Chapter 171 Pain Absorber

    My emotions were so clouded, I did not know what I was feeling at the moment. The pain of the past or the pain of being mateless. My tears continue to flow none stop,I have been walking for a long time with no thought of getting a cab to take me home.

    Maybe if I walk I might get relieved,I wish Gina is still here with me,I would have known what to do right now.

   "Where are you?"

"I don't know how long it's gonna you take to find me"

"I have been waiting for so long,"

"Wishing for you day and night"

 "Is it my fault,is it my fault that you ain't here"

"What will I do,what will I do if you ain't here"

"Give me a clue to find you cuz I am getting lost"

"Please find me,I beg you"

    I found myself singing the words that flows through me,I am damned miserable right now and all Sharon could do is pop out from nowhere to remind me of what I am trying to forget. How selfish of her to do this to us and still have the guts to come to me after a century,where have she been huh?.

    "Mother I am been lonely for as long as I can remember,what should I do?. I need to find my mate mom,I need to find happiness,I deserve that at least. Don't you think life is being unfair?"

I murmured to myself hoping for my mom to at least hear me and tell me what to do.

    I have been walking  blindly not knowing where I am heading to,I just have to stop and go home. It's around three in the afternoon and anyone seeing me like this will think otherwise.

   I managed to get to a high way and hailed down a cab. After I gave him my address,he zoomed off.

    I kept murmuring to myself non stopping, occasionally the cab driver will look at me from the rear mirror and I could care less.

   "See ma'am whatever it is that is bothering you,just know that it is going to be okay. It's not the end of the world yet."

  The cab guy said and I smiled in my tears.

    "Thanks so much,I appreciate. I hope it's get better soon because I am losing it."

I said, wiping my tears away.

   "Anyway I am Nora and you are?"

"Kristen"

He replied and faced his front. I smiled in appreciation.

   "Thanks Kristen,I appreciate."

I said once again and he smiled.

   We continued chatting until we got to my driveway and he pulled over, I paid my fares and picked my purse and made to get down.

    "Nice talking to you,hope to see you next time"

He said and I gave him a cheeky smile.

"I hope so."

I said and got down. He waved at me and zoomed off.

    Taking with him had made me to forget my sorrows, some people are actually pain absorber. I smiled cheerfully and walked to my door.

   Who could believe that I will be smiling like this after all that I went through this afternoon.

  I opened the door and walked in. I did not get to eat lunch so I better fix myself something to eat and then have a little rest.

    I made my way to the kitchen and found Mom sitting on the kitchen stool, waiting impatiently for me. Mom coming here to see me is unusual,she has not done that in ages. Why is she here now?.

   "Mom what are you doing here?"

I asked with no emotions in my voice.

   "Why,you cried out to me not quite long ago or did you forget?"

She said and I huffed. 

   "Oh please spare me that,it was a mistake though"

I said meanly. I don't even know why I am mad at her.

  "Nora, you do not have to be this bitter,I am sorry I have not visited you for years now but I thought you know why I could not come to visit and when I tried and I could not see how,I thought it will be for the best, in that way you will move on and I was right because you moved on. I must thank Gina for that."

   She said and made her way towards me.

   "Don't be mad at me darling"

She said and hugged me,I was so reluctant to hug her but I hugged her anyway.

   She has her reasons though so I should not be mad at her. I was wishing for her to come to my aid not long ago and now she is here,I am being difficult.