A few minutes to five, I was done getting my things ready to leave. I need to go grab some fun and you know my idea of fun?, sitting by myself and visualizing my world. You might see it as me being weird,but that's what makes me.
I have been here by he roadside for a few minutes waiting for a cab,none seem to be coming. I could not wait any longer,so I decided to make it home on foot. I have not gone like ten minutes,when I sighted him. I could not believe my eyes that I m seeing him again. My heartbeat rose ten times over. I just want to get myself checked, how could the sight of him do this to me?. I reached where he was standing with one other guy,I quickened my steps but before that I gave him the look that says
"What are you doing to me?".
My 21 years of life,I have kept myself from anything that will bring shame to my Christian faith. I was what people would describe as a perfect good girl but the way my hormones are acting up,the good girl will soon go bad. It's unfair on my own part.
I got home. I needed to chill from all these emotions I am feeling, I felt trampled up,lied to and worst of all,I feel unloved. I am tired of trying to keep up with these societal norms, it is driving me crazy. It's time to go bad. I ventured into my room, stripped down my clothes, keeping my undies. I could do what I want to do if I want to but the guilt will kill me. If any one should know me better,it should be me.
My mind wandered to the handsome dude. I don't even know his name,courage I don't have.
I took my bath, settled down on my bed and picked my phone for some fun catching. I called Nora but she did not pick.I logged in to my Facebook and hi Nora to call me as soon as she sees my chat. I needed to talk to someone tonight and she is the only one who could understand me at the moment.
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I woke up startled,it was already midnight
"shit!"
I exclaimed,I actually slept off. I checked my phone to see 2 missed calls from mom and 2 others from Nora. I stood up and went to my kitchen to get water.
While making my way to the kitchen,I came across the wall mirror on the corridor. I stared at the reflection I saw on the mirror .With messy hair and cat like eyes,I know I am not that beautiful,but I love the girl I am becoming.
I got to the kitchen and opened my mini fridge,I took the water to sip when I heard my phone ringing,I took the water can and rushed to pick the call,I checked and it was mom calling again.
I sighed and picked her call. Immediately the call came through,what I heard was not surprising.
A Few minutes,I got off the call. What else if not for that my pastor wants to see me,that he saw revelation. Well I guessed I will go see him after work later today . I dropped the phone and went back to sleep.