Chapter 133 Goodbye

    I asked praying for my fears not to come through. What would I do if she decided to give up on a relationship that we barely started. She held my face and smiled bitterly.

   "You are a good and loving soul and I don't deserve you...."

   She said and I shushed her. What does she mean she does not deserve me. If she does not deserve me who does?. I should be the one telling her that.

  "Don't say that please, Whatever the problem is  we will solve it together. No one is perfect,we will make our imperfections perfect, okay"

   I Said  trying to change her mind on whatever she wants to say.

    "I am sorry Ben but we can't be"

She said and I dropped down my hands that was on her cheeks and stared at her as if she has said the unspeakable. What does she mean by we can't be together.

   "Why Nora?"

I asked hoping she will give me a good explanation for what she said.

   "I belong to another"

She said and smiled bitterly. She belongs to another and she failed to tell me.

   "You are engaged?"

I asked with no emotions in my voice and stared at her fingers checking for any ring but I saw none.

  " Yes I am"

She said. I looked at her. Is it her way of telling me she does not want  me or is she truly engaged?.

   "So Nora, what were you thinking when you accepted my proposal or did you just got engaged huh?"

I asked. I was expecting myself to feel sorry but no,I felt calm.

    "Do you really know what it means to love someone,have high hopes of being with the one you love. She accepting your proposal but in no less than an hour she crashed that dream of yours by saying she belongs to another huh?"

   I asked hoping that she can relate but how can she understands when she has not been in that kind of shoes. I am not angry at her.

    "I am sorry Ben,I did not mean to arose your hopes. I am deeply sorry,I love him and I don't want to cheat on him anymore"

    She said and I calmly nodded. I understand and I can accept that,I love her for opening up to me.

     I hope to wake up from this nightmare but I know it's no nightmare...

    "I wish you all the happiness you can get.Thanks Angel for today and any other I have spent with you,I guess it's a goodbye"

   I said,bent over and kissed her forehead. I know I vowed never to let her go even if she wants and it's time to prove what I said but what profit will I have if I continue to give her reasons to stay with me when her heart belongs to another man.

    I looked at her for the last time and strolled out of the bathroom,her room towards the living room. I picked my trousers and my shirt and put them on,picked my car key and left her apartment. It's last time I will be coming here. I never regretted the times I spent with her,I smiled at the memories.

    What a nice dream coming to an end?. Whoever she is engaged to is a lucky person because I could tell that her type is rare.

  "May I find my Nora soon"

I said and brought the car engine to life and drove off her driveway mentally saying my last goodbye.

Nora's point of view.... 

   I am such an asshole. What have I done? Once again I have hurt him?. 

    I sniffed back my tears and stood up from the bath with a heavy heart,I can't believe that I will not be able to see Ben again.

    I don't know if I did the right thing,I hope I did. He was the nicest person I have met apart from Gina.

      I know you all thinks I am a bad person but what I did,I did it for his own good because I know right from time that being with Ben was not going to be possible. Sooner or later,my mate will find me.

    I should not have accepted his proposal at the first place. I hope he finds a place in his heart to forgive me and for him to find love soon with a woman who will know his worth and cherish him for the rest of his days.

      I picked a towel from it's rank and wrapped my body in it and went out of the bathroom.

    His fragrance linger around and the hurt I felt increased.

     His memories are all on the past,I bet he is moving on and I should do that too.

    "Thanks Persistent Pest"

I smiled sadly. He and I could have be but who am I kidding?.

     I dried my body and creamed my body. It's time to go back to how things were before.

    Gina is my priority and she has always been. I was lost in momentarily love story.

     I have some explanations to do and I think it's time I tell her all she needs to know about Glamorous. 

     I finished dressing up and got my purse and left the room. I got to the living room and my clothes were littered everywhere together with the dishes we used for breakfast.

    I shook my head and got down to business. I picked the breakfast tray and took it to the kitchen,I returned and packed my clothes and put them inside the washing machine. I returned to the living room and I arranged it in order. I picked my purse and left.