted her to be submissive to her she had made her family went through worst after having high hopes that their problem has been sorted out.

"Where are your thoughts" Sunny snapped her fingers in front of her face. "Ummm, I'm Just .... excited, thanks so much for looking out to me" Gina swallowed the bitter words she had wanted to spill. 

"Of course, what are friends for" Sunny smiled, Gina couldn't help but feel sad and bitter, she was only living in Tara's shadow, she just realize and....then it drawn to her that Rebecca wasn't at all a liar and uncaring mum, it was Tara who was.

"Have you thought this over" Rebecca looked up from her office chair where she was tidying up some files, she knows he was hurt but she had really made up her mind and she knows that he knows that.

"You know I have already made up my mind, theirs nothing here for me again, it just feels empty....void....like I can never explain how I'm feeling" John didn't talk but stood and watched the fragile woman he had taken it and made her see the reason why she should take revenge for what Sam had done to her 

She didn't blame her for giving up, he knows that she have tried, she had did get best to survive to stay strong for one person that she was giving up in now.

She had taken all this year's to be strong again, to fight the shadow weighing her down.

 She had taken time to build herself so that get daughter, the one person she loves so much in thus world wouldn't grow up to see a horror of woman she would had become.

She had taken all that time but it turns out now t be a waste of time, the very person she had done this for had turned her back on her and loved her enemy more, not because she was aware of that but because she was crowded in lies. 

Sunny was blinded by the lies around her and making her to realize that was very difficult, he wished their was a way he could help and he knows very well that she even though Rebecca leaves from here, it wouldn't help in any way but instead inflict more pain to her she injury.

More years of living in sorrow after having such hopes that her daughter would return to her, she would never be able the overcome the pain she would feel instead she would drowned in it.....

John looked at that eye that held so much pain, he had seen so much hope in them when he first arrived but now it seems that all the joy and hope that she had in them have been all drained away.

"I might not understand how you feel Rebecca" that was a lie because he understand clearly how she feels"But always know I'm always here for you whenever you needed me" he smiled and Left her alone for the main time.

Rebecca sank in her chair and tried to take steady breath to calm herself, she felt this heaviness and pull to somewhere to somewhere dark.

An uncontrollable pull, pulling her down and all she has do now was to escape from it, to escape from that darkness pulling her down.

She thought of Andrew on what he had taken told her, he had seen and spoken to Sunny and he knows what had been going on. She wished she hadn't known, she wished that he wasn't involved in this because this exactly feel like the old time.

Sunny had of course spoken about her that's the only way he would have found out and now she realized the feeling he has toward her.

The way he had looked and spoken to her was because he was pitying her, she dragged her hand through her head and close her eyes for sometimes.

He was only pitying her and had volunteer to speak with her maybe to help her, she hate to realize this to know , all those years that she believed that he loved her the only feeling he has toward her was pity not love.

She had looked at those eyes that she thought held so much love for her and only to realized that all those years the only feeling is there was pity.

She stood up and went over to pour herself a glass of whiskey, it burned her throat but also calmed her nevers, she took the bottle to her chair and kept drowning the liquid, she would only feel a bit better this way.

Sunny drove home half drunk even at that she love this feeling, the feeling of being calm and angry, sane and at the same time mad, it was strange and weird but she loved it that way.

It had been up to a week she had been preparing the go back and haven't told her sister, she was still waiting for the best time to break the news to her.

She had to but not now.....she yanked open the door and tried to walk steadily to the house not minding to look around, the only thing she wanted so bad so badly now is to feel the bed against her back.

The whiskey has really done what she wanted, she wouldn't have time to think through the night or feel the disturbing headache that usually tore her head apart through the night.

She pulled opened the door and made her way down her hall to climb the stairs when she heard someone, someone was inside her house.

She turned abruptly to know who it was only to find her sister standing beside the door "Jeez, you gave me a flight Emily" Rebecca held her chest and observe her sister.

"What are your doing here by then  time of the night it....." Rebecca glance at her wrist watch. "it Ten on the dot, it too late for you to be here" but she didn't talk or do anything, Emily was Just standing there with an expression she couldn't read.

"Is something wrong? she asked trying to clear the fussiness in her head. Rebecca watched as tears slide down from her cheeks, this could only mean one thing "You found out" It wasn't a question because it was already written on her face that she had found out the truth.

"You didn't want to tell me" Emily slowly said, she couldn't b